Lonely Hearts Club (Sequel comming in June/July)

Frank couldn't exactly remember getting to school. Or leaving home or having breakfast or even waking up. All he really knows is that now he is sitting in double maths and Gerard isn't sitting beside him and it's driving him insane. He can't concentrate on Mr Smith rambling on about the Christmas holidays and how much work we had to do before the deadlines and all the assignments we would have to do. He was just staring at the empty seat itching to reach for his phone and text Gerard, but he couldn't risk getting caught and getting his phone taken off of him for the rest of the day. So all he really could do was think and let his mind spiral and think absolutely ridiculous thoughts.

Mikey was sitting at the little picnic table at the back of the school with Patrick when Frank walked around with Ray after class. They were whispering to each other and stopped suddenly when the caught Frank staring at them. Frank expected Mikey just to tell him where Gerard was when he arrived, but he didn't even bring it up. Frank could concentrate on any of the conversation that was being thrown at him and answered every question with a hmm or grunt. Until he couldn't take it anymore.

'Where is Gerard.' He burst out interrupting the conversations flow and sorta stunning everyone. Frank knew that everyone else was aware of him moving. Things travel fast in this group. You tell Mikey something and he is already texting Patrick and Ray and probably telepathically screening the conversation to Gerard. Unless you tell one of them otherwise. They were also very good at keeping secrets in this group and if Frank was right only Mikey actually knew about him and Gee.

'I don't know. I didn't actually see him leave his room this morning.' Frank nodded. 'But saying that sometimes he leaves for school before I'm even up.' Mikey was talking to Frank beside him, but everyone was listening after franks outburst.

'Why does he do that?' Ray butted in questioning Mikey more than Frank. Mikey shrugged in response.

'I promise you that's not what happened this morning.' Frank said quietly to Mikey. The other two were still able to hear him because they were all in such closer proximity.

'Why would you say that?' Mikey said, not fully getting the whole fact that Frank was trying to be quiet about the conversation and also not getting what he was hinting at.

'Because...' Frank lowered his voice considerably to whisper so only Mikey could hear him. 'Because we use to meet up before school. You know...so we could...' Frank was interrupted.

'NOPE!' Mikey shouted and covered his ears. 'I do not want to hear about what you and my brother get up to when no ones around!' Franks eyes went wide and Ray audibly gasped. If looks could kill Mikey would be dead at this point because Frank was giving him daggers.

'Joke.' He said to Patrick and Ray. 'I'm obviously joking.' He laughs bumping franks shoulder and looking apologetically at him. Ray and Patrick didn't look convinced. But all attention was quickly snatched away from Mikey when someone coughed behind them. They all turned around to see Gerard leaning against a wall smoking leisurely. Frank smiled at him widely, but it wasn't returned.

'My ears were burning.' He said dropping the stub and kicking it away with his doc martens. 'Talking about my again little brother?' Mikey laughed and looked over at Frank.

'Where have you been?' Mikey said tapping the space between him and Frank. Gerard didn't move.

'Slept in. Thanks for waking me up.' He moved and sat beside Patrick making Mikey and Frank look slightly confused. Gerard always sat beside Frank whenever he had the chance and if Frank wasn't there he latched onto Mikey.

'Well I thought you were on one of your early morning adventures.' Gerard didn't look shocked at this he just shook his head and leant into Patrick so he could get closer to his brother when he spoke to him and subsequently closer to Frank.

'No, I don't think that will be a regular occurrence anymore.' Mikey nodded solemnly and Frank got up quickly from the table. Gerard didn't take any notice of the two of them and just began to talk to Patrick. 'Hey, trick! You look different. New hat?' Patrick nodded fixing it slightly on his head. 'Yeah, looks good on you. I don't understand why Pete hasn't tried it on with you yet.' Patrick blushed visibly as Gerard obviously flirted with him. Frank blinked slightly at Gerard who still hadn't taken any notice of him yet and then stormed off. Mikey followed.

'I didn't know you guys had called it off?' Mikey said once he was away from everyone and on his own with Frank. 'You guys seemed so happy that night and in the morning. I mean Gerard did lock himself away once you left, but I just thought he wanted to be alone. I didn't know you had broken up.' Mikey placed his hand on Franks shoulder and turned him towards him.
'Don't worry, this is how Gerard deals with shit. He acts like he doesn't give a fuck so that he won't get hurt.'

'We didn't break up.' Frank choked out slightly. Mikey's eyes went wide and he pulled Frank into a hug. 'We were fine. He was texting me yesterday. We slept together for the first time three nights ago and he said he loved me. Why is he acting like this?'Frank mumbled into Mikey's hoodie. Frank tried not to get emotional in front of Mikey and he didn't cry, but Mikey could hear how broken he was by his voice.

Suddenly Mikey pushed Frank off of him and stormed back in the direction of the table. Frank ran after him not being able to keep up with his long strides. Once the got there Gerard was talking to Ray about something and Patrick was on his phone. Mikey walked up to Gerard and hauled his up by his shirt. He towered above him even though he was younger. Ray turned to Frank who had just ran up to the table and asked if he was okay. Frank nodded out of breathe and staring at Mikey. He thought he was going to shout at him or pull him away so he could talk to him. But he didn't. Everyone was looking at them both. Gerard stunned staring at his brother who look ready so scream. His eyes bulging and his breathe ragged. Suddenly he punched Gerard square in the face sending him to the ground.

'Gee.' Frank stuttered out in shock. But he didn't go to him to comfort him. He didn't want to get in the middle of this. The two could be very angry and passionate about stuff. Everyone was staring at Mikey in shock.

'You are a fucking arsehole Gerard Way.' Mikey shouted down at his brother. 'What do you think you are doing?' Gerard's hand was gripped to his nose which had obviously been hit forcefully. 'You are so twisted.'

'What's happened Mikes?' Ray said trying calm him down by placing a hand on his shoulder and shooting Gerard a sympathetic look. Nobody liked when the brothers fought, which wasn't often, they loved each other so much that sometimes they got angry but it was usually for each other's own good.

'He broke my best friends heart and didn't explain himself.' Both Patrick and Ray looked confused, not totally getting what he meant or who he was referring too. Frank backed away slightly. 'You guys were so fucking happy. Why? Why are you acting like this. On Friday you were happily planing your life with Frank and now you are acting as if he doesn't exist? Why?' Ray turned slowly to Frank who was staring at the two of them.

'Because..' Gerard finally spoke. Getting off of the ground and standing up to Mikey slightly. He took a deep breathe like he was fighting with himself about what to say. 'Because that's what has to be done.' He said walking around his brother and towards the school. Frank followed him and Ray sat Mikey down trying to calm him.

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'I fell over.' Gerard said to the school nurse. She didn't believe him obviously, but she obliged and told him to follow her to the first aid room. Frank followed and Gerard didn't refuse he just let him. Gerard sat on the bed as the nurse inspected his nose and hissed every once in a while. Frank stood at the door watching and wincing every time Gerard's eyes watered in pain. He felt responsible for what had happened. The nurse cleaned the blood away and made Gerard tip his head back. She stepped back and shook her head.

'Luckily, it isn't broken.' Frank sighed happily. 'But, there will be quite a bit of swelling and you will probably have a black eye. Say there whilst I get you an ice pack and get the office to phone your parents I think you need to go home.' She said kindly walking to the door and smiling at Frank. 'You are welcome to stay with him.' Frank smiled nodding and thanking her. She left them both and an awkward silence hanged in the air. Frank moved towards Gerard but he couldn't see as his head was tipped back and he was holding a tissue to his nose. All he felt was the bed dip slightly at franks weight and his cold fingers touching Gerard's and holding the tissue for him to Gerard could get comfortable. Frank smiled at him and Gerard looked towards him.

'I'm.' Gerard broke the silence. 'I'm sorry.' Frank shook his head and Gerard moved his head upright so he could look at him. Gerard placed his free had on Gerard's pale cheek. 'I thought it was for the best. I was locked in my room and my mind was spiralling and I lost control. I wanted to shut you out and I didn't want you to be sad, I thought if I let you get over me now you wouldn't hurt as much when you had to let go of me.' Frank brought him closer dropping the tissue and pressing his hand into Gerard hair.

'You don't understand I don't wanna let go of you. Not now not ever. Not when I move to Chicago not when we have our first proper fight or when we both end up spending years apart at university. Don't you see. I don't ever want to live without you. I'm not ever gonna let go of you.' Frank whispered as if Gerard was the only person who was allowed to know his inner thoughts.

'But, how could you really know that? How can you really know that that's what you want. We are only 18. Why limit yourself to only me.' Frank laughed and sighed at Gerard.

'A very intelligent person once told me that when you meet the one. You know. It isn't something you'll expect or need at that moment, but when you meet them it's like an entirely new feeling. Like a part of you that you never knew was incomplete is only complete with that person being beside you. And the main reason you know that that person is the one is because when there is something trying to separate you both you will do anything to keep you from being torn apart. Kill, die and sacrifice everything that makes you who you are just to be with that person. ' Frank breathes out and smiled sadly.

'Is that how you feel about me?' Gerard whispered in response closing his eyes.

'Yes.' Was franks simple answer. 'How about you?'

'I don't know. All I know is that it hurts so much when I think about you leaving.' Gerard placing his forehead into franks neck.

'That's good enough for me.' Gerard smiled into Franks shoulder and inhaled his scent and mumbled.

'I could stay like this forever.' Gerard said into Frank shirt and Frank just hummed in agreement.

'But you have to go home. Rest up and I'll see you after school.' Gerard sat up and kissed Frank lightly on the lips. Not going any deeper as he knew they were at school.

'Talk to Mikes for me.' Gerard stood up off the bed and helped Frank off.

'Of course, don't worry he will understand.' They were holding hands and smiling at each other when the nurse opened the door slowly and peered in at the two. She coughed slightly to get there attention. They both turned to her. She was smiling at them.

'Gerard. Your Mum is coming to pick you up. You can wait with him till she gets here.' She winked at them both then closed the door. They both laughed and then followed her out.

'Who told you that.' Gerard whispered to Frank as they sat at the waiting area.

'What?' Frank turned towards him confusingly.

'Back there who told you all that' Frank smiled knowingly and held Gerard's hand secretively.

'You would never believe me.' He whispered into his ear.

'Try me.' He whispered back teasingly.

'Pete.' Gerard shook with laughter and cuddled close to Frank who was giggling as well.

'Pete Wentz? The guy who can't even tell Patrick stump he is in love with him.' Frank nodded and moved closer. Gerard closed his eyes and leant again Frank and waited for his mum to come take him home.

Notes

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