Where's your heart?

By the time Frank and I finally make it home it's almost four thirty in the morning and I am beyond tired, dragging my feet as I go into the bedroom and collapse onto the bed, still fully clothed with my shoes on and as Frank rounds the corner into the room I grab the blanket and pull it over me, covering my head too and he chuckles before crawling on beside me and pulling the blanket back off my head. "Babe, come on we'll take a shower first" he tells me, grabbing my wrist and pulling but I whine as I try to pull my arm back. "No, no stupid showers" I groan out, my eyes remaining closed as I snuggle further into the mattress. "Well if you don't want to then I'll just have to go by myself" Frank tells me and as he shifts to get off the bed again I quickly sit up and wrap my arms around his waist, dragging him back down with me and sliding over to lay on him while he laughs and tries to squirm away. "Baby we stink" he tries to appeal to me but I just shake my head as I bury my face in his neck, inhaling deeply before saying "You smell like sweaty fucking, like what I imagine a hooker to smell like." "Wow, thanks" Frank says sarcastically as he pokes me in the side and I squirm ontop of him as I laugh and say "It's probably like the best thing I've ever smelled just so you know." "Well when you put it that way you still just told me I smell like a hooker" Frank replies, his tone playful and we both laugh before I say "You can be my hooker." "Oh so I could be getting paid?" Frank asks, his chest shaking underneath me as he continues to chuckle. "I probably should be, you're pretty fucking amazing" I tell him and Franks arms tighten around me as he says "Aww baby you're gonna make me blush" which sets us off giggling again. Fifteen minutes later I'm right on the edge of sleep when Frank shifts beneath me, guiding me to roll off beside him and as he climbs off the bed he says "I was serious about the shower, come on it won't take long" and as he grabs my ankle to pull me off the bed I jerk my leg back and my shoe comes off. "Gee come on" Frank says, his tone warning but I continue to move my foot around until he manages to get a decent grip on my ankle again and suddenly his fingers start to move against the bottom of my foot, sending me into hysterics as I thrash around trying to escape. "Frank.....stop.....seriously....ill kill......you" I manage to choke out between fits of laughter and a few seconds later Franks fingers leave my foot and his hand wrapped around my ankle pulls hard, pulling me off the edge of the bed and sending me crashing to the floor. "Oh look at that, you're up. Come on" Frank says playfully and I glare up at him before curling up on the floor and making no attempt to move until he kneels down and grabs my ankle again and I jerk away, sighing before saying "Alright alright, I'll come," Franks hand dropping my foot again as he helps me up off the floor.

That afternoon I wake up to an empty bed and after I drag myself up I realise Frank isn't even in the house, a note on the kitchen table telling me he had a band practice before the gig at the warehouse this afternoon and when I look at the clock I see it's an hour until the first band of the day will be on. I go back into the bedroom and get dressed before grabbing my keys and wallet and leaving the house and I take a cab to the warehouse, wandering a block down to a coffee shop and getting coffee for Frank and I before I walk back up and just as I go inside I spot Frank across the still mostly empty room talking to the last person I want to see. I pause just inside the door, wondering what I should do and just as I decide to leave again Frank looks up and spots me, his face breaking into a massive grin causing James to turn too and I see his face is slightly busted up, his arm in a cast and the look he shoots me sends unpleasant shivers down my spine. Frank turns and says something to James before he starts making his way over to me and when he reaches me I hand him his coffee before saying "I should go." Frank frowns in confusion before saying "Why? You just got here." "I can't be around him" I say, nodding in James' direction and Frank turns his head to see James staring at us intently before he turns back to me and says "Oh" trailing off for a few seconds before adding "But I really want you to be here, we're trying out a new song that I really want you to hear." "I'm sorry but" I start before Frank cuts me off to say "I could ask him to leave?" "Are you sure you want to do that?" I ask and Frank frowns and nods before saying "Yeah, it's more important to me that you're here and comfortable rather than him." I feel my face pull into a small smile as I say "Ok then."

Twenty minutes later Frank and I are sitting to one side of the warehouse with Nicole, Franks arm wrapped securely around my waist as we sip our coffees and make small talk as the first band of the day plays and I feel completely at ease again for the first time in what feels like forever. Just after the first band finishes their set and the second starts getting set up the drummer from Franks band comes over and kneels down, leaning in to say something in Franks ear and Frank nods before turning to me and saying "I gotta go babe but I'll be back soon, we're up next." I lean in and press a soft kiss to his cheek before moving my lips to his ear and whispering "Have fun," catching his earlobe between my teeth for a brief second before pulling away again and the look he shoots me makes me chuckle softly to myself as Nicole says "Geez get a room you two." Frank and I join in with Nicole's laughter before Frank leans in and returns my kiss and as he stands to leave he ruffles my hair and I shoot him a playful glare as I reach up to smooth it back down again, his shoulders shaking with laughter as he walks away. Nicole and I continue to make small talk for a few more minutes and just as the current band announces their last song someone steps up beside me and when I turn my head to look up I feel my heart sink as I see James standing there with another guy. "Outside, now" he barks at me and I swallow hard as I feel my stomach sink and as I open my mouth to object the other guy reaches down and grabs a fistful of the back of my shirt, yanking it up and forcing me to my feet. I vaguely hear Nicole call my name as I am half dragged through the crowd in the warehouse to the nearest door and once I stumble outside the guy shoves me hard, causing me to stumble and almost drop to my knees and before I can even recover or really register what's happening a fist collides with my face and I feel my nose start gushing blood. I bring my hand up to defend myself and as I raise my head I see I am surrounded by four guys and I feel my heart drop and I realise I have no way of defending myself against them all as they all step towards me and their fists start colliding with me wherever they can reach.

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