Bipolar Sunshine

Frank's POV

"What did I tell you. No one can get in and hurt you." Jamie, the nurse, said.
They said that before and he could still get in and hurt me.
"Your safe here." Jamie said quietly and raised his hand up a little which made me flinch away from him.
"Sorry." I said quietly and looked at my feet.
"Its okay. You don't have to say sorry for your reactions. Unless you hurt someone then you have to say sorry." Jamie said.
I sighed and nodded.
"Now why don't you go and get to know Gerard. I'm sure he's a nice lad." Jamie said.
I nodded.
"What if he's like my last room mate?" I asked.
"He has his problems, otherwise he wouldn't be here, but we made sure he isn't like your last room mate." Jamie said.
I nodded again and turned round and walked back to my room.

When I got back Gerard was sat on his bed reading this strange book.
Since I've been in multiple mental places I have no idea what the outside world was like.
In my messed up little world the outside world was a dangerous place.
" Hey frank." Gerard said and looked up from the strange book.
"Hey." I said and gingerly walked over to his bed and stood by it.
"You can sit down. I won't bite." He said and rolled his sleeves of his hoodie up and I looked at his arms and saw scars.
He sighed and started to roll his sleeves back down.
"You don't have to hide them." I said and rolled my sleeves up and showed him the bandage from last weeks doings.
He smiled a sad smile.
"What type of book is that?" I asked and sat next to him and looked at it and saw it had pictures and very little writing.
Gerard chuckled.
"Its a comic. Have you never read one?" He said and his face just lite up.
I shook my head.
"Where the hell have you been!?" He said and got his bag and pulled out another comic.
"Been stuck in one of these places." I said sadly.
"Oh. Sorry I didn't know otherwise I wouldn't of said it." He said and put a comic on my lap.
Batman: The Dark Night Returns.
I looked at him confused.
"Its good. Trust me, I would give you one of these but you have to read it backwards." He said.
"But I can't read." I said quietly and looked down.
"That doesn't matter. You can always look at the pictures to see what's happening." He said.
I smiled and looked at him.
"But if you break it you'll have to get me another one." He said seriously.
"I'll look after it don't worry." I said.
He smiled.

"Why you here?" I asked as I tried to wrap my head round this comic.
"My family can't cope with me." He said.
"Are you fucked up like the rest of us here?" I asked.
"Yeah. I have something called Schizoaffective." He said and looked at me.
I had no idea what the hell that was and Gerard must of guessed as he chuckled with a small smile on his face.
"Basically I have schizophrenia and bipolar. So when I have an episode I could either go like I have schizophrenia or bipolar but most of the time I get both. Which is why my family can't cope with me any longer." He said and looked down.
"So do you like have the hallucinations and delusions like a schizophrenic and have the manic and depressive episodes like someone with bipolar?" I asked since this was new to me and I liked learning new things.
"Pretty much. But I tend to have delusions and be a mixture of manic and depressive." He said.
"Oh." I said and Gerard chuckled.

"What about you? Why you here?" He asked and looked at me.
"Oh, I have really really bad paranoia and I have self harm and suicidal tendencies." I said and looked down.
"That's shit then." Gerard said.
"Just a bit." I said quietly.
"So how long have you been here? Because the way you looked at my comic you had no idea what it was." He said.
"I've been in and out of mental places since I was 13. I'm 24 now so I haven't had much of a live." I said quietly.
"Fuck. What's your longest stay?" He asked.
"This place. I'm currently on my 3rd year after I nearly killed someone because I thought they was going to hurt me when in fact they weren't. But the bastard was lying they just didn't believe me because of my problems." I said and threw Gerard's comic across the room.
"So you don't know what's it like in the outside world?" He asked.
I shook my head.
"That's terrible." Gerard said and got up and picked his comic up.
I looked at him and smiled.
"I'm too unstable apparently." I said.
"Bullshit. Everyone gets their shit days. Christ I have had my fair few but you can't help thinking that everyone is out to get you all the time its just stupid." He said and sat next to me.
I chuckled.
Normally I don't like my room mates as quick as this but I liked Gerard, I can see him being a really good friend which is something I haven't had for years.

Notes

hopefully that might explain what Schizoaffective it...
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