Cancer

“You can have this room.” Joseph says as he guides me around in the house. It’s much bigger than I thought. I enter the room. It’s lovely. There’s a bed, a desk with a chair, a TV and it’s right next to their room. “Thank you so much!” I jump out of joy and attack him with a hug. “You are welcome, little sister.” He says which makes me smile even more.
“Dinner!” Daniel calls from the kitchen downstairs. My brother and me walk down the stairs and into the kitchen. The three of us sit down at the island in the kitchen and eat peperoni pizza, nice. We talk about what I like to do and what they like to do. I find out that Daniel and Joseph are a thing. They are a couple, which is super cute! I ship it. The dogs’ names is Wolf and Storm. Daniel and Joey, Joseph is called Joey, love shopping. They are so sweet to me, and they care about me. I have told them about how I write and about me playing guitar, that I’m a complete gamer. They know about my loss of my foster parents, but I haven’t told them about the cancer thing I don’t want to make them worried. Which reminds me of my medicine. “Can I use the bathroom?” I ask as I put the dish in the dishwasher. “Go ahead.” Daniel replies. I go and grab my pill glasses from my bag and my floating medicine, without them noticing. I don’t want them to know. I lock the door behind me in the bathroom and take all my pills and drops of the floating. I leave the room as if nothing had happened and put the medicine back in the bag. I always feel so disgusted of taking the floating medicine. I grab a soda from the fridge to get the bad taste away. I hit the bottom. The guys giggle at me. “Thirsty?” Joey says full of sarcasm. I swallow. “If you only knew.” I wink back at him. They laugh and we go off to each room to go to bed.
I open my eyes and sit straight up. Sweat all over my body. It’s hard to breath. My body is shaking, but it’s not the cancer. “It’s just a nightmare, that’s all, calm down Lou.” I say to myself. I catch my breath and reach down to my bag. Destiny is down there. I pull a big teddy out of the bag, and into my chest. It smells of my parents. I miss them so much. I close my eyes again to fall asleep, but all I see is my parents dying. I shut my eyes open again and look into the darkness in the room. If I can’t fall asleep, then I have to do something else. My phone lights up in the dark. 4 am. Well… I pull out my MacBook and start writing:
Dear Friend
1st night at my brother, Joey and his boyfriend, Daniel’s house. I feel comfortable around these two men. They are really nice and funny. I am so glad; that I decided to search for Joey in the first place…
He is the only family I have left. Since mom and dad died yesterday. I think, I am dealing with it. But then again, it just feels like I am on holidays with younger adults. I haven’t realized it yet. That they are dead.
I am going to the hospital meetings alone now, no one shall know about me being sick. Or, the fact that I am dying. Especially not Joey and Daniel. I don’t want them to worry about me. But here I am, still breathing.
I quit the word document and start gaming for the rest of the night.

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