Friday 22nd March 2013.

I've finally finished. Finally finished fucking drawing for today. Thank god. My arm literally feels like its going to fall off. Lets hope that that doesn't happen. Ha. That wouldn't be too good. No. Anyway; I'm really fucking tired. You know what!! I need coffee. And now!

I clicked off my desk light and was suddenly left in darkness. Idiot! Now I couldn't see anything. I ran my hand along my desk and up onto the wall, eventually finding the door and hearing the click as I pushed it open. I headed out onto an equally dark landing. the only specks of light crept out from under Franks bedroom door. Bless. Sat all by himself. I'll go and see him in a min. After I've got coffee, of course.

I wandered down the stairs like a zombie and almost tripped when I reached the bottom. You know that moment when you think that there's another fucking stair but the bitch ain't actually there an you just get that really awful feeling as you know something should be there but its actually missing. Yeah, pretty much my life at the moment. I feel like I'm missing something, someone. Yeah, like the bands good and that but its kind of isolated me. Shut up Gerard! You're being pathetic again.

"oh, hey gee!" I heard Mikey say, sounding excited. His voice came from the living room.

"um, hey..." I mumbled back.

"you okay?" Asked Mikey, sounding a little concerned.

"yeah..um, yeah..." I replied, trying to muster all the positivity that I had left. It didn't work that well. But I kept walking and headed into the kitchen.

I opened the door and two faces looked up guiltily at me, their bodies now separated although I knew that they hadn't been previously.

"um... Nothing to see here...." Whispered Ray.

I moved to the side as Ray squeezed past me, clutching James' hand. He dragged him into the living room, both of them embarrassed and blushing. I didn't really want to think about what happened between those two.

Well great, I was on my so I switched the kettle on and leaned against the wall until the boiling water was making the lid start to jump.
I made my god forsaken cup of coffee and blew the steam away from the black nectar that kept me awake. I wandered back into the living room.

"why hello there big brother..." Mikey mocked, "looking a little tired today?"

Ray was sat on the other sofa, James was slouched onto his shoulder and Mikey was spread across the other sofa. They were watching some anime or something. Im not really sure, I couldn't really tell as their faces appeared to be rather...blurry.

"yeah. Days been a bit shit to be honest. But oh well, there's always tomorrow....right?"

"Left!!!!" Cried Mikey, enthusiastically; he seemed to be the only one laughing at his own joke....again.

"You need to calm it Mikes. You been seeing unicorns again?!!!" Asked Ray, stuffing cupcakes into his mouth. The rainbow sprinkles drifted down onto his black top and mixed into James' hair.

"Nah!!!" Replied Mikey.

"You been up to much Ray?" I asked politely-ish as I threw myself down on the sofa that Mikey was sprawled out across. He cursed as I landed on his legs. A little bit of coffee sloshed over the edge of my danger days mug and onto my black skinny jeans.

"Nah, not much Gee. Me and James have just finished making cupcakes if you want any..." He blushed as he fed James another cupcake, the buttercream catching slightly on his mouth. I watched as Ray wiped it away with his finger and then allowed James to eat it.

"um, I'm fine thanks Ray... I'll pass on the cupcakes." I replied.

"okay...." He replied softly.

"Mikes?" Asked Ray.

Mikey looked at him blankly. "what?"

"cupcake?"

"oh, yeah, course..."

Ray threw one in his general direction. Mikey ate it as the conversation continued.

"Franks been acting a little strange lately. I wondered wether he was okay? Has anything upset him or made him nervous recently?" Asked James, sounding concerned for Frank.
It was true. I had noticed a change in Frank in the past few days.

"I agree..." Replied Ray, "and not just because its you James" he booped him on the nose.

"but seriously guys," I cut in, "something's wrong. I'll go and talk to him." I stood up and headed upstairs.

"yeah. Okay!" Replied the other three still sat in the living room.

I dragged myself back up the stairs and knocked lightly on Franks door. I waited a few seconds before he replied with a: "hey, gee, come in..."
His voice sounded weak and shaky. He looked up at me, his bottom lip shaking and his skin growing paler by the second. It looked as though he was about to faint.

"hey hey....Frankie" I cooed, wrapping my arms around him for comfort. "you okay?"

"not really Gee. Im really nervous."

"why? What's there to be nervous about?" I moved his black fringe gently from his eyes with my fingers.

"I-I-I" he stuttered, " I like this person Gee. But I'm afraid that if I tell them then they will hate me and it will ruin both of our lives...."

"hey, now Frankie. Why would anyone not want to go out with you?"

"because I'm me Gee..." His voice lowered, "they could do so much better than me....they'd never go out with me..."

Who was this person that Frank was on about. Now, don't get me wrong I'm not jealous, totally not jealous.... Im just curious as to who it is. Yeah....

"all you need to tell them is the truth Frank. And I'm sure that she'll love you back. For who you are Frank." I tried to hide the hint of disappointment that was escaping through my voice.
Frank pulled me in closer. "But what of its not a she. What if that person is in fact you??" He whispered into my ear.

I screamed. A scream of joy. Of happiness. Finally!!! Fucking took you long enough Frank!!!!! Oh course Frankie, of fucking course I love you. Right Gee, calm, act cool, act normal.
I tried my best not to kiss him but couldn't resist.

Gerard. :) xx

Notes

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