Vacant heart

(Gerard’s POV)
I stood there still hugging Frank amazed, by what just happened. I got my first kiss with Frank. I think to myself still feeling the warmth of his lips against mine. They were soft and not cold like mine. I felt something I my chest, that I never felt before. It was strange, but a good kind of strange. It made my cold body feel warm. I f-felt happy. I f-felt loved. I now know what Mikey rambled on about when he met Kristin.
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(1826)
“Gerard, I feel so alive!” Mikey cheered. He frowned a bit by his choice of words. “Sorry.” He says looking down. He really didn’t need to apologize. Yes I was dead, but he really didn’t need to apologize. “It’s okay Mikey.” I say giving him a smile. He looks up smiling before he sat down on my bed. “When you fall in love, Gerard and I know you will.” He says smiling at me. “You will feel warm and happy. All your problems go away when you’re with them. They are the reason they make you think everything its okay.” I kept a blank expression. I am bit heartless compared to him. Correction, completely heartless compared to him. “You can’t sleep or eat on how much you love them.” Love? Weird word.When you become a bloodsucking vampire, you don’t really get any emotions. “When you fall in love with somebody, you don’t ever want to leave their side. You never want them to be out of sight. You will always be thinking of them. You never want to stop thinking about them.” Mikey says lying back on my bed, closing his eyes with a wide smile.
Love seems like a great thing to what Mikey said. Too bad I will never feel that emotion. I didn’t notice I was crying till Mikey got up and hugged me. He shushed me rubbing his hand up and down my back. “Vampire or not, Gerard. You are a nice and amazing guy, you deserve to know the feeling. I know you will. I promise.” I hugged my baby brother back, crying onto his shoulder. “I am sorry I rambled on.” He cries a bit. He didn’t need to apologize. If anyone needed to apologize to me was Lindsey. She ruined my life. She turned me into this monster no one could ever love. “It’s okay Mikey. You’re normal and can feel things.” He pulled away hurt. “Gerard! You are normal! Just because you are a vampire doesn’t mean you aren’t normal!” He yells. “I’m a vampire! That’s exactly what it means! No loves a vampire!” Mikey started to cry too. He didn’t know how to respond to that. “If times were different.” He finally says hugging me once again. “You know I will always love you, you know that right?” He questions me. “I can always count of that Mikes.” He smiles at me, cleaning away his tears.
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(Present)
I hugged Frank tighter happy that he didn’t have a little problem with me being a monster. “Gerard.” He breathes out. “You might not need to breathe, but I need to.” He says gasping now. I let go, giving him a apologetic smile. He smiled back at me. “It’s okay. You’re just so happy.” “I’ve never been this happy before. Thank you Frank.” I say sealing my lips to his warm ones. I pull away and he has a smile wider than I thought was possible.
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“Can I spend the night?” He asks me. I set the book I was reading down. “Of course, you can! You can sleep on my bed.” I say smiling at him. I been smiling a lot cause of this kid. Strange, but I like it. He let out a dramatic gasp, that I couldn’t help to laugh at. “My own boyfriend won’t sleep in the same bed with me?” “Boyfriend?” I say blushing. “Well yeah unless you want to be friend with benefits.” He says winking with a smirk. I think he meant being involved with someone sexually, then being romantically into them. I was a bit hurt on how he said that and made my mind wonder if this kid was just playing with me. It made me a bit offended. “I’m a bit offended.” I tease. “My own boyfriend offended me.” He blushes and launched himself at me, pushing me back against the couch, tangling his legs with mine, before he leaned down and kissed me. “I love hearing that.” I say when he pulled away. “Well if you love hearing that, then you would love to hear my moans.” He pants, smirking. I felt myself getting hard against him. I could tell he was turned on too, when I felt him. He started to grind on me making me moan. He smirked and started to make out with me. I wrapped my legs around his waist helping him out. He grinds harder and makes me moan. He smiled against my lips before he slipped his tongue into my mouth. He cuts his tongue against my teeth again and lick up his blood. He tastes so good. He pulls away panting for air, before he started to kiss me again. We made out a bit more till our lips were bruised. He soon fell asleep in my arms, as I cuddled him.
I cuddled him as close as possible. I smiled so big that I thought my face was going to rip in half like the girls in a that one horror movie Frank made me watch. Mikey was right. When you’re alone you can’t stop thinking about them. I think it’s way too soon to tell Frank I feel that way. Until then, he will be my wonderful boyfriend.

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