Constellations

"Gerard..." Whispered Mikey trembling slightly, "Gerard, what should we do?"
Gerard sat quiet with his head in his hands.
"Gerard!" Pleaded Mikey again, "what should we do?! Where should we go?!"
Once again, Mikeys older brother sat in silence, eyes staring into a trance in which he escaped the world in.
"Listen to me Gee! Please! What do we do?!" Mikey continued as he tried to hide the tears that ran gently down his face.
He shook his brothers shoulders, desperately trying to gain his attention with little achievement and response.
"Gee! Speak to me please!" He cried, burying his head into Gerards chest. "don't leave me too! We're lonely enough as it is! Gee..." He trailed off looking towards the floor.

The room was dark, miserable, the flickering light had given up long ago leaving the two in a shivering darkness. They sat curled in the corner. Scared. Frightened. Lonely. Mikey took his glasses and cleaned them on his t-shirt before placing them back onto his face. He brought his knees up to his chest and allowed his head to rest on them. The silence was strange, so strange and empty so that when Mikey heard the sobs echoing softly from his side he almost jumped out of his skin.
"Gee..." He whispered.
The figure next to him nodded glumly.
"I'm here okay. They've gone. We cant change that. But I'm here, okay?"
"Mikes...." He mumbled softly, "they're never coming back."
"I know." Mikey whispered wrapping his arms around Gerard and hugging him close to his chest, "I wish they were..." He whispered.
"I just-" Gerards expression changed, the tears suddenly stopping and his fists tightening. He pushed Mikey's grasp away from him and his breathing quickened as his chest rose and fell. "I just wish that it had been me instead of them!" He yelled, throwing his fist into the wall. He immediately regretted it, nursing his bruised hand as he brought it back to his chest.

"I wish I was dead instead of them! They're gone Mikey! Our parents are dead! And its all MY fault!" His voice trembled as he spoke and he sunk gently to the floor.
"Gerard.... Its not your fault!" Mikey tried to reassure his older brother.
"It is."
"I don't see how it could possibly be your fault. You were no where near when...when it happened. Don't be stupid and go around blaming yourself."
"Oh!" Began Gerard, "sorry. Im just stupid Gerard am I? With my stupid thoughts and my stupid life and my stupid stupid messed up head! That's me all right!"
"No. Gerard! I didn't mean it like that."
"Yes. You did. If you didn't mean to accuse lonely idiotic insane Gerard of being stupid, then why did you say it?"
"I-I-I" muttered Mikey, stumbling over his words.
"stupid...." Muttered Gerard, "just another thing to add to the long list of reasons why I hate my life and why I don't deserve to be alive!"
"Gerard. I promise. You're not stupid. You are my brother. And I want you here by my side. Without you I am nothing Gee. I am a nobody without you. We just need to stay together..."
"But what's gunna happen?" Gerard began shaking, tears staining his pale face.
"We're gunna be okay."
"New school? New home? New life? Okay? I don't think I'll be able to do it Mikes."
"I'm here. They'll be here in about an hour though. We should probably start getting some stuff ready..."
"Okay."

Notes

Hello. So, this is the first chapter. I hope it was okay and not a waste of your time. I'll do my best to try and update often. Thank you. :) x
-Lou