Just Look at all that Pain (ON HOLD)

Gerard's pov

"Frankie?" I said in quiet voice, it was about two in the morning. "Yeah?" Frank answered from his dest across the room. I yawned softly and got off the couch, I haven't slept in two days. "Can you lay with me?" I asked shyly, I needed him there when I slept. "Yeah babe." Frank said and turned his laptop off, he smiled at me and got up, making his way to me. He took my hand and led me to our bedroom, we've been living in our apartment for the past three months now. Posters lined the walls with a few drawings here and there, most of them were of Frank. "Did you take you pills?" Frank asked softly as I changed into my pajamas, I shook my head and sighed. "I know you don't like them, I don't like them either but you have to take them." Frank said and kissed my head, I nodded again and sat down at the end of the bed. My legs swung slowly of the side, Frank looked through the dresser until he pulled out five pill bottles. He handed me my pills and a glass of water. After taking the stupid colorful pills, Frank tugged his shirt over his head and wiggled out of his jeans. "Let's go to bed." Frank whispered and pulled me down with him, I snuggled against his chest, his warmth made me relax. "You've been really quiet lately..." He said and ran his hand through my residentially dyed red hair. "Yeah..." I whispered against his chest, I don't want to cry right now, not with Frank here. "You can tell me Gee, I'll always be here for you." Frank in a soothing voice, his words going right to my heart making it squeeze painfully. "I don't know anymore... I keep having nightmares about my parents... I-I don't know why, I-I want the nightmares to stop. Please make them stop." I said and finally broke down, tears flowed freely down my cheeks and onto Frank's chest. He held me tightly as I cried, one hand rubbed circles on my lower back while the other one pushed my hair out of my face. "It's okay Gee, shh babe, I love you, we'll figure this out." Frank said softly into my ear. After a while I cried myself out, my eyes felt dry and my throat hurt a little.

Frank left at 9am after I told him I was okay, he said he would call and text me every chance he got. I laid in bed for a while and just looked up at the ceiling. My stomach growled loudly from the lack of food, it's been a day. I sighed and caved in, I got up and waked to the kitchen. Opening the fridge I pulled out some leftover pizza and nibbled it as I sat down on the couch. I hate being alone, the apartment felt so empty, so lonely. Frank would be home soon, I can do this, I'll just watch some tv. I flipped through some tv shows before deciding on some old horror movie. About half way through I started getting anxious, my leg bounced up and down as I tried to calm down. Only another hour, it's okay, just breath, in and out. I can do this, maybe I should clean, that would take my mined off of everything. I got up and got the cleaning supplies out, taking a rag with cleaner on it I wiped down everything I could. Then I mopped the floors and cleaned the windows, cleaned the dirty dishes then cleaned the clean dishes and glasses. I stood back and admired my work, everything was clean and neat. I silently cheered when I realized that Frank would be home soon. Like on cue the door opened and Frank stepped in. "I'm home Gee bear!" He called, I smiled and practically jumped into his arms hugging him tightly, he hugged back with the same force. "The apartment looks amazing Gee." Frank said and kissed me, I kissed back happily. "Thanks, I just needed something to do." I said when we pulled away.

Notes

Hello everyone :)))) hope you enjoyed the first chapter to the sequel. If you haven't read If I was Dead please read that first before reading this story. If you enjoyed and are excited about what's coming in the future please leave a comment. I will be starting the sequel to my other books very soon :)))) I also have a Wattpad, my user name is McrTrashboat, I have more stories that aren't on this website on there. I'm off to go do homework that sucks :p peace, love, and wifi <3