Trigger warning mentions rape and self harm.

Gerard's POV


I woke up and everything hurt, like literally everything. I saw Mikey sleeping facing me with his glasses still on so I gently took his glasses off and Mikey sighed loudly and rolled over so his back was too me.
I sat up and groaned loudly not really caring about waking Mikey up and looked round the room.
"This isn't my room." I muttered.
"Shut up Tony." Mikey mumbled and I looked at him and smiled slightly and moved and I had to hold back my shouting in pain and I climbed over Mikey which hurt a lot and I pulled the covers back over him.
I limped and whimpered back to where I could hear voices.
"Frank?" I whispered and I felt my legs give out from under me and I heard someone run over and I saw a pair of tattooed hands and arms reaching out.
I had to look at their hands since Max was also covered in tattoos.
"Gee, look at me. Tell me where it hurts." They said and I looked at them and saw it was Frank.
"Tell me where it hurts Gee." Frank said softly and quietly.
"Everywhere. I hurt everywhere." I whispered and felt tears in my eyes as I had flashbacks go through my head.

"You selfish little shit! Why can't you be happy with what I have given you!? Hm? Answer me!" Quinn shouted as he rammed himself inside me.
"Stop it, your hurting me." I cried but Quinn just forced my head into the pillow to quiten down my cries as he raped me for the 4th time today.
I felt him pull out of me roughly and me being thrown onto my back, I couldn't see anything was black from where he had blindfolded me.
I felt something being pressed to my cheek and something being dragged along it and it really hurt and I screamed out in pain but it was soon muffled by something being forced into my mouth but it didn't stop the tears flowing down my cheeks.
"Now who's going to love you now your scared and broken?" Quinn hissed and rammed himself back inside of me.

"Gee, Gee listen to my voice." I heard someone say but I was miles away inside my head to pull myself out of the flashback.
"Gerard, call him Gerard and he might snap out of it." Another voice said.
"Gerard, listen to me okay. It's me Frank. Max, Ed and Mikey are here with you at my flat. Your safe here Gerard, he's not going to get to you." Frank said but he sounded miles away.
"H..H..He r..r..raped me and h..he h..h..hurt me." I sobbed loudly and I felt myself being pulled into someone chest and it smelt like Frank so I clung onto him for dear life.
"I know baby, I know he did. Your safe now, nobody is going to hurt you now." Frank said softly as he kissed the top of my head and he rubbed my back which made me whimper in pain.
"I'm sorry." Frank whispered and stopped rubbing my back.
Frank just held me as I cried into his chest until I had no more tears to cry.

I had no idea what the time was, what day I was on. All I felt was numbness and dirty.
I felt someone sit next to me on the sofa which made me jump and look at the person.
It was Frank and I smiled sadly at him and looked back at the tv starring blankly at it.
"Gee, I need to change your bandages." Frank said quietly.
I looked at him again and put my hand in my cheek where I felt a bandage.
"I'm ugly now aren't I?" I whispered and Frank shook his head.
"You are still beautiful to me." Frank said and I smiled slightly at him.
"Am I allowed to change your dressings? They need changing." Frank said and I looked down at my arms and saw there was bandages on them as well.
"What happened? He didn't do these, did someone else do this too me?" I asked and looked at Frank.
"Gee, you need to listen to me okay. He didn't do this to you, you cut yourself after he did them things to you." Frank said softly.
"But I'm going to be ugly now. I'm covered in scars, h..h..he said that now I have s..s..scars and b..b..broken nobody will want to be with me." I said and I felt tears roll down my cheek.
Frank reached his hand out and wiped the tears away.
"Your not ugly Gee, you are beautiful okay you hear me, you are beautiful. What he said was a load of lies because I want to be with you. Your scars make me think no less of you." Frank said and I looked at him.
"Y..Y..You think I'm beautiful and y..you want to be with m..m..me?" I asked with a stutter.
"You are the most beautiful man I know, and I would love to be with you. But right now you need to heal and get yourself better okay." Frank said and I smiled a real smile.

"Now, we need to change these dressings." Frank said with a smile and got a carrier bag which was full of first aid stuff.
"My sexy first aid box." Frank said and I smiled and watched him.
"Okay, I'm going to do your cheek first, it might hurt a little alright." Frank said and I nodded and Frank started to slowly take the dressing off which made me hiss and whimper a little.
"Shush, it's okay. Everything is going to be okay now." Frank whispered and kissed my forehead.
Frank took the old dirty dressing and he got some wipes.
"Right Gee, this is going to hurt like a bitch okay. You can hold my hand while I clean it but I need to clean this so it doesn't get infected okay." Frank said and I nodded.
Frank put his hand out and I held it tightly.
"Okay, I'm going to clean it." Frank said and he started to clean it which again made me hiss and shout out loudly.
"Stop, stop, stop." I sobbed and Frank stopped.
"I was done anyway. Well done for being brace." Frank said and kissed the end of my nose.
"Now for the clean one." Frank said and put the dressing on my cheek and once he had done that his kissed it softly which made me flinch as it was really sore and tender.
"Now to do the rest of you, you need to lie on your back." Frank said and I looked at him.
"You side dressing needs changing." Frank said and I reluctantly moved and lead on my back.
It took Frank an hour but that was only because he was going slowly and stopped when I wanted him to stop.

It was late and I was curled up on the sofa next to Frank and cuddled into his side watching a film with everyone part from Mikey as he went back to his boyfriends since he knew I was now in safe hands.
Frank had a hand resting on my shoulder and the other he had his head resting on.
I put Frank's hand on my head and I felt Frank look at me.
"Want me to mess with your hair?" Frank asked and I nodded lost in this film.
Frank chuckled and started to mess with my hair.
I must of started to fall asleep as I felt Frank move and my eyes flew open.
"Shush, it's okay. I was just going to turn the tv off since everyone has fallen asleep." Frank whispered and I sat up and tired to watch him but my eyes was getting heavier and and heavier.
"Let's go to bed." Frank whispered and held his hand out which I took and Frank gently helped me up and he bent down and picked me up.
I just fell asleep on Frank and feeling safe.

Notes

Don't really like this chapter but hey it will have to do...

When it is said about people having scars are ugly it isn't true! I should know since I have scars all over my body from self harm. But I know that if you have any scars wether it's from self harm, surgery or anything else you feel ugly because I sure as hell do. But that's not the case, you are beautiful on the inside and the outside❤️ Don't let anyone tell you any different