So.... Gerard wanted to meet me today. And ofcourse i wanted to meet him too. I wanted to feel his lips again. But i had doubts. It all went so fast, and i felt dizzy. I needed my space, and he had to understand that. I'll just... go outside and write. Yeah, i'll write down everything that pops into my head. That'll get my mind off him.


It was early evening, around 6 o'clock. I had been sitting in our garden all day, writing on my computer not giving a single thought to Gerard. It was nice. But ofcourse, anything that pleases you won't last forever.

"Charlie, phone!" Dad peeked out from the terrace door handing me the phone.

"Thanks. Hello, this is Charlie." I heard a familiar voice on the other line.

"Heey Charlie! It's been a while!"

"Anne? What the hell! I haven't heard from you since we moved!" Anne was my best friend back in Alabama. She was beautiful, model looking. She had blond, beautiful hair, blue eyes, kissable lips and a cute nose. She was every guys dream, and she would often steal every boy i got close too. But she had good sides too, and those sides is why she is still my best friend.

"Well, it hasn't been very long. Only like a week or so."

"What? It feels like ages.." I kissed Gerard after only knowing him a week? What the hell is the matter with me?

"I know.. i miss you like crazy! And that's what i wanted to talk to you about."

"What happened?"

"Nothing! I just convinced my parents to go on a caravan holiday to Belleville!" My jaw dropped.

"ARE YOU SERIOUS?!" I yelled.

"Yep!"

"OMG!! When are you coming?"

"Well, we just passed the sign that says Belleville so... very soon." I started jumping up and down, i couldn't believe it!

"Oh i think that's your house! Can you here this?" I listened closely and i heard a honk on the front side of our house. I hung up the phone and while screaming i ran to the front.

"Charlie!!"

"Anne!!" We ran into each-other and hugged.

"Oh Charlie i missed you so much!"

"I missed you too! I can't believe you're here!"

"Erhem.. Charlie?" Oh crap. Gerard.

"Hey Gee.." I said and blushed. He looked sad.

"I need to talk to you.. but you guys can finish whatever it is you are doing."

"Anne i'll be right back." I left Anne and walked away with Gerard.

"Soo.. you wanted to talk to me?" I said, trying to keep my voice steady. I felt the guilt building up, i should've called and told him that i didn't want to come over, crap, swallow the tears..

"You never came." He looked at his feet.

"I know.. and i can explain." I caught his glance.

"Please do."

"It's just that it's only been a week. And it is just going so fast and i feel dizzy and i'm sorry for not calling but i just couldn't, i needed time to think."

"Think about what?" He looked at me with anger.

"I don't know i.." He interrupted me.

"You don't know? Then what the hell is the problem? Don't you like me? Is that the problem? Because if it is then just fucking tell me!" He was shouting.

"No, no, i do like you, it's just.." He interrupted me again.

"What? What the hell is it?" He stared furiously at me.

"I don't know! I am so confused! It is all going too fast and i'm scared! Scared that i will fall too hard and you won't be there to catch me. Because there are so many girls that are so much prettier than me and i am just so scared and i'm sorry..." Tears were pouring down my cheek.

"Charlie... i'm sorry i yelled. I got scared too. For the same reasons you are. I am afraid that you wont catch me. I have fallen and hit the ground way too many times and it hurts like hell." He wiped a tear off my cheek.

"I really do like you, Gerard." I smiled at him and he blushed.

"I really like you too, Charlie." He pulled me into a tight hug and kissed my forehead.

"I won't come over tomorrow though. Anne is here and i would really like to spend time with her."

"That's okay. Just... just call me. Alright?"

"I will. Promise." I looked up into his hazel eyes and smiled. He kissed me, softly.

"I'll see you around. Oh and Charlie? You are the prettiest girl i know." I giggled and blushed. Me? Pretty? This boy must be insane.

"What was all that shouting about? And who was that cute boy?" Anne looked at me suspiciously.

"I'll tell you all about that tonight at our sleepover." I said and smiled superior.

Notes

So what did you think? Is Gerard and Charlies relationship going too fast? Should i slow down?

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