They come and check on you like you're small children at this place, peering in through the tiny glass window that stuck to the heavy door that was a barrier between the normal and us that have lost our minds.

As I lay on the floor in the centre of the darkness of the room I can almost imagine the shocked expression as they see me strewn across the floor. I lay there, the carpet was actually rather warm on my face and I arranged my limbs in an awkward position. I closed my eyes and made my body tremble slightly whilst trying not to smile, simply hoping that my plan would work.

I heard the keys rattle frantically as they were shoved into the lock and the door was thrown open, an old looking tall bald headed man rushing to my side to see if I was still breathing. Still I waited. I felt his breath on my face as I held mine. Still I waited. I felt him check for my pulse. Still I waited. I heard him shout for help. I could wait no longer.

I leapt up from the floor to my feet, throwing my fist into the carers face and shoving him to the floor. I looked to my hand to see a little crimson red blood staining my hand from where I had hit him, but that didn't matter now. My pulse quickened as I rushed out of my 'bedroom' and slid onto the clinical white hallway. The man didn't follow but soon enough I heard a herd of boots thundering behind me, their heavy footsteps shaking the building. I looked desperately in front of me and I saw Frank, waiting at the end of the corridor for me. He was ready to open the door and telling me to hurry up, his hands waving frantically as he could only watch the other guards draw level with me. I felt tears sting in my eyes as my vision became blurred. But I was going to make it! I was going to feel the fresh air on my face! I was going t-

Hands grabbed onto my shoulders and pulled me backwards, the force sending me crashing to the floor. I screamed as I was turned over onto my stomach with my hands tied behind my back.

"Let me go!!!" I yelled, my voice cracked, "Let me go with Frank!" I screamed now, I didn't care if I woke up the whole building.
"We can't let you do that Gerard..." They spoke softly, "you are not healthy enough to leave yet."
"I never will be according to you!" I screamed back at them as my body began to shudder as tears streamed down my face and dropped to the floor. "I'll die here! Please let me go! Frank's waiting for me!!!" I shouted now as I gritted my teeth trying to stop anymore tears escaping my eyes.
"Let go of me!" I heaved myself up from the floor and threw one of the carers away from me in disgust.

I set of running again, Frank now shouting at me desperately from the doorway as I felt my legs become weak underneath me. I was so close to the doors, so close to the outside world, I could see the trees swaying gently in the breeze and imagined how it would feel to stand in the concrete car park. I longed to breathe that outside air, its fresh coolness, and I just felt like I belonged outside with the traffic blaring past over the other side of the hill with their little lights flashing as they rolled on. I could imagine the valley covered in trees and wildlife, how beautiful it would be to see a dog or a cat or a horse or a bird again, to be able to be free like them.

I was so close to that when I felt two pairs of arms wrap around my neck and my shoulders, throwing me violently to the floor. I landed face down again with the pressure on my back increasing as I felt the person kneel on me. My hands and legs were all pinned to the floor as if knives had been pushed through them until they stuck into the floor.

The needle entered my arm. The coolness of it sending shivers down my spine as it created a sharp pain in my arm that made me scream. My heart quickened and it felt as if it would never leave my arm. They knew I hate needles! They knew that I hated even the sight of them! They knew that the pure mention of injections would cause me to start throwing up violently! And yet they just ignored me! They had promised never to do this, but I was pinned to the floor being drugged up with a fucking needle stuck in my flesh and veins with a stabbing sensation taking over my entire body as if it was going to rip itself to shreds! The liars!

All I saw was Frank, stood at the door with tears streaming down his face. Why couldn't they see him? He was right there! His figure enveloped into the darkness and he seemed to almost disappear into the glass of the window.
"Next time..." He whispered, "next time..."

I couldn't even say goodbye before the darkness fell in front of my eyes.

Notes

Hello again. I hope this second chapter was okay, I will try and update most days. I hope you are doing well and if you like this or have any improvements/suggestions then just let me know in the comments. Thank you. :)
-Lou