Spirits of the Dead

Frank's POV
We were now about to finish "Jack the Ripper"(Yes, I am aware that on the last chapter, I spelled "Reaper". The correct way is "Ripper" though, my apologies for that mistake.) but Gerard paused the movie and turned his attention towards me. "What's your story?" He simply stated. I made a confused facial, and I'm guessing Gerard saw it since he explained himself. "I mean, what's your life? I've told you parts of mine, and now I want to hear yours." I nodded and began. "Well, as you may know, I am a completely loner. I'm not used to having friends, so all of this is new to me. My parents seperated when I was younger, so I now live with my mom, who's always working so I could live "happy". But, all I want is her. I've had some problems with depression, and other illnesses, but I've controlled them. So, uhh yeah that's my story I guess. Oh! And well I'm gay, so I hope that won't be a problem," I finished off. I observed Gerard's expressions all the time while I was talking. I just couldn't quite imply on what they mean. "I completely understand that all of this is new to you, but you're actually doing good. I am truly sorry for the split of your parents though. I think you should talk to your mom about you wanting is just her to spend time with you because how will she know that you feel that way then? Sometimes all you have to do is speak up to fix a conflict. I am happy that you deafeated all of your other problems though, I truly am. And, for the last part of you being gay is what I wanted to talk about with you." I quickly turned nervous, and began to think the worse. What if he kicks me out? Like literally kick me out! I started shaking and obviously Gerard noticed. "Hey, hey, you okay? I just wanted to talk about how to be gay. I've been noticing that I also have affection towards men like the same affect I feel towards women. I just didn't know how to react to it. And, well seeing that you're my new friend, and that you're gay, I wanted to ask you for help." Wait what!? Hold the fuck up! Did Gerard said he was into guys too!? Am I hearing well!? All I did was stare at him with my mouth open, I was definitely surprised. "Geez, close your mouth, does me being in to guys really surprise you?" He questioned. I simply nodded my head. "How? Like, all along I thought you would be mean to me since you had a feeling I was gay. But, why were you even being mean to me since you're also into guys?" He had a regretful and guilty facial displayed in his angelic face. "Well, long story short I was jealous and confused. Jealous because well, everybody knows that you're gay. We don't really know how we know, but we had a feeling. So, the fact that they even didn't bother you about it made me kind of jealous since you get to be who you really are. As to myself, I had to hang out with so called "friends" that would always judge people and talk about girls like if they were toys and shit. I couldn't talk about my interests like horror movies, comic books, and good music. I had to also hide my affection that I have towards men for Lindsey's sake. I really loved her, now I just feel hatred toward her, for what she has done to me. Confused, because I just don't know how to react to my affection towards men. I started having dreams, dreams where I would have sex with another male, and well I actually liked it. After those dreams, I started viewing men differently. I just didn't know if it was right or wrong. So please, just help me." I took a moment to process everything that he had told me. "Well, that was really a lot to take in. First of all, I was not aware that my gayness was that noticeable. Second of all, I totally understand why you felt jealous of me. Your situation wouldn't be the best place to be in. I'm actually really sorrt that you had to go through all of that, but now you can change. All of your so called "friends" are not your friends at all. You have your little brother Mikey, along with Ray, Bob, Patrick, Pete, and well I guess now me. I am sure as hell they won't judge you because well I think that they also have affection towards men, specifically towards each other. I just won't say names of who though, you'll figure out by them. Anyways, being gay is not wrong, no matter what the bible says. Love is Love, you like guys if you want to. Sure, you would get some insults along the way, but that's just normal. Some people just have religion up their asses." He laughed at the last part and began to nod. "Yeah they totally do. And, relating towards the friend topic. I know that I have to change them for my real friends. Change for me would really be a good idea, I could now finally be myself. Also, now you raised my suspicion on who you were talking about to be honest. I also knew that they won't judge me. They are like my brothers, they wouldn't do that. Also, yes I agree with you on "Love is Love." I just wanted somebody else's opinion if gay was good or wrong, and now I know that it is good. Thank you Frank, you really had helped me so much." He finished the last part and gave me a tight hug. I smiled and hugged back. We broke apart and I began to talk. "It's okay, Gerard. I'm glad I helped! Fighting alone isn't the nicest thing." "It sure as hell isn't! I'm honestly looking forward towards this friendship, you really are a great friend for someone who has never had a friend before." "Is it weird that I'm happy to hear that?" He laughed and just replied with a simple "Not at all Frank."

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