We were friends until we were lovers

Gerard's POV:

I wake up to a still sleeping Frank clinging onto me. He is so peaceful. I place a light kiss on his head and smile, I let him sleep for a little while longer, unable to pry him off of me. I feel him start to stir. "Morning sleeping beauty." I say with my gravely morning voice. He looks up to me with tired eyes which make me smile a little more.

"Hmm? Oh sorry Gerard. How long was I like that? That must have been very uncomfortable for you, I'm sorry." he says as he pulls away blushing. I let out a small giggle.

"It's fine Frank. You were like that all night. It was actually kind of comfy. Don't worry Frankie!" I say as I ruffle his hair a bit. He blushes even more.

"Did I make things awkward between us?" He asks shyly. He is twiddling his thumbs anxiously.

"God no Frank. I found it kind of sweet. What's making you so anxious Frank?" I ask. He bites his lip which is really hot.

"Nothing. Can I talk to you after school? Alone? I have a secret spot I can bring us to after school." He says shakily. I can't help but hug him and try to comfort him.

"Sure Frank. Whatever you want. Calm down. It's okay, I'm here. Just stay calm and let me help. Relax." I say as I rub his back more. He stops shaking and is clinging onto me again.

"I'm so sorry Gerard. I don't know why you are helping me out but thank you." He says quietly.

"Don't be sorry Frank, I'm helping you out because you remind me of myself and I know what you are going through. Every single word I tell you is the cold hard truth. You are an amazing person Frank and you need to know that." I say. I wish I can tell him what I told him last night though. I wish I could tell him how beautiful and perfect he is. He stays clinging onto me. "Stick with Mikey and I at school today. We will protect you. I am a pasifist but if I see someone hurting my friends I will stand up to protect them." I say to him and I hear him mumble something that sounds like a thank you into my shoulder. "Let's go up and get some coffee and get ready for school." I say as I get out of bed and put on a pair of ripped black skinny jeans and my Morrissey top. I put my leather jacket over top and a pair of rocker boots and fingerless gloves. I draw on some eyeliner and I'm done.

"Wow you look badass!" He says to me and I giggle. "A badass that giggles like a girl, even better!" He grins as I toss him his clothes.

"Shut the fuck up Frankie. Now let's get the fuck to school to get the fuck out of school." I say and he laughs.

"You say fuck way too many fucking times Gee." He giggles at me as he throws on his clothes. "Can I use your eyeliner please? Mines at home." He asks me.

"You can use any of my makeup. I have anything from eyeliner to fucking lipstick. So you can use anything." I say and his eyes light up. He uses my eyeliner and puts a little bit of red eyeshadow around his eyes. He looks for his shade of cover up but I only have an extremely pale colour. "Sorry I don't have human colour!" I laugh and he laughs too.

"I was just bout to say ghost." He laughs and I make phony ghost noises and we laugh harder.

"Let's go before we're late. And don't worry cuz I can drive." I slur and we laugh some more. We all pile into the car with coffee and put some Misfits on. I start singing along and Frank just stares at me. "What? Oh my god, did I sing the wrong lyrics?" I ask.

"God no! I didn't know you could sing!" Frank exclaims. I laugh. We get to school and Frank huddles beside me once we get out of the car.

"It's okay Frankie. We will protect you. We promise." I say as I squeeze his shoulder. He rests his head on his hand gently. He moves his head back up and the three of us go into the school. Mikey and I on either side of Frank. Then all of the sudden.

"Hey! Faggot!" The bully yells. I grab hold of Frank's shoulder and give a nod to Mikey. He knows what to do. Apparently he is terrifying but whenever I look at him I see my little lost puppy. Mikey stalks up to the bully and cracks his knuckles; the bullies eyes go wide and he runs in the opposite direction of us.

"Thank you two so much." Frank says as he hugs Mikey and I.

The rest of the day passes with ease. Nothing happens. We get home and I drop Mikey off and Frank gives me directions to his secret location.

"We are here." He says as we pull up to an old abandoned house in the middle of nowhere. We walk in and he stands infront of the door. "Gee, there is something I have to tell you." He says in a serious tone.

"What is it Frankie, are you okay?" I ask he nods his head.

"I'm fine Gee. Last night though. I heard what you said to me when you thought I was asleep." He says and I go into panic mode. No it can't happen again.

"F-frank. I-I'm sorry." I say as I slowly back up and run up the stairs behind me. I run into a room and trip over myself. "No, fuck this can't be happening again." I mumble. I hear footsteps as I cower into the back of the room.

"Gee. Oh thank god you are here." He says. I cower into the corner and hold my knees into my chest.

"Please, this time end it. I don't want it to be like with Ray. Please just end me this time." I say as tears start to flow out of my eyes. I hear him move towards me. "I-I'm sorry Frank. Just kill me please, it's easier than being beaten and raped." I say quietly. I feel two arms wrap around me softly as I break down.

"It's okay Gee. Let me be here for you this time. What did you think I was going to say and what do you mean by 'like Ray'? I'm here okay Gee?" He says and I give a small nod.

"I thought you were going to hate me. I'm a total fuck up. Ray was an old friend from two schools ago. While he was apparently sleeping I said he was cute. That's all and the next day he brought me to his house and all of his friends were waiting there. They beat me, abused me, drove me to depression and self harm. Even thoughts of suicide and attempts. After they beat me they gang banged my. I was still a virgin. I lost my virginity to rape." I cried.

"I'm sorry Gee, I'm here. Calm down sweetie. I would never do that to you. You aren't a fuck up. I have a crush on you too. I was awake when I started cuddling you Gee. You are beautiful too and amazing and perfect. I wish you could see that too. You technically still still are a virgin of it was non consensual." He says as he kisses my forehead.

"I wish it worked that way." I said silently.

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