I'll keep you safe.

Gerard's POV

I drunk and ate as slowly as I could but I was really hungry since I haven't eaten anything for the last 4 days.
I knew as soon as I ate the flapjack it would be thrown back up again.
Which I did once I managed to get up and get ton the alleyway.
"Fuck." I muttered as I spat some spit out my mouth.
Like always my hands started to shake.
"You alright dude?" Someone asked.
I smiled and nodded.
"You sure because you don't look so good." They said.
"I'm fine." I said and walked back over to my spot and sat down and rested my head of my really boney knees.
"Okay, hope you feel better soon dude." The person said and walked off.
To be honest all I wanted to be right now was to be dead.

I was woken up by someone sitting next to me.
I lifted my head up and looked and saw it was the man from this morning who brought me the coffee and flapjack.
"Take it that you threw the flapjack back up." He chuckled.
I nodded weakly not having the energy to do much else.
"Was the hot chocolate nice?" He asked.
I nodded again and smiled a little.
"Look, its fucking freezing out here and all you have are the clothes you're wearing and this dirty blanket." He said.
I looked at him.
"I.I..I'm fine." I said quietly.
"Gerard you're not fine. Your really thin and you must be really cold and your lucky that you haven't died from hypothermia or starvation yet." He said.
"Maybe I want to die." I said quietly and looked down.
"Gee you don't mean that." He said quietly.
"I do mean it." I said seriously.
Frank sighed and stood up.
"I'm gonna take you home where its warm and you can have a bath because no offensive Gee you really stink." He said.
"You dont have to. I'm fine." I said.
"Gee, I am going to take you home. In all honestly when I first saw you I haven't been able to stop worrying about you out in the cold and in all that snow as well." He said.
"I don't need your pitty or your fucking help. Now leave me alone." I said.
"Gee please. You'll die if you stay out here. Tonight is going to be another freezing cold night and you might even die tonight." He said.
I smiled to myself because that's all I want is to be dead.
"Maybe I want to be dead. Maybe that's why I have been in the cold because I want to be fucking dead. I want it Frank! I want to be dead." I said as loudly as I could which wasn't very loud.
He looked at me and I could see the sadness in his eyes.
"But I don't want you to die." He said quietly.
"Says the person who has a house, money everything which everyone wants. You don't fucking know me so don't bother or waste your time helping me because I don't want your help." I said.
"Gee please." He said.
"Fuck off and leave me alone!" I said loudly.
"Is that what you want?" He asked.
"Yes!" I said.
"Okay then. See you around Gee." He said and got his bag and walked off.
I watched him walk off and once he was round the corner for some reason I started to cry.
I rested my head on my knees and cried until I feel asleep.

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