and he never heard from him again (on short break!)

"No really, it would take some time..." He didn't want to explain, he didn't want to scare him away.

"if you don't wanna tell me that's fine...I just thought it might be nice to talk to someone...make you feel better..." Frank mumbled and looked down at the table

' if only he knew what he was saying' Gerard thought
'I don't need to feel better, I don't feel sad in the first place'

the sounds of the coffee shop around them was loud by the silence they share was violent as they avoided eye contact by looking around the space or out the window.

"I would tell you...I just don't want to scare you away..." Gerard admits

"why would you scare me? Jeez who do you take me as?" he challenges

"I haven't felt anything, not since I was four, and yesterday when I met you, that's all..." Gerard said simply

"What do you mean? you haven't felt anything?" he asked, picking up the large cup of coffee he had on the table

"emotions, you know, happy, sad, hate, love. you know like Inside out, that stuff?"

Frank looked shocked, before laughing lightly

"that's not funny, why not just tell me..."

"I'm really not joking" he reinstates

Franks expression drops

"Oh...oh..." he mutters

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to scare you, that's why I didn't want to tell you"

"No, its...It's fine...I just..." he cuts himself off

"I should probably go...I'm sorry" Gerard shook his head as he stood up


Frank didn't protest as Gerard walked out of the coffee shop and down the road.

the 3rd, the one where he felt bad and prayed it would go away soon, so it only took a minute
~~

At about five, Gerard's phone started to buzz next to him, forcing him to stop working and see what cranky editor wants the new panel early.

But it was an odd surprise when it was Frank.

'I'm sorry about how I acted, I didn't mean to be rude, or well not nice, I don't really know...'
sent at 5:56 pm

'its fine, I really should have learned not to tell anyone at this point'
sent at 5:59 pm

'No, you should be able to tell people without them getting scared...'
sent at 6:07 pm

'still, doesn't mean it would happen, I'm sorry for scaring you, I didn't mean to..."
sent at 6:17 pm

'wanna try again sometimes, I mean, I'd like to get to know you'
sent at 6:18 pm

'Sure, I'd love to, but why did you even give me your number in the first place its rather confusing'
sent at 6:21 pm

'honestly? I thought you were hot...'
sent at 6:24 pm

'Oh, well, thank you. you too'
Sent at 6:26 pm

'I'm glad you think so bless you.'
sent at 6:29 pm

'what?'
sent at 6:32 pm

'my dog sneezed and I typed it here'
'this isn't my most proud moment'
sent at 6:37 pm

'oh..'
sent at 6:39 pm

'can we meet up same place, tomorrow?'
sent at 6:41 pm

'sure, I'll see you then'
sent at 6:51 pm

~~~
It was yet again 11 am and Gerard was running late as he went to the same coffee shop.

he soon got to the coffee shop and sat down across from frank.

"I'm less late today, I'm quite proud of myself"

Frank laughed lightly

"just speed walk down the street yelling 'move I'm gay'"

"That's...a terrible idea, but also amazing..." Gerard said nodding slowly

"that's what I would do" he was still smiling widly

"or just sing the entire hamilton soundtrack" Gerard said smiling

the 5th, happy, the one where he prayed it didn't go away so soon, and it didn't leave

"it would get people's attention, we are near broadway" Frank nodded

"It better, if I 'm gonna sing I 'm going all out, get me that full purple outfit, the cane the Virginian style hate for hamilton"

"honestly if you don't I'll be pretty mad" he said

"So, why were you in a theater?" Gerard asked, still smiling, hoping that this feeling never leaves again

"I um, I play piano in the ensemble for a few small musicals and plays, Its kinda lame.." he mumbles

"that's really cool, better than me" He said

"What do you do then?"

"Well, I basically get told what to draw by annoying people with useful degrees"

"so you're an artist? that pretty rad!" he said

"you play music that's really cool too"

"Thank you, that makes me feel better"

yet again the went quiet but it was a good silence.

"Thank you" Gerard said quietly

"what?"

"I said thank you, I-I dunno why but I feel happy? around you"

"Oh...I'm flattered...I think?" he said smiling

"I'm sorry, that was weird to say, I just felt like I should"

"No, no, I like that, it's good" he smiled looking up at Gerard

Notes

LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG chapter