Do or Die

Frank's pov


We had to drive for about two hours, two fucking hours in a living hell. Anthony has been going 80mph down the road, thank god there were no cops out. Jamie told us to keep Gerard awake, he's cries of pai as turned into soft whimpers against my chest. His breathing was extremely fast, he was shaking uncontrollably, and he was burning up. "Ten more minutes." Anthony said stepping the on gas and bringing the SUV to 90mph. I haven't looked away from Gerard the whole time, Mikey was holding one hand as I held his other. "Almost there babe, just hold on a little bit longer." I whispered to him and kissed his head, his response was a small squeeze to my hand. Anthony stopped the car in front of my home, Jamie and two of her helpers were waiting outside. They opened the door and I helped them take Gerard slowly and lay him on the stretcher. "He's lost a lot of blood..." Jamie noted quietly, she gave me a look that said 'he may not make it'. "Please Jamie, help him.." I said and started to sob, Mikey's skinny arms wrapped around my shoulder in a comforting way, but it wasn't Gerard. "I'll do everything I can." Jamie said and ran after her two helpers caring Gerard inside, a small trail of blood was left in their wake. Everything else was a blur, Anthony leading me outside of the room Gerard was in. Mikey was led to a guest bedroom, Jamie's helper, her name was Sarah, she said that I couldn't be in the operation room with Gerard. I could hear his weak sobs and cries of pain. They couldn't knock him out because he lost to much blood and it could kill him. Sarah had to run into the room when Jamia called for her. She ran in the door managed to get stuck open. Gerard was thrashing around as they tried to stick an I.V in his and. "He's afraid of needles." I croaked out, it hurt to see him so scared, his fighting became weaker and weaker. "You don't say, I'm surprised he still has so much fight left in him. That's a very good sign." Jamie said looking back over at me, they held Gerard down and finally got the I.Vs in him. Right when they touched his skin he passed out, they hooked him up to heart monitor and the room was filled with the beeping. They got to work right away as they ripped his shirt off and cleaned all the blood away from the shot. I stood at the door frozen, Gerard's head fell to the side, his mouth slightly open and his hair falling in his face. They pulled a breathing mask over his mouth. "Everything is under control Frank, you can shut the door." Jamie said without looking up, I slowly left and shut the door. I slowly slid down the wall next to the door leaning my head back against the wall. My eyes slowly started to shut, in seconds I was asleep.

"Clear!" I woke up with a started, I heard people talking loudly and walking around. Oh fuck, Gerard! I scrambled up and pushed the door open, the rest of Gerard's shirt was gone and a defibrillator was attached to him. "Clear!" Jamie yelled and Gerard's body jolted, the heart monitor flatlined. Gerard was fucking dead?! No! I was frozen to the spot as I watched Gerard's body jolted every time they yelled clear. "Please don't leave me Gerard. Please come back to me, I need you, I-I love you, please don't leave me Gee." I sobbed falling to my knees. My heart leaped into my throat as I heard the monitors started to beep again. "Thank god." Sarah sighed taking the defibrillator off of him. He was alive... Oh my god he was alive! I stood up and ran over to him, and scanned over his body. The defibrillator left two red marks on his chest, he looked paler than usual, his chest rising and falling slowly, and his side was wrapped in gaze. "We got the bullet out of him, if it was a centimeter to the left it would've killed him." Jamie said pulling her cloves off, I looked at the time, I slept for ten hours?! "He-he died..." I looking down at Gerard's sleeping form. "He did for a whole but it won't effect him. You should get some rest, he won't be awake for another few hours." Jamie said sqeezing my shoulder lightly before walking out. "Call of you need me." She called before shutting the door. I pulled a chair up and sat down taking his hand. "I love you babe and never letting go of you."

It's been ten hours and Gerard's still sleeping, this must've took a lot out of him. Jamie said it was perfectly normal, he did lose a lot of blood. I haven't left his side the whole time in hopes that he'll wake up. Mikey is still asleep upstairs, that guy can probably sleep through a train reck, Anthony said he tried everything to wake him up and the guy won't budge. I ran my thumb over Gerard's knuckles, I've been doing that for the past hour now. His chest raising and falling peacefully. Please Gee, wake up, let me know that your okay... My wish came true, Gerard started to move a little. "Gee?" I asked softly as his eyes opened slowly, he looked over at me confused. "Where are we?" He asked in a timid quiet voice, he looked around the room nervously. His heart monitor started going out of control when his eyes landed on the I.V in his arm. "Get them out..." He whimpered taking my hand tightly, his body stay to shake. "T-take them out, please..." Now he was crying, the monitor going through the roof and freaking out. Jamie ran in but the look of panic dropped from her face when she saw Gerard away. "Hey Hun, how are you feeling?" She asked turning the monitor out. "I-I want them o-out of m-me." He stuttered looking at the I.V and shut his eyes tight. "Okay hun, I need you to relax, I'm just going to pull them out." Jamie said taking Gerard's arm and some gaze. "Look at me Gee." I said taking his attention, he looked at me nervously. I leaned over and planted my lips to his, he kissed back gently, I looked over seeing that Jamie already had them out of his arm and wrapped gaze over his arm. I pulled away and he smiled at me weakly. "Gerard is completely okay, he just needs to rest and heal." She said pulling the I.Vs away, I nodded, Gerard looked extremely tired and weak. After a while Gerard fell asleep again, knowing that he was okay made me feel way better. I slowly fell asleep after holding his hand.

~Time laps five days~

"Are you sure you can make it up the stairs?" I asked concerned as I walked close to his side just in case he fell. "Yeah Frank, I'm not handicapped." Gerard sassed, he was back to his old self again, he was extremely sassy at times. He slowly started to make his way up the stairs, I was behind him if he fell. He made up and looked at me with a proud smile on his face. "Don't make fun of me." I said making him laugh, I slowly opened my bedroom door and we stepped in. Everything looked the same, all my posters, books, vinyls, CDs, and comics were all there. "I love it." Gerard said after looking around for a few minutes. "Why would I laugh at you?" He asked turning to me questionably. "My room looks like it belongs to a 17 year old emo high schooler." I said making him laug, he whenced and held his side, I ran over to him. "I'm okay, just pulled some stitches." He whispered, I led him to the bed and helped him into it. "You never told me that your family was in the mob." Gerard said as I pulled him against my chest, I shrugged and started to rub his head. "Well my father was mad at me for a pretty long time because I got mad at him for sending out Anthony and my Uncle on a drop. That's how Uncle Mario went to jail, father broke him out. I guess he forgave me for calling him a pansy in front of a potential buyer. He got us out of there, family doesn't leave family behind." I said, Gerard's eyes were closed as I rubbed his head, he hair nodded his head for me to continue. "I'm glad I was drunk and accidentally killed those people, because if I didn't I wouldn't have had met you." Wow Iero, you suck at being romantic, I mentally face palmed multiple times. "I killed about thirdy cops..." Gerard mumbled, my mouth dropped open. "What?" I asked making sure that I hurt him right. "I killed about thirdy cops, and I almost killed a police dog, I'm so glad I missed the dog." He said, he actually killed thirdy cops, what the actual fuck Gee, we've know each other for a pretty long time and we never knew the whole story on why we were both in jail. "Mikey didn't do anything, it was all me, I felt so bad that he had to go to jail for something that I did. I was going to take all the blame for it but Mikey took some of it." Gerard sighed looking up at the ceiling that had my Smashing Pumpkins posters on it. "I was just extremely drunk when I killed those two people." I said, I just got drunk, thought it was good idea to break into someone's house, they were home, I freaked out and shot them. "The only reason the cops were after us was because I stole money for this atm machine to pay for food, my family wasn't doing so well in finances. I would go days without eating and so would Mikey. My parents tried everything just to try to keep a roof over our heads. I only took what we needed to survive, I was trying to help my family. I know I would be going to jail, probably spend the rest of my life in there or get killed by some inmate. I almost got rapped a few times, I had to build this wall around myself. Act tough, survive, don't get killed, that's why I acted the way I did in jail, I couldn't be the quiet, shy, awkward guy anymore, I had to step it up. Do or die." He said looking at me now, I was at a loss for words. "My adrenaline was pumping and I couldn't think straight. I just took the gun and shot at whoever I saw." I nodded and hugged him closely, he's head resting on my chest. "I almost lost you Gee, I'm never letting that happen." I said kissing his head, I told him about how he died and him coming back go life. How he got shot and Jamie had to take the bullet out, he was pretty upset about all of it but he was okay. The only thing that matters is that he is okay.

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