20 Rules.

16k views? That's so amazing. Thank you all for the support, and I mean it from the bottom of my heart.
I noticed some commets asking me to update the story, I've also gotten private messages asking if I were okay.
I don't think I will be writing more in this story, I'm not a big fan of my horrible grammar and I'm extremely insecure about it. I might be writing some new chapters actually, but I don't know when.

This month, I've been to four meetings with doctors and psychiatrists. I have yet another meeting this monday, and I'll get my medication there. Turns out I'm severely depressed and I have bad social anxiety. I turn 15 in two months, oh shit. I was in the hospital for about two weeks a month back or so, I did some stupid shit.

Right now, It's 4 AM and I'm here in my bed with red sore eyes, because I feel nothing but emptiness yet I feel every emotion all at once. And I decided to tell you guys, that I'm alive.(?)
Also this update is confusing as all hell, sorry about that.

To sum this up;
- There's A LOT happening in my life right now, and I'm going to be high on medication starting monday.
- I will update this at one point, if any of you still are intererrested.
- I saw Twenty one pilots live, and Tyler ran on my head.
- I was in the hospital.
- Also, I got an A + in my English exam, so that's something?
- I now have a girlfriend. ((^:
- I've been drinking and smoking a lot lately instead of cutting. It helps a bit, but not so much.


- Thank you all so much for the support you've given me. I feel welcome on this site, and that's rare for me. You're all such lovely lovely people. You deserve to be treated right, you deserve the best of the best. You shouldn't take shit from anyone, 'cause you're the best.

Honestly, I'm just a lonely teenager and I don't deserve you guys at all.

If you wanna read my newer things, or just keep in touch: I'm more active on wattpad at the moment, so feel free to follow me there:
Twentyonedeanies

- Sincerely, Dean/Deanie.

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