“ Uh, I don't think I want to fuck in the backseat of your car...”
He stops kissing down my neck and pushes himself back up to my face. “Gerard, you've had sex before right?”
“Well, kinda but not really.” I mumble as my cheeks heat up.
“What exactly does ‘kinda but not really’ mean?” He says pulling back from me, his face becoming serious. “Did someone force you­”
“NO, no of course not. I just... I tried having sex with a girl once but it... uh didn't work out.” He's silent for a few seconds.God I should've known once he found out that I was an inexperienced little virgin he wouldn't want to be with me anymore. But why did he want to be with me in the first place? I'm not special enough for him compared to all the other girls I've seen him with. But, it never really seemed as if he was actually with those girls. I've never even seen him a guy before. What if I'm just a experiment and he's just using me to figure out his sexuality. He's probably just going to take my virginity then dump me.
Oh wait, he can't dump me because we're not even dating.
We haven't talked about anything, and before our study session he's never shown any interest in me other than platonically. Fuck this I need to get out, I fucking refuse to be his little fuck­toy. I was so deep into my own thoughts I didn't realize that he'd started talking again. “­ or anything it's sweet, I guess like you're pure or whatever. Well not really considering...” He must've seen the look on my face because he pushed back from me. “Hey Gerard are you ok? I wasn't making fun of you for being a virgin or anything it's cool.” He says with a small smile. “Uh, no it's not that­ I uh, I h­have to go... do something.” I jump up jand slide out of the car, nearly falling on my face when I get the door open. ‘
“Wait Gerard what's­” I slam the his car door cutting off his sentence. Yeah, I'm not so stupid that I'd think that I meant any more to Frank than any of the other kids (sluts) at this school who think he's amazing. See, I'm sane. I'm grounded. I don't have fantasies where Frank tells me I'm his one true love, and then he sweeps me away on this white horse and we live happily ever after.
Really. I DON'T! I know that when Frank and I leave for college, that will be it. Our lives will diverge permanently. I'll get over him, and he...well, he won't have anything to get over. And that will be it. Never, ever, not in A MILLION YEARS, will I fall in love or in like with Frank Iero. But that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt to know he's just using me.

Notes

Ummm so I fucking suck at filler chapters and this is just the stopping place for Gerard's pov (for now) or maybe I'll just write the who thing in third person... Idk but that's why it's so short... And I'm posing a one shot collection story thing cause one shots are easy and fun to write (probably be a bunch of smutty one shots but oh well)