and he never heard from him again (on short break!)

"WHA-, oooooh, yeah, I'm fine, I-I was cleaning, and then nearly fell then you were here so I nearly fell again and yeah.,....I'm good and you?"
He laughed lightly as he leans against the door, nearly falling for the third time

"I'm-I'm good, you should sit down before you hurt yourself," Gerard said, hoping Frank could get ahold of himself if he sat down

"OH, yes, please come in!" he said with a smile as he stepped out of the way

"thanks." Gerard said stepping in and looking around the rather small, but nice apartment, it was cozy, home-like but with that small flare of 'my mother is the only woman to have come in here'

"sooo, um...do you want to watch a movie?" he asked, looking nervous

"sure, what do you have?" He asked, smiling softly trying to ease the tension

"I have old Disney movies, a plethora of horror movies and start wars... so pick your poison." he said gesturing to a rather impressive collection of movies

"Let's go horror movie, I have a soft spot for corny old horror movies"

"Alright, you-you can make yourself at home, I'm gonna make some popcorn"

Gerard sat down on the couch still looking around the room, two chairs, an armchair and another wierd one kinda like a rocking chair but without the bend in the leg connector, and a brown almost leathery couch, a black coffee table holding way too many candles for anyone to understand, another black coffee table at the other side of the room holding the tv, even though the screen peeks out of one side, then a bookshelf, holding more movies than books and pictures of his family.

Frank walks back into the room a minute or so later carrying a large bowl of popcorn, he sets it down on the table and popped a movie into the DVD player and sat down next to Gerard without a word.

a black and white screen pops up after a moment or two, 'FRANKENSTEIN' shows up in scratched letters.

"Really?" Gerard said looking over to Frank with a raised eyebrow

"it's a classic, don't judge me!" he said looking offended

"I don't judge, I am a judge free child, only positive vibes"

Frank laughed and turned to watch the movie

around half way through the movie frank and Gerard had repositioned themselves from the normal sitting to laying down, frank cuddling closely to Gerard, and Gerard, not all to sure what to do. but they continue to watch the movie, cuddled up near each other.

as the end credits play out and finish they stay there layed down in silence.

Frank was the first to break the silence

"well, this is better than the last 2 times.." he laughs as he sits up

"I'd have to agree, even though you're basically a koala"

"HEY, I like to cuddle, if yooouuuu didn't want me to yoooouuuu should have said something, but you didn't so I did" Frank said, poking Gerard

"I never said I didn't want you to" he pouts

Frank didn't feel scared around him, maybe just a bit, enough to keep him on his toes but not to make him want to run, even though Gerard seemed dark he had tiny bursts of color that shows frank what's true about him, he had so much character to him, so much that he could talk about, that he wants to care about to love, to hate, to have an expression on that wasn't pretend that wasn't acting that was true to him and how he might be able to feel. Frank wanted to know, he wanted to help, he wanted Gerard to be okay, to feel okay, to feel.

"Frank?Fraaaaank? you alright?" Gerard asked a concerned look on his face

The fact that he could pretend so well that everything was fine that he felt the emotions he was playing was terrifying

"Yeah...yeah, just lost in thought, sorry"

"you-you spaced out just staring at me, are you sure you're okay, do-do you want me to leave"

concern again, a perfectly played emotion by Gerard, convincing, amazingly convincing, he shows it in his eyes and his voice, an award winning act.

"I'm fine, really, you don't need to leave, I was just....thinking"

there's a silence in the room as Frank stares off again, getting lost in Gerard's eyes.

Confusion: lack of understanding; uncertainty.

the 4th emotion Gerard has felt throughout 23 years of life

confusion of why Frank was staring at him, confused about why it's with Frank that he's felt all of this

Nervous, happy, confused

Then suddenly the fifth and sixth

Frank leaned in closing the space between him and Gerard connecting their lips

Shock

Shock: a sudden upsetting or surprising event or experience.

surprising was what if was but after shock something unexplainable and odd, but nice, amazing, exhilarating, something his brother had never explained to him, something even better than happy, he had no word for it.

Frank pulled away first, looking dead on at Gerard.

"s-sorry, I shouldn't have-"

"don't you dare apologize, I-I don't mind, really" his face felt hot

the 6th mixed with the fifth

Embarrassment: a feeling of self-consciousness, shame, or awkwardness.

and something else

He reached his arm over his face to hide himself from Frank

"Gerard...are you blushing?" Frank asked, a giant grin on his face

"I-I dunno, I feel embarrassed and something else...."

"how many is that then?" Frank asked

"6, 6 of em, but I don't know what this one is?"

"whats it feel like?"

"I don't know, better than happy but also warm and weird and I-I don't know..."

"I don't know either"

"I-I should go home, it's late" Gerard said, his voice just above a whisper as he looks over to the clock reading 11:37 pm

"stay the night?" Frank asked

"I don't know..."

"please, you're very warm and nice to hold, just this one time" he pouts using his best puppy dog eyes ( probably one of the things that the colt can't kill)


"I...I guess, fine" Gerard gives in looking down at the sofa

"we should probably get to bed then, like you said, its late" Frank said getting up off the couch and holding a hand out for Gerard

"alright," Gerard said taking is hand to get up, smiling softly

7th

happy, again

So many in one night, the on unexplainable one staying with him lingering so long, but it felt so right, it was all that was on his mind as Frank dragged him off to his room for the night.

Notes

JUST A LITTLE BLOOP
THERE WILL NOT BE ANY SMUT IN THIS BOOK
SORRY BRO