and he never heard from him again (on short break!)

Gerard's POV

It had always been dark for me, I didn't know why, my parents didn't know why, nor the doctors that they got to help me, it just was, I remember the first and last time that I really did feel something, I was 4 years old, my baby brother was born, I felt so happy.

he had always tried to explain what to feel at certain times, or what it really felt like, he tried and I tried, but no matter what, nothing happened.

I went through life as if nothing was wrong, up til I was 14, when I was 14 my parents started to fight more, and more, and more, it was about me, the schools constent calls saying they worried about me, they worried I lived somehwere bad, or that someone was hurting me, they said I showed no empathy, they had tested to see if I could read, thinking maybe thats why, but when I could, they too where confused.

My parents kept fighting but stayed together, I didn't know why, when you would walk into a room with them in it the tension and glares they shared overpowered any other vibe.

I was 17 when I knew what I wanted to do with my life, I had been drawing since I was 14, since the teachers started to worry since the kids started to pick on me, since they told their little brothers and sisters to stay away from me, as if I might hurt them.

surprisingly enough I had made it away from the insufferable home I lived in and moved to new york for college, and after that, it seemed like the calm after a storm or standing in the eye of a hurricane.

a job was hard to find and I ended up working for a company that recommends people to artists to draw things for them, it sucks but its a living.

but still after 22 years I had only felt anything once, I missed it, then I met him, it was for a minute maybe two but I felt nervous, I had stared at him, I didn't mean to, I mush have looked like a creep, but it was enough, I felt like I was addicted to it, like some drug that had taken over my body for a moment, and I wanted more.

I want him more.

Notes

Was this too edgy