A Chemically Weird Romance

"Frank." I say with a sigh.
"Do you not want this?"
"Frank, of course I want this."
"Then—"
"No, Frank, let me finish. I want this, but just not now. I like you, but I'm not ready to end up loving you. Right now, we just need to get to know each other. For christ's sake, we have only known each other for what? 5 months?"
"Yes."
"Frank, it's too soon."
"The thing here is by the time you may be ready, I may have already moved on. I want to work this out with you but you aren't allowing me to do that. Every time I push forward I feel two steps worth of a push back. It's hell, all I'm asking is for you to understand me."
"Frank."
"No, just forget it."
"No, just give me time to think." I say panicking.
"For what? If you knew your answer there would be no necessity to think."
"Frank, this is a lot to digest. Give me till after school and I will have made my decision."
"Fine, but just till after school."
"Alright, bye Frank."
"Bye Gerard." By the time I turn around a see a whole group swarming me with billions of questions.
"Why did you turn down Frank, he is hot!"
"DATE FRANK!"
"Back off of Frank."
"You are such a cunt, dude."
I won't even mention the others since most are familiar with the words and phrases that will most likely come out of my mouth. Today classes seem harder than they never were. I've always took my classes as simple but today it was hard to even write my name with all this thinking.
"Gerard, I heard the news with Frank."
"Yea, it sucks."
"Gerard, I think you already know the answer to this whole problem."
"What do you mean?"
"If you didn't know your answer you wouldn't have been this nervous. Gerard, you and I both know the answer you are going to give him."
"Mikey, I want to but—"
"I know. I think it's best if you tell him when you both have your own time in a PRIVATE area." I feel like crying. I feel terrible for making a decision that can hurt my friendship with Frank. I feel so bad and there is no worse feeling than this, really.
There was only 30 seconds (literally) till afterschool, ok not exactly. My hands were shaking, I was sweating, my heart was pounding, and I could feel this lump forming in my throat.
"Frank." I say with a smile.
"Gerard," he says scratching his head. "Gerard, I really need to know."
"Frank, as much as I love you, I just—"
"I knew it." He says in a whisper. My heart shatters.
"Frank, you need to understand that I'm not ready to be in a relationship. I've never been in one and to be in one now scares the fucking shit out of me."
"It's fine, I understand." He says walking away with a slump. I go to the restroom and cry, cry my fucking eyeballs out. I am so fucking stupid to make such a decision. Why did I let down such a handsome and great guy? Mikey comes in and try's to talk to me but I don't really want to.
"Gerard! Listen!" Mikes says. I turn around rolling my eyes.
"What? What do you want?"
"Gerard, you need to be kind towards Frank."
"No I don't. He has made these past few months so great and now suddenly he wants to tear down that greatness and bring in—hell if I know!"
"Listen Gerard, I'm not saying you made a good decision. I'm not saying you made a bad one. I'm saying: be kind. Frank wants you and only you. Take the time to show him you want him to. It doesn't have to be in the same way he does."
I smile. Mikey is right. (ISN'T HE ALWAYS XD) I should listen to his advice.
"You are right, Mikey."
"Aren't I always?" We both chuckle a little.
"I gotta go. I'll buy you something unicorn later, bye!" I turn and see the happiness in his eyes.
"Bye!"

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