Mikey rushed down the corridor, not looking left or right, he just wanted to bring as much space between Frank and him as possible.
He kept his eyes down, didn’t want to be talked to, nurses and patients passed as blurred silhouettes as he fastened his steps.
As he finally looked up, he found himself in front of a glass door, leading to a small smoker’s area outside the building. Relieved at the sight, Mikey pushed down the handle and stepped out in the dark.


The air was cool and Mikey could already feel his cheeks and the tip of his nose growing cold, but luckily there was no biting wind due to the high buildings that surrounded the court from two sides.
Wobbly looking plastic chairs were set up in a line next to the wall and Mikey placed himself on one of them, pulling his hood up and fumbling his pack out of his pocket.
Mechanically he stuck a cigarette between his lips and clicked the lighter.

Mikey still couldn’t comprehend how he brought himself in this position. Here he was, still shaking and totally worked up, feeling weak and dirty.
Since he left his girlfriend and home to look for his missing brother his life had changed completely.

He hadn’t contacted Janine since the evening he had told her, that he would be staying overnight at Frank’s. And she had been understandingly enough to not make a big deal about it. Now Mikey wished she had.
Mikey didn’t want to lie to her, but he didn’t want to admit what he’d done either. Fuck, he couldn’t even admit it to himself really.

He blew out a whiff of smoke, heaving a sigh in the process, but didn’t feel lighter or relaxed. He just felt self hate, cursing himself for his fucking drunken brain that had told him to hit on Frank.
After all, he wasn’t even gay, how could he possibly have a relationship with a girl for two years if he were gay?!

But he couldn’t deny that he had liked what had happened on the couch that night… a lot to be honest. This had been totally different to anything he had ever experienced with Janine, it was rougher and even realer somehow.
He had felt good beneath those strong hands’ grip, feeling Frank using him the way he liked, not listening to Mikey’s muffled screams, but nevertheless giving him pleasure and this indescribable feeling deep down inside… Just now he felt a memory of that feeling bubbling up in his stomach and more than that, his lower regions jumping to life.

„NO!“ Mikey growled and shook his head, he couldn’t believe it. Just a few minutes ago Frank had shoved him to the floor, forced his mouth on Mikey’s and called him a whore, and now he was popping a fucking boner over that man?! Hell no.
Without hesitation Mikey took the cigarette from his lips and pressed the glowing end to the back of his bare hand.

„OH-MY-FUCK“ Mikey screamed out, clenching his fingers into a fist and his teeth tightly as the heat burned his skin, crouching over until his head was buried in the crook of his arm to muffle his chanted curses.
His face was distorted by pain, eyes closed shut tightly- but he didn’t stop- this would be a lecture for himself, and it took him all of his will power to continue burning his own flesh.


All his body could feel at the moment was the numbing pain inflicted by himself, the flicker of lust that had crept up vanished completely by now.

Finally the bud had gone out and with shaking hands Mikey dropped it carelessly to the floor. Fuck that hurt.
Breathing deeply for a few more seconds he decided to sit up again.
With amazement in his moist, brown eyes Mikey stared at the fleshy wound as he raised the back of his hand on eye-level.

A perfect circular dark red splotch of burned skin that grew more pinkish further in the middle of the wound.
It burned like hell, but that was just what he needed. His boner was gone and that mark would always remind him of who Frank really was, and that he, Mikey, would neither try anything again- no matter how drunk- nor would he fall for any of Frank’s attempts to get him laid.
Of course, if Frank would even consider that anyways after his beloved Gerard was back again- Mikey couldn’t be more than a grain of dust on the dominant man’s shoes he guessed.

With a deep frown on his face Mikey slouched down on the still cold plastic chair, stretching his feet out, staring into the sky. How would life go on now? Somehow he wished he could save his brother from Frank’s claws, Gerard had definitely suffered enough.

„Babe? Are you up?“ Frank stilled his hand that had continually stroked Gerard’s hair as the body beneath it stirred. A low groan was the answer.

„Mikey…?“ Gerard asked with a scratchy voice as his look fell on the empty chair next to his bed.

„Mikey just went for a short walk, babe.“ Frank answered his lover’s question, feeling a bit of jealousy rising in him though, as he hadn’t been the first person Gerard had asked for.

„Oh, alright…“ Gerard felt a little disappointed that Mikey hadn’t waited for him to wake up, but turned around slowly to face Frank. Gerard bit his lip at the sudden pain that shot through his body. When he escaped William’s flat he’d practically felt nothing, everything was numbed by the adrenaline and general dizziness from the unthinkable thing he had done, but now it came back even stronger.
His thigh was throbbing angrily at the spot the wooden floor board had dug into his leg, and his face was a whole other story. Cautiously he looked into Frank’s eyes, who had put on a sorrowful face, seemingly feeling sorry for the pain Gerard was experiencing at the moment.

„Hey sweetheart.“ Frank smiled a sad smile and took Gerard’s long pale fingers in his, intertwining them, squeezing them gently.

„Hi Frankie…“ Gerard muttered shyly.

„Are you in pain? Should I get a nurse for you?“ Frank asked worriedly and stretched his arm out to reach the signal button, but Gerard just shook his head shortly.

„No, it’s not that.. it’s.. uh…“ Gerard wasn’t sure if he wanted to ask this question right now, but he needed to know anyways. He darted his eyes across the room, taking in his surrounding for the first time, taking some time to build up the courage to ask.

„Talk to me baby, what do you want to know?“ Frank looked at the black haired man in front of him, who was desperately grabbing for words.

„Okey, I… how much do you know about the whole…thing?“ Gerard ended weakly, finding it pretty hard to concentrate as Frank’s eyes bored inquiringly into his.

„About your injuries?“

„Yeah, for instance…“ Gerard touched the stitched wound at his eyebrow absentmindedly.

„Well, the doctor told me about several injuries, different kinds though… But you’re okey she assured me, actually we’ll check you out soon.“

Gerard didn’t answer, he just stared at his hand that was in Frank’s. Taking a deep breath he looked up again, trying to control his emotions the best he could.

„F-Frank, do you… do you know about the…uh.. videos?“ Gerard felt Frank’s hand gripping his a tad tighter at his last word. He assumed the worst.

Frank cleared his throat, then looked at Gerard, putting a straight face on. „Yes, actually I’ve watched them. I tried to help the police find you, Gee. I’ve got the website’s name from this shady guy Mikey and I tried to stop. He bragged with it, he wanted us to know.“

Gerard’s eyes had grown wide as the information sunk in. So Frank did not only know he was raped by William, online, for everyone to see, but also watched the videos himself. Shame burned on his face and slowly he pulled his hand out of Frank’s, but the other wouldn’t let him.

„Hey, Gee, stop. I’m so indescribably sorry for what happened to you, and I know that it wasn’t your fault. I’m not mad at you, baby.“ Frank gripped Gerard’s hand tight, he didn’t want Gerard to defy from him.

„Is there any possibility that you’d still… want me, Frankie? I mean…to be together with me, after all that happened when I was gone…“ Gerard’s eyes were filled with tears once more, he was extremely scared about the answer he’d receive from Frank.

„Babe, the whole time you were gone you were the only thing I could think about. You can ask Mikey if you don’t believe me.“ Frank brushed a strand of black hair out of Gerard’s eyes, urging the other to look up again.

„I need you Gee, you ain’t just anybody to me, you know. You’re mine and you’re special. And I won’t give you away so easily. You belong to me, Gee, you know that. Please give me a smile, sweetheart, I missed that so badly.“

Gerard didn’t know what to make out of Frank’s words, somehow they were unbelievingly cute, but somehow they seemed really possessive of his persona. But maybe that’s just how Frank was and Gerard needed to finally adjust to that. However, hearing that Frank wasn’t mad and that he wanted him still, felt so good Gerard actually brought a small smile on his lips, trying to please Frank as well.

„Now that’s my baby, you’re amazing Gee“ Frank breathed as he leaned in and kissed Gerard’s lips sweetly, feeling the other man’s smile even broaden at his words and the kiss deepen.

Eventually they pulled apart and Frank raised his voice again „I’m gonna tell the doctor that you’re up, oh, and the police will probably check on you too, after all that happened they’ll need to write their report I guess..“ Frank kissed his boyfriend’s forehead sweetly and raised from his chair next to the bed.

Gerard whimpered as he felt Frank’s warmth vanish from his side, additionally he wasn’t exactly eager to talk to anyone right now, particularly not to the police. He would have to go through all the horror again, and he didn’t know what they’d say about the part with Dan. Maybe they’d send him even to jail for it. Gerard felt a huge boulder forming in his stomach at the thought.

„Frankie… I-“ „Don’t be scared Gee, I’m sure everything’s alright. The faster we get this through, the faster we’re home“ Frank assured with a short look back at a worried Gerard who was clutching the sheets tightly, and walked off.

Frank strode down the corridor to the nurses’ station, calling the officers that had taken care of Gerard’s case as he stopped in front of the counter, turning to his right, his look fell on a lonely figure sitting outside the building. Mikey. He was sitting alone in the dark, smoking, obviously relaxed, well Frank liked to change that.
He left a short voice mail on the officers phone, for she didn’t pick up, told one of the nurses that Gerard had woken, then walked outside the glass door to scare Mikey for fun…

Frank opened and closed the door silently, not to startle Mikey immediately, a short distance away from the younger man he positioned himself with his arms crossed before his chest, a smirk on his face.

„Enjoying ourselves, are we Mikes?!“ Frank’s voice cut through the silence and Mikey jumped- his long legs, that had rested stretched out comfortably were pulled back like a dead spider’s, cigarette dropping from his fingers as he gripped the armrest tightly, his head snapping in Frank’s direction.
Mikey didn’t know what to say, taking in Frank’s appearance he could only guess Frank didn’t come to be friendly.

„Chilling here, smoking, while your poor brother is awake and asking for you. Not very nice Mikey, don’t you think so?“ Frank enjoyed the emotions running over Mikey’s face as he addressed him.

„I… actually I just wanted to go back i-in.“ Mikey tried to sound somewhat collected as he rose from the plastic chair, keeping a good distance from Frank.

He felt like a mouse, while Frank was the cat that could attack any moment. And as he saw Frank stepping closer to him he had to suppress his instinct to escape, just running away through the adjacent bushes, really hard.

„Ew, like I thought, you smell like an ashtray, how many did you smoke?“ Frank smirked at Mikey, and went through his pockets, looking for something.

„Not so many…just like three or so..“ Mikey mumbled as he took a step back, sniffing at his clothes shortly.

„Yeah sure, here, for your brother’s sake.“ Frank held out a pack of chewing gum. Mikey shot Frank an angry look but reached his hand out to take one.

„What the fuck is that?“ Frank asked as his look fell on the fag burn on Mikey’s hand.

„Nothing!“ Mikey yelled and pulled his empty hand back and his sleeve down so his burn wouldn’t show.

„Mikey, Mikey, Mikey… just because Gerard is back you need some attention now? A bit pathetic if you ask me.“ Frank mocked, fumbled a chewing gum out himself and stuck it in his mouth.

„Fuck you Frank! I didn’t do that for attention. It’s just a reminder about how much of an ass you are, if that is even needed. You’re a fucking tyrant, who likes to hurt people and there’s no good inside of you!“ Mikey ended breathing heavily, the well known red splotches he’d always get when he was having a fight with someone, blooming on his neck, thank god it was dark outside…

„It’s eat or get eaten, and I had to learn that the hard way with your brother. Since I’ve tightened the reins things are going better for anyone, and I’ll keep on doing that. That doesn’t mean I’m a bad person, I just finally figured out how your brother needs to be treated to make this work.“ Frank answered, chewing his gum lazily, while staring at Mikey whose face had darkened at Frank’s words.

„I’m gonna save him from your fucked up mind, that’s what I’ll do. I’m going back in there and tell him everything, it’s for his best! And then he’ll come and live with me. Fuck you Frank- terrorise someone else!“ Mikey spat at Frank making a move to go back in, when Frank gripped him harshly at his arm, stopping him.

„Really Mikey, you sure?“ Frank growled dangerously as he ripped the younger man’s sleeve up quickly, pressing the tip of his thumb down hard on the still fresh burn hole on Mikey’s hand.

Mikey screamed out in pain, trashing around to free his hand. Frank had pulled the struggling man’s head into his shoulder to muffle the screams unaware of the punches Mikey delivered to his body.

„Do you want me to press down a bit harder? You know, I could totally do that.“ Frank whispered into Mikey’s ear, but Mikey didn’t answer he was still trying to free his hand, fighting in vain against Frank’s strong grip, groaning in pain.

„You really think you could take Gerard away from me?“ Frank now pressed down so damn hard it even would’ve hurt if there had been no wound at all and Mikey fell to his knees.

„N-no…“ The pained man whined exhaustedly at Frank’s feet.

„No what?“ Frank repeated, remaining completely calm.

„I-I won’t…oh god please stop, just fucking s-stop.“ Mikey sobbed, pulling desperately at his arm while his other hand tried to loosen Frank’s grip a bit.

„So you promise to keep your mouth shut and be a nice boy? You won’t talk shit about me,
right?“ Frank snarled down at Mikey’s shivering form.

„Uh huh.“ Mikey nodded quickly, about to admit to anything if Frank would just let go of him.

„Fine“ Frank grinned and released Mikey’s hand who with a sigh of relieve pushed it to his chest clutching it with his other hand, rocking his body back and forth lightly, trying to calm himself while tears spilled from his eyes.

„Don’t be angry Mikey, but I really needed to show you the line. It’s not that I don’t like you, I just can’t have you snooping around here, ruining my reunion with Gerard. I’m sure you’ll understand, let’s get us inside.“
Frank pulled Mikey to his feet again, who seemingly had given up on fighting or talking back. He was just clutching his hand tightly to his chest, cautiously rolling the sleeve down over his wound to hide it away.

Both men were walking up the monotonous corridor to Gerard’s room again, Mikey was rather dragging himself further while Frank’s arm rested on the small of his back, guiding the younger man ahead.

„Frank… I don’t care if you hurt me again, but please… please let Gerard be. He suffered enough and he needs you, he loves you..god knows why.“ Mikey mumbled only loud enough for Frank to hear.

„It’s alright Mikey, don’t worry.“ Frank uttered coolly and opened Gerard’s door, leading Mikey inside.

„Hey babe, look whom I’ve brought you!“ Frank smiled from ear to ear as he thrusted Mikey closer to Gerard’s bed.

„Moikey!“ Gerard smiled happily as Mikey sat down in front of his bed and the brothers hugged each other tightly.

„So good to see you Gee, awake and everything.“ Mikey tried a small smile as he pulled back from the embrace.

„Yeah, I’m pretty happy to see you again too. For a while I really thought I wouldn’t get to see anyone ever again…“ Gerard sighed sadly but straightened up almost immediately, smiling himself at his loved ones.

„Has the doctor already been here babe?“ Frank asked and stepped closer behind Mikey, which caused a shiver running down the slender male’s back.

„Yeah, she hadn’t much to say I guess, just told me how to take care of my injuries at home. She said that I could leave as well tonight if I wanted to, or stay until tomorrow morning.“

„Well and what do you prefer, Gee?“ Frank asked sweetly, hoping for Gerard to say the words he liked to hear.

„I don’t know, shouldn’t I be waiting here for the police?“ Gerard asked unsure, looking up at Frank.

„Nah, they can visit us at home as well.“ Frank assured and looked hopefully back at Gerard.

„Well I guess I’ll just go home then.“ Gerard stated and smiled at Mikey and Frank.

Half an hour later they checked out of the hospital, Gerard was given crutches because of his leg, and with Frank’s arm draped around his back, they waited in front of the hospital exit for Mikey to pull up the car.
The ride home was quick and uneventful, all of the three men seemed to be deeply lost in thought, the only sound coming from the radio.
Consequently Gerard was rather startled as Frank suddenly held the car door open for him, helping him out.

William’s car was no longer parked in the middle of their lawn, obviously it had been towed off to the police’s yard for further inquiries. Nevertheless the car tracks where Gerard had jumped into the brake had left their mark on the grass visibly.

Gerard averted his eyes from this ugly reminder of what happened and walked slowly over to the house, supported by his crutches and Frank who unlocked the door.
Mikey trailed slowly behind the couple, already feeling not needed again.

„So, you and Mikey had a little party while I was gone?“ Gerard joked almost a bit bitter as he saw the couch table littered with pizza boxes and beer bottles.

Frank who just stripped out of his jacket turned around to look at the couch table as well „Oh that, yeah, well we were really hungry after a whole day of looking for you and hanging posters. Don’t worry I’ll clean this up in an instant.“ Frank kissed Gerard’s cheek and hurried over to the table, stacking the pizza boxes together and getting a hold of the many bottles.

„Come on Mikey, lend me a hand please“ Frank ordered as he carried everything into the kitchen.
Wordlessly Mikey walked over and picked up the remaining bottles and napkins, unfortunately setting something free in the process…

The bottle of lube Frank and he had used the other night.

Mikey had noticed his mistake in a split second and grabbed the item at the speed of light, walking fast over into the kitchen to join Frank, but no matter how fast he’d been- Gerard had already seen it.

Gerard felt his heart stop for a second. Why in all heavens was there a bottle of lube on their couch table?!

If Gerard’s leg hadn’t hurt that much he’d been in the kitchen as well in an instant but so he just hobbled a bit closer on his crutches only to hear suppressed whispered voices fighting in the kitchen. He couldn’t make out any actual sentences, but scraps of their conversation- „All your fault“ „he’s seen it“ „…dare you to talk about“.

What in hell was going on? The first, insane thought popped up in Gerard’s head - My brother slept with my boyfriend on that fucking couch- but this was impossible, Mikey was in a relationship with a girl for years now.
Gerard wondered if Frank had forced him to do it, or had been another man in their house? What if Frank just jerked off, maybe even to Gerard’s videos, but if so, why was Mikey looking like he was in for something?

„Mikey! Frank!“ Gerard yelled and waited extremely upset for the men to join him in the living room.

The whispering stopped abruptly and Frank walked slowly into the living room, looking stonily at Gerard’s face, Mikey following behind.

„What is it babe?“

Gerard didn’t look at Frank but at Mikey, who seemingly tried to avoid eye contact on purpose.

„What was that you carried away, Mikey?“ Gerard’s voice was shaking lightly as he looked sternly at his brother.

„A juice box“ Mikey answered subdued, still not looking up.

„Oh really, a juice box? Looked rather than a bottle of lube if you ask me.“ Gerard shot back, while Mikey shrunk in on himself more and more.

„He’s right babe, it was just a damn juice box, why should there be a bottle of lube on the table?“ Frank stepped in front of Mikey as if to defend him from Gerard’s words.

„I don’t know, you tell me Frank!“ Gerard spat at his boyfriend with narrowed eyes.

„Well there is nothing to tell because it wasn’t a bottle of lube. Gee, I think you’re still suffering from post traumatic stress, it’s only reasonable after all you’ve been a victim of assault. Don’t worry baby, that’ll pass.“ Frank stepped over to pull Gerard in a hug but Gerard wouldn’t let him.

„I know what I saw, I’m not stupid after all! Mikey-“ The youngest man jumped as his name was called „Yeah Gee?“

„You would always tell me the truth, wouldn’t you?“

„Sure Gee…“

„Well then, have there been any other men visiting Frank?“

„N-no. I haven’t seen any.“

„So only you two have been here? Drinking beer, hanging out on the couch, oh- is that my Misfits hoodie?“ Gerard ended with sarcasm dripping from his voice and pulled the crumpled fabric up that was lying discarded on the floor next to the couch with the foot of his crutch.

„I borrowed it. I didn’t bring clothes and I stayed for three days, so… I wanted to change.“ Mikey explained while shooting unsure looks at Frank who’s face was as stony as before.

„Am I going to find a used condom if I continue looking, or didn’t you two even used one?!“

„GERARD! Frank’s voice was booming and silenced the furious man. „That’s your brother for god’s sake! You think I would fuck your own brother, who -just to mention it- isn’t even gay?! I thought you wanted to be in a relationship with me again, but you aren’t trusting me at all I believe. And a good relationship needs trust, so just believe me, we’re speaking the truth. Calm yourself.“

Gerard’s anger seemed to evaporate quickly, and now he was the one to cast his eyes to the floor, filled with shame.

„Of course you’ve got a girlfriend Mikey, I’m sorry. I’m just… getting paranoid or something. I’m sorry.“ Gerard uttered silently and hobbled over in Mikey’s direction to hug his little brother.

„Don’t be Gee, really, don’t.“ Mikey gulped, this was so hard, he just wanted to tell Gerard the truth, but Frank would probably break every bone in his body if he did so. Even now he was shooting Mikey threateningly glances, urging him to keep it together.

„I’ll be upstairs, I need to rest after all. Maybe join me Frankie?“ Gerard asked as he made his way slowly over to the stairs.

„Yeah sure, I’ll just get some bedding for Mikey set the couch up for him.“

„So then… You shared our bed while I was gone?“ Gerard asked unbelievingly.

„Gerard… please don’t annoy me any longer, nothing happened I’m telling you.“ Frank huffed, rolling his eyes as he passed Gerard on the stairs walking up to their bedroom.

Gerard sighed as he took slow steps upstairs, holding tightly onto the banister.
This wasn’t exactly the way he had figured coming home would be like. He didn’t know what to believe and despite what Frank was saying, he could clearly detect a guilty conscience in both of them. Each of them handling it their own way of course, Frank getting loud and angry, trying to turn things around, and Mikey being silent and avoiding eye contact scared to spill the beans.
Gerard was pretty sure that something,whatever it may be, had happened between them and in the coming days he would hopefully find out about that...

Notes

Hi lovely friends of the internetttt!

I'm so sorry it took so long to update, I had so many versions written down for this chapter, but wasn't happy with any of them. This here I like so far, I hope you do too. The next chapter is going to be a bit longer and maybe even the last one, so there'll be a lot of action, answered questions and drama, I can promise you.
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