The Only Hope For Me Is You

I’m not quite sure what I was expecting to happen when I followed Mr. Way back into the art room. I guess if I actually thought about it, maybe he’d talk to me about how I was feeling, ask me about Caleb, or maybe even offer me a ride home. But nothing could have prepared me for what really happened as soon as me and Mr. Way were just barely out of sight from the people still lingering in the hallways.
My heart was still pounding and I continued to wipe away the tears that kept coming uncontrollably. I wasn’t thinking about anything but how much my throat hurt when Mr. Way pushed himself onto me, kissing me aggressively hard.
At first, I was shocked, not ready for anything. But I didn’t fight it because I liked it, no, I loved it. As unexpected as this was I didn’t care. I only kissed him back harder, finding his tongue with mine and sucking it. He tasted so sweet.
I reached my hands up and entangled them in his gorgeous red hair. And to my surprise, he moaned a little. God, I can’t imagine how amazing he’d be in bed…..
But all the sudden reality hit me like a bunch of bricks and I began to think of how serious this would come across to someone else if they saw it. I thought about him losing his job and me being the reason why, about me hurting him, losing him like I lost my parents…I just can’t….
I realize that I’m not really even kissing anymore just grazing my lips over his, lost in my own disturbing mind, and pull away really fast. He looks at me in my eyes, confused, but at the same time, so understanding. “Frank I’m….so sorry…I…” I watch as he backs up from me and combs his hair out of his eyes. Before he can finish though, I insert, “No…don’t be sorry. I’m sorry. We can’t ever do that again okay?” He wrinkles his brow. “And why not?”
I feel like a complete fuck right now. “Because Mr. W,” “Gerard.” He interrupts. “What?” I ask. “My names Gerard. Please, do us both a favor and stop calling me by my teacher name. I fucking hate it.”
Awe, heck, his real name is adorable. I can’t help but crack a smile. “Okay, Gerard, we can’t ever kiss like that again because I like kissing you and ‘obviously’ you like kissing me and that can only lead to one thing, the most inevitably painful thing ever, love, and I can’t risk that with you because I like you too much, I can’t hurt you or lose you okay?! I already lost my parents and I can’t die inside again. I’m sorry…”
I was practically out of breath by the time I finished what I was saying. A tear slipped out of G and watching it couldn’t have hurt more. “Frankie, I really like you too. When I saw you drawing in class today, lost in your own little world I couldn’t help but almost fall in love. The kiss wasn’t anything but a simple ‘hello!’ from me to you okay? But don’t disappear from me over a little mis-understanding. Please.”
I couldn’t believe it. We were talking like we’d known each other for more than a day. We were already crying over losing each other. I was already falling in love. This is surely the beginning of a beautiful and most tragic ending.
But I have to try. If the kiss was as innocent as he says it was then leaving would make me feel and look like a coward. This is going to tear us both apart but, I bite my lip and take a step closer to G. He’s crying, vulnerable, and there’s nothing that I want to do more than kiss the hell out of him right now.
I watch as he wipes away and tear and cracks a gorgeously crooked smile. “I want to take a risk with you Frank. Heart break is almost always inevitable….almost. Can you take that risk with me? I have a feeling you’re worth it.”
Each and every word that falls from his lips are so right, I know deep down that the ‘wrong’ will show it’s face eventually. But yes, I am willing to take this risk. I want to entangle myself with him and become his everything. The world around us disappears into black as lean in close to his ear and say, “absolutely.” And then press my lips against his once more and lose myself in his perfection.

Notes

I hope you guys like it. If you have any story line ideas id be super happy to try and carve it into this one. Who knows, it might actually be legit.