Whatever It Takes

Gerard awoke early. He really could've used the sleep, left alone just to be somewhere else, but at 7 am he just couldn't close his eyes anymore.
Grey light peeked through the many holes in the moth-eaten curtains, illuminating nothing but the dusty floorboards.
For a while he watched the tiny dust particles float in the dim rays of the morning light. They seemed so familiar.


As a child Gerard had always felt a certain kind of magic when he had woken up early, when nobody else was up and he was safe between the cosy and warm blankets of his wooden bed in this big silent house. The only audible sounds where the random creaking of the old rooftop and the soft snoring, which came from Mikey’s sleeping form in the other bed on the opposite side of the room they shared.

Back then Gerard liked to imagine that the small dust particles were pixie dust, only visible for those who believed in magic and had a good heart.
Sometimes he had opened his small hand, grabbed a fistful of pixie dust out of the air, and made a wish then and his day would turn out to be special in some kind. At least he would see the good things in life more than on other days.

Almost 17 years had passed since he had made the last wish and Gerard thought it was about time to make a new one.

„Please, I need something good today, anything.“ Gerard whispered into his fist, which had just grabbed the pixie dust, feeling like an eight-year-old again.

All in all he could imagine what today would hold for him, another violent session on William’s couch, more welts and more injuries, obviously that was all he was good for…

Thinking of William he sensed the heat of the other man’s bare chest which was still glued to his back. Gerard felt hot and sticky through the constant sweating over night, but he hadn’t been able to wiggle himself out of this stronghold. At least his stomach didn’t hurt anymore from the punch he took yesterday.

The soft in and exhaling of the other man's even breath blew into Gerards ear and he wished again to scramble away from him but he was held too tightly.
He wouldn't have cared that much if it wasn't for his arm. After all that hours in the same position and above his head, it felt terribly numb, to be accurate, Gerard couldn't feel it at all.
With all his willpower he tried to make a fist, watching his captured limb intently.

"Come on...!" Gerard pleaded after trying for ten minutes, nothing happened.

Gerard started to panic, he needed to wake William, get the other man to unchain him.

"Hey! Will, wake up, please!" Gerard started to fuss around, slapping the blonde man's arm harshly with his free one.

„Hnnnnghhh…“

"Please! I think my arm is dead.“

„…W-what?“ a scratchy voice came to life.

"I can't move my fingers anymore! Please undo the handcuff.“

„Damn, Gee, alright alright..." Sleepily, William came to his feet, shuffling over to the chest of drawers he had placed the key on.

"Don't jump me or anything when I unlock it- I swear! It's too early for that shit..." William yawned loudly and freed Gerard's arm with sloppy motions.

"I won't." Gerard hissed.

Like dead weight the arm dropped to the mattress, next to his head. Gerard scrambled into a sitting position.

"Oh my god! This thing is gone! Look what you've done to me!" Gerard yelled in horror as he shook the lifeless limb back and forth.

"Bullshit, your arm just fell asleep, let's run some cold water over it and your nerves will be right back, come on." William grabbed Gerard's dead arm, dragging him into the bathroom.

"Do you feel something?" William asked as he turned the tap on, ice cold water splashing down Gerard's lifeless arm.

"Nothing." Gerard whimpered pitiful.

"Ok, don't worry- just keep trying, I'll make breakfast. Oh, and I’ll take this with me." William leaned over and took the razor which was lying on the rim of the washing basin.

"And these bad boys" He opened the small cupboard above the washing basin and took out all the spare blades.

Gerard sent him an absolutely killing glance.

"Never know what you’re up to, right!“ And the tall man placed a wet kiss on Gerard's cheek.

"What a douchebag.." Gerard muttered under his breath as William had left the bathroom on a safe distance.

His skin had turned bright pink due to the cold water, which was still splashing down his arm. Suddenly he noticed a tingling feeling creeping up his fingertips. The tingling got stronger and stronger until it felt like a hive of bees settled beneath his skin.
Gerard put the water off and grabbed his arm, trying to make a fist again as he staggered back into the bedroom. His digits were moving!
A big smile crept over his face, what a relief! But soon enough the worst cramp he had ever experienced struck his arm and he sunk to his knees, clutching the fuzzy arm.

"Oh fuuuck…"

One thing was for sure, he wouldn’t spend another night tied up like this, he must do something! Gerard shook his arm out for the last time, then decided to put some clothes on first.

William had left him alone in the bedroom, he could hear his captor working in the kitchen, the monotonous sound of the coffee machine coming to life. Gerard figured he had a few minutes to explore his chances.
His eyes and hands wandered across the room, searching hastily for something useful, a weapon. It could be really anything, a broken tile with sharp edges, something heavy but easy to handle, a cracked floorboard.

So far he did’t find anything in the mostly empty room and he didn’t dare to open the drawer, for he knew about the squeaky noises it made. Alle there was left were cardboard boxes, a bit of furniture and clothes, sadly.
Gerard was on his knees, his arm stretched out beneath the bed, feeling blindly for anything useful as he felt something pinch his finger and he flinched back emitting a small shriek.

His heart was thumping by now, warily he watched the door, did William hear him? But the other man wasn’t in sight so he risked to have a look at the thing that stung him.
Gerard laid down flat so he could peek beneath the bed. At first he didn’t see much, but as his eyes got used to the darkness he could see, beneath a lot of dust, a sharp edged piece of wood, sticking out of the other floor boards. This could be his way out!

Gerard stretched his arm even further to reach it again, he had to suppress a hefty sneeze as his face was almost pressed against the dusty floor. Finally his fingers closed around the wood and he started to pull, now with both arms. The wood creaked, but didn’t give way. Gerard’s heart started to beat even louder now, he didn’t know when William would check on what he was doing, was he already standing at the door, watching? Gerard’s fearful eyes darted to the bedroom door, but it was closed except for a hand’s breath as far as he could see it…
He swallowed nervously, and tried again to rip out the single floor board. He pulled with all the power he had, sweat was now dripping from his forehead, his hands were going numb and hurt as the rough wood drove tiny splinters into his palms. And then finally- a loud cracking noise and Gerard was thrown back against the frame of the bed, feeling pain spread through the back of his head, but the floor board was in his hands!

Hasty steps.

With shivering hands Gerard stuffed the floor board back into it’s gap, scrambling out from under the bed in a second, but he wasn’t able to stand up in time-

The floor was vibrating and suddenly the door was slammed open, smacking into the wall with force.

„GERARD!“ William’s booming voice filled the room and his eyes darted over to the figure next to the bed, „What the-“ William’s eyes grew wide. There was Gerard, on his back, completely sweaty a strained expression on his face, doing…sit-ups?

„What the heck are you doing?“ William asked unbelievingly his face split up into a huge grin.

„What does it look like?“ Gerard shot back wheezing slightly, staring at the wall in front of him while he continued his charade. Gerard was too afraid to make eye-contact. He was pretty sure his guilty face would betray him at William’s boring look.

„I’ve never seen you doing exercise. You’re just the least sportive person I know!“ He shook his head, laughing.

„If you keep me here on these few square meters I’ll have to look out for my body somehow, right…“ Gerard huffed belligerently.

„I guess. Or you could always change your mind and be with me, then we could do a bunch of stuff outside as well, but as I see it you’re a stubborn child, waiting for a chance to escape, right?“ William’s smile had vanished and his last words came out pretty bitter Gerard noticed.

Gerard however didn’t make a move to continue their conversation, so William watched him a while „You know, maybe it’s not that bad if you’re starting with some exercise, our viewers surely like to see a trim body, so go ahead. Join me for breakfast when you’ve finished.“ William ended and left the room again.

Gerard stopped immediately as he saw William leaving the room. Fucking internet perverts, he wouldn’t do anything to please them! But thank fuck, William bought it. And he also forgot to ask about the noise!
Gerard sunk back on the floor again, relief washing over him. His chest rose and fell quickly, his heart beat slowly started to become normal again. Gerard turned his head to the left. He could see the floor board sticking out slightly between the others. Once more he stretched his arm out to reach it, and decided to place it beneath his side of the bed, to have it close at hand if necessary.

A few well placed hits out of the blue and William would be lying unconscious on the floor. He would have to tie him up, maybe gag him, and then grab William’s car keys and lock that bitch up in his own home.
Then he would drive like the devil, until he was at home, grab Frank, explain everything to him and then head further to the police. He would tell them everything and then the officers would drive to William’s flat to arrest him.

Gerard knew he could have all that, he just had to be very brave for once. But much more he needed the perfect timing for his attack. He’d have to do it before Dan would join them, so he wouldn’t have to fight two at once like last time, which hadn’t turned out well at all he remembered…
If William would just let him out of sight for once, he could sneak into the bedroom, grab the floor board and SMASH- freedom! He would look out for that one moment today.

Slowly he stood up and headed to the small bathroom to wash his sweaty face. Quickly Gerard checked his reflection in the mirror. Except for dark circles beneath his eyes and the patch which stuck to his forehead, he looked pretty much the same as always. He furrowed his dark and full brows and grinned. They wouldn’t break him that fast, he decided. He got a weapon right now, so tables would turn pretty soon.
As he felt his stomach growl he shot himself a last look, messed up his hair the way he liked it and left the bedroom to join William in the kitchen.

„Ah, somebody’s hungry, huh?“ William, who was cooking scrambled eggs greeted Gerard friendly and winked at him. There were already two plates next to each other set at the kitchen counter, and a delicious smell of fresh coffee and eggs filled the room. Gerard could feel his mouth water at those sensations and he sat down quickly on one of the bar stools, grabbing his cup of coffee greedily.
The first sip tasted like heaven, and he was beyond glad that William was at least able to afford a coffee machine.

„Those eggs were the last food in the fridge, I think tomorrow I’ll have to go shopping again, can’t always live off cold pizza or thai.“ William walked over, the pan and a spatula in hand and put some eggs on Gerard’s and his plate. Gerard offered a dry thanks but was too busied with his coffee to bother eating.
He noticed the plastic cutlery William had laid out for him and rolled his eyes. As if he was so dumb to attack him with a butter knife anyways…

„I’ll have to do a bit extra driving though, make some miles further outside the city you know, maybe they’re already looking for me, maybe our Frankie boy has more brain than I thought. Never underestimate your enemies Gee.“ William shot him a meaningful look and started eating.

Gerard could feel his appetite almost gone at the mentioning of Frank’s name and put his cup down. He stuck his hands between his thighs and stared at his eggs.

„Oh come on“ William huffed and nudged Gerard in the ribs „Stop your sulking and start eating, you can’t always pull that face when I mention Frank.“ William spoke through a mouthful of eggs and swallowed appreciatively.
Gerard just turned his head away, he hated it when William used Frank’s name with his dirty mouth, he knew nothing about his boyfriend and he shouldn’t say his name!

„When I’m gone- and I think that will take at least three hours or so- I’ll have Dan keeping an eye on you. I know you don’t get along too well but I will tell him to leave you alone.“

Gerard’s head shot back into Will’s direction. „Why do you need him to watch me? Can’t you just chain me to the bed again or something? This guy hates me, you can’t let me alone with him!“ Gerard’s look was reproachful and slightly scared, being alone with Dan couldn’t go well at all.

„Because I don’t know how you’ll behave on your own, or what tricks you’ll pull to free yourself. I’d be very discontent if I came home and find the flat empty, darling.“ William purred dangerously.

„But he hates me, Will. Why is that anyways? I’ve never done anything to him in the first place.“ Gerard scrunched up his face and took another swig from his cup, to calm his nerves.

„Well isn’t that obvious?“ William spoke audibly bored. „He’s jealous.“

„No way…“

„Yeah it’s true, I guess he always thought something more would happen between us, but honestly I just used him as a cheap look alike for you, honey.“ William put an arm over Gerard’s shoulders and pressed another kiss on his cheek.

„And he knows that he’ll be never as good-looking and special as you are, or will sleep in bed with me, get touched by me again…“ William breathed the last words in Gerard’s ear and Gerard could feel a shiver running down his spine, and warmth in his cheeks. He just loved getting compliments too damn much.

„But I have to keep him at my side because he knows about my dark little secret, you baby.

So I have to buy me his silence with money and watch out that he doesn’t get too salty about the whole third wheel thing.“ William’s voice was now deep and seductive and he kissed Gerard’s neck sweetly, wandering down to his captive’s collarbone to suck on it.

Gerard could feel a hand on his thigh, caressing him softly and wandering up higher and higher while the kisses on his neck kept coming. To his own surprise he didn’t struggle but let out an almost inaudible moan.

„You taste so good baby, so unique, I wanna taste your whole body.“ and with a swift move, William had picked Gerard up easily from his bar stool and carried him hastily into his bedroom.

„My breakfast!“ Gerard whined hungrily.

„Well, that’s your fault, shouldn’t have turned me on like that. Guess you’ll have to eat later…“ And William let him fall gently onto the bed, tugging at Gerard’s sweatpants as he kneeled above him.

„Wait, what are you doing, I mean, we’re not even filming, stop it!“ Gerard struggled against the hands that stripped him off, but soon enough his pants were gone leaving him naked and scared about what was to come.

„Shhh…nothing’s gonna happen, actually I’m gonna be very nice to you, baby. This is just for the two of us“ William spoke in a seductive voice, trailing a path of kisses downwards from Gerard’s chest as he lifted his t-shirt.

„Will…please don’t, whatever this is going to- ohh…“ Gerard ended his sentence involuntarily as a warm mouth sunk over his still soft cock. He could feel William’s tongue slide across his tip and digging slightly into his slit. Gerard moaned longingly, feeling himself harden quickly and overwhelmingly turned on.

William’s tongue kept dancing expertly around Gerard’s shaft and he started bobbing his head up and down, every time he swallowed him deeper until Gerard could feel his steadily growing dick hitting the back of William’s throat.

„Oh god…b-but..-oh damn-“ Gerard wasn’t able to form straight sentences anymore. He still wanted to protest but his rock hard cock couldn’t be bothered by his conflicted mind.
It just felt too good, and he hadn’t felt that way in a long time.
Frank had abused him, William did as well, but finally something pleasurable was happening to him alone.
He wasn’t a fuck toy right now, which had to endure any pain inflicted on, but he was given an amazing blowjob and all he had to do was lean back and enjoy.

It seemed like his wish had worked already. Wait a second…Gerard’s eyes flew open- this wasn’t exactly what he intended to use his wish on! He needed to focus on his escape!
If it just wasn’t that hard to concentrate, but those perfect lips were closed tightly around his cock, lathering it in saliva, working their magic and Gerard could feel himself getting closer to his climax as William kept circling his tongue around Gerard’s head repeatedly.

His thoughts wandered back to the piece of wood, which he knew was lying beneath the bed…
Could he really smack William while he was sucking him off? He had to, it was the best opportunity he’d get today! William had his eyes closed and any quick movements of his could be read as arousal and nothing more.

„Fuck Will, this is so, so good“ Gerard’s mouth hung open and his eyelids slipped close again, he scooted a bit further to the edge of the bed, and William followed him, constantly sucking and nibbling, driving Gerard completely wild.

His left hand was now hanging off the bed, feeling for the floor board he had placed right beneath where he was lying, while his right hand was tangled in William’s blonde strands, pressing the other man’s head deeper down onto his crotch. William moaned lustful and happily, thinking Gerard was finally opening up to him again.

He could feel the wooden floor board on his finger tipps now, just a bit and he’d get a hold of it…

“Ahhh…fuck!“ Gerard screamed in surprise as he felt a slick finger invading his hole- his mind was instantly taken off the weapon beneath the bed, but was focused on William’s hollowed cheeks who intensified their movement and the finger which was probing his hole, stretching him carefully.

He couldn’t concentrate at all while his only wish was to cum right now. Later would be enough time to do it, Gerard thought and pushed the secret weapon out of his mind, relishing the wet and warm mouth which gave him so much pleasure.

„Will.. *pant* I.. I think I’m gonna cum now- ahh-..okey?“ Gerard gasped, biting his lip slightly as he felt another eager finger joining the first one. The stretch hurt a little, but he told himself to swallow it and relax the best he could.

William didn’t respond but started to suck even harder, humming in approval at Gerard’s desperate gasps and mewls. His fingers were fucking Gerard in a quick pace and as he heard Gerard’s throaty scream of pleasure and tasted the thick liquid on his tongue he added a third finger and pushed deeper into Gerard’s now clenching hole.

This seemed to be to much for the overstimulated man and he whined loudly, while pushing William’s head away from his softening cock.
Soon after the three finger’s disappeared from Gerard’s hole. He closed his eyes, feeling pretty exhausted when he heard William opening the zipper of his own pants.

Gerard cracked one eye open, but was surprised to feel his legs being pushed to his chest. William’s head wandered once again between his legs, but not to suck, but to spit Gerard’s still warm cum into his hole, pushing it further inside with his tongue, which made Gerard shiver in pleasure.

„Watch out baby“ William purred seductively, his voice dripping with lust and he guided his throbbing, red cock into Gerard’s gaping hole which pulled a half painful half lustful groan from the black haired man beneath him.
William pressed his mouth onto Gerard’s to silence him and Gerard could taste himself on William’s lips. He cried silently into William’s mouth as he was being penetrated deeply but William knew better than to stop. He loved to stuff Gerard’s tight pink hole with his throbbing cock, over and over, he needed to see Gerard’s eyes rolling back into his head, his mouth hanging open with unspoken curse words on his lips, needed to feel Gerard’s fingers clawed wether into his back or the bed sheets. And right now Gerard was giving him all of that.

He could sense Gerard’s cock jumping to attention again as he quickened his pace, fucking him hard and merciless. Gerard’s face was scrunched up at the forceful thrusts and he snaked his hand down to his own cock, starting to stroke himself in erratic movements.

„Gee-fuck- you’re so perfect, babe, so hot…Turn around honey I wanna fuck you from behind, I wanna see all of your beauty.“ William moaned and kissed Gerard deeply then pulled out of him which left the black haired man whining in the sheets almost unable to move. Slowly he rolled onto his stomach and got onto his hands and knees but William pushed his upper body down onto the mattress again. „It’s better this way baby, easier to touch yourself“ he smirked and Gerard didn’t bother protesting for he almost couldn’t hold his body up anymore.

William positioned himself behind Gerard and let his saliva dribble into Gerard’s stretched hole, pushing his cock in again until he was fully buried.
Gerard’s groan was muffled by the pillow he pressed his head into, otherwise it would have been pretty loud William guessed, he grinned and slapped Gerard’s cheek hard. „My perfect little whore“ William grinned and bit his lip as he felt himself getting closer, his thrusts were getting sloppier already.

Gerard didn’t reply but lazily wrapped his long fingers around his cock and started to stroke it again, but he was too overwhelmed by the force that kept stuffing his hole and he dropped his hand quickly just biting down into the pillow instead.

„FFuck…!“ William stuttered and Gerard felt his toes curl as William changed his angle and repeatedly hit his sweet spot, making him go totally nuts as he pressed his face even harder into the pillow, feeling himself spilling his load onto his chest and the sheets without even being touched.

Suddenly the thrusts stopped and Gerard could feel a hot and heavy body leaning all over his back with his full weight wrapping an arm around Gerard’s middle.
Somehow it felt really nice to be held so closely, but William was pretty heavy, and sweaty and Gerard needed some air and a bit of space of his own.
He struggled onto his hands „Will, you’re really heavy, would you mind…“ and he pushed William slightly off him.
„Oh, no, sorry babe, just a second“ William leaned further and reached for a roll of toilet paper on the bed stand, ripped off a few pieces and pulled slowly out of Gerard, covering the tip of his cock.

„Are you going to be a good boy or do I have to tie you up, while I’m showering?“

„Uhh…“

„Wrong answer“ William grinned and used the still opened handcuff, which it’s other end was chained to the bedpost, to chain Gerard’s wrist to the bed in a swift movement again. Gerard was too dumbstruck after all this fucking to even recognise what just happened. With slow eyes he took in his newly imprisonment.

Fuck, he thought. This could have been his second chance. He could have used the moment of surprise when Will would have returned from his shower, unaware of everything and strike him down. But really he felt too heavy and too sleepy to do anything of that sort. Maybe his pixie-dust wish would work another time, he hoped, closed his eyes and dozed off.

„Babe, wake up, are you having a nightmare?“ William shook Gerard softly.

Gerard stirred, he had dreamt of Frank. Frank had accused him of cheating again. In Gerard's dream he had seen him standing next to the bed, watching William and him with inhumanly dark and evil eyes. Frank had his tattooed arms crossed before his chest and shook his head scornfully.
Gerard had screamed at him "What should I do in your opinion Frank?! If I don't comply, he's gonna rape me anyway!" And Frank said just one word "Suffer." and had ended in smoke.
Gerard wondered if the real Frank would say the same, or if he would understand that he was just going with the flow, trying to take care of himself the best he could. He sighed.

„Can I have a cigarette…? I really feel like smoking“ Gerard mumbled sleepily as he slowly opened his eyes.

„Haha, okey? Well, actually why not, but have a shower first, you’re covered in cum and I need to change the sheets.“

„Okey…“ Gerard heard a clicking noise and his wrist was freed again.

„Oh and I’ve called Dan before, told him that there won’t be a shoot today. I’m too tired and I think I wouldn’t have that much stamina anymore. He’s pretty pissed and says I’m going to easy on you, but-
„Thank you so much!“ Gerard had thrown himself into William’s arms and hugged him tightly. He was so relieved to be spared another shooting and this fucker, Dan.

„Yeah, you know, just for today, because you’ve behaved so well and I’m really not in the mood for a second round. Tomorrow’s everything back to normal.“ William patted Gerard’s back as he reciprocated the hug. Gerard’s smile fell immediately, but he didn’t say another word. Maybe tomorrow he wouldn’t even be here anymore, he thought by himself and entered the bathroom.

Notes

Part II ! I know it's long, hope it doesn't bother you though.

Gerard got a weapon! YAY!