You're Not As Broken As You Think *SLOW UPDATES*

Gerard's POV-

Around 6pm Mikey calls me down for dinner.

Mom, dad, Mikey, and I sit around the table and start eating.

I feel really nervous still about the whole group therapy thing, I wonder if Mikey has tried to talk them out of it yet?

Just as I was thinking this, Mikey starts to talk.

''Gerard doesn't want to go to group therapy.'' Mikey states.

I tense up waiting for their response.

Mom clears her throat and looks at me, ''Gerard, you have to go because it's really getting out of hand. You barely even talk to your own family!''

I sigh, here we go...

''When you graduate, you will need to get a job, and no one will employ someone who doesn't even speak! How can you expect to get anywhere in life when you refuse to talk. I know its 'anxiety' but how can you be anxious around your own family! Your father and I have tried very hard to make you as comfortable as possible, but now its time to grow up and try and make something of your life before its too late!'' She starts raising her voice quite loud.

I begin shaking, I hate when people shout...

I drop my fork onto my plate because my hand has begun shaking violently.

They hate me, they hate me, mom hates me

My heart rate picks up

I start breathing quicker

''Don't speak to my brother like that!'' Mikey yells.

Dad stands up, ''HEY! Don't you dare speak to your mother like that!''

''But you let her speak to him that way! But not me to her, trying to DEFEND him?!'' Mikey yells back, standing up also.

Mom starts crying, ''I JUST WISH THIS WAS A NORMAL FUCKING FAMILY!''

I have to get out,

they hate me,

sensory overload,

so much shouting,

I can't breathe,

I can't breathe,

I'm going to die

I can't breathe

As soon as I find the ability to move I quickly get up, and run to my room, locking it.

I think I'm going to pass out

I still can't breathe

I'm such a fuck up

Why can't I talk?

I'm not normal

I don't deserve Mikey sticking up for me

I'm just messing up everyone's life

I'm making it harder for everyone

I'm a waste of space

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