Frank heard a weak knocking on the closed bathroom door, shortly after the handle was pushed down, a pale face framed by dark rimmed glasses appeared in the crack of the door.
Mikey was fully clothed again, and avoided eye contact with Frank, who was still inside the shower, rinsing shampoo out of his chestnut coloured hair.

„Come right in“ Frank offered with a small smile on his lips as he looked at Mikey.

„No, I… uhm, I just wanted to thank you for the pizza and say goodbye, I’m driving home now, soo.. bye.“ Mikey blurted out and turned away, hastily closing the door.

„MIKEY!“ Frank called, and stumbled out of the shower, wrapping the first towel in sight around his hips, dashing out of the door.

Mikey had been just around the corner of the bedroom, he didn’t slow down his steps as he headed to the stairs. He heard the sound of wet footsteps hurry behind him on the creaking floor boards, but didn’t show a sign of stopping until he felt Frank’s moist hand on his shoulder, turning him around swiftly.

„Mikey, don’t be stupid- I won’t let you drive, you’re still drunk!“ Frank’s concerned eyes met
Mikey’s guilty ones.

„I’m fine Frank, really“ Mikey assured Frank and shook his hand off.

„No you’re not, and besides I think there’s a lot we should talk about, don’t you agree?“
Frank’s voice was stern and allowed no argument.

„Probably..“ Mikey mumbled and cast his eyes to the floor.

„Good, then have a shower, I’ll make some tea for us and we talk about everything.“ Frank proposed while putting an encouraging look on his face.

Mikey sighed and shuffled back into the bathroom wordlessly.

Frank however entered the bedroom and opened his dresser. He felt satisfied as he heard Mikey starting the shower, he wouldn’t have let him leave in his condition and additionally Frank was very curious about Mikey’s reasons why he had done something so not Mikey-like.

Quickly he decided on the first sweatpants that came in sight and slipped back into his cosy, oversized sweater that had waited for him on the chair-back in front of the small desk.
Frank jogged down into the kitchen to get the promised tea. Switching on the water boiler, difficult thoughts were occupying his head..He didn’t know why he remained that calm after what he’d just done.

In Frank’s defence, he wouldn’t have started anything if it hadn’t been for Mikey’s efforts to get him horny. In which, unfortunately, the younger man had succeeded. And of course the brother’s damn similarities! All he wanted was a little company in the big and lonely house, could he be blamed for it?

But now he had cheated on his missing boyfriend, who could be locked away, suffering somewhere or even… No, he didn’t want to picture THAT case at all.

Frank pushed that thought aside quickly, after all he knew Gerard was with William, and if Gerard was sly enough nothing life threatening would happen to him too soon.

There was a mean and bitter thought popping up in Frank’s head for which he was instantly ashamed- ‚we’re even‘ he heard the dark voice purr, which was always foregoing rage or spite… Was he calm because he had finally gotten his revenge? Because that little monster inside him had been satisfied?

„I’ve got a fucking problem…“ Frank mumbled brokenly and banged his forehead repeatedly on the kitchen cupboard while he poured the tea evenly in the two cups.

He knew it. He knew that his head was fucked up. He had guessed it at the evening Gerard had come home after his affair got busted.
Frank hadn’t thrown him out or ended their relationship like any normal cheated boyfriend would have , but made him a sex-slave, which was much to his liking as he found out in the process.

There was a huge dark force inside him, he had never known existed. A force that gave him pleasure when he assaulted, beat and forced himself on his slave.

Frank knew he had to change when he would get Gerard back. He needed to safe his boyfriend from more tears and pain, inflicted by his own two hands, from the monster inside him.
But he surely would need help with that. He would suggest seeing a therapist for couples, Gerard could work his problems out he had with Frank, and Frank could carefully tell him about the monster inside him, that now more often than not had gotten the best of him.
Maybe together with a trained and knowing therapist, they could work out all their problems, get back to a happier self, and being a happier couple.

This thought gave Frank a little bit of hope and he carefully carried the tea cups upstairs, heading to his bedroom.

He chose the bedroom because he wouldn’t want Mikey to sit on the same sofa they had just fucked on. Also he had to make sure his almost-brother-in-law wouldn’t run as soon as he was finished showering, and upstairs he wouldn’t have the door in sight.

A couple minutes later the bathroom door was being opened and steamy air wafted into the bedroom where Frank already waited.
"Hey" Frank greeted warmly from the bed he was sitting on with crisscrossed legs, the two cups of steaming hot tea set aside on the bed stand.

"You're really eager to talk.." Mikey's face held an unreadable expression as he slowly walked over and placed himself on the edge of the bed.

Frank didn't miss the quick clenching of Mikey's jaw as he sat down.

"Is, uh... Are you okey?" Frank asked concerned while his eyes darted up and down Mikey's form.

"Huh? Yeah, why?"

"I mean... Down there... Are you hurt? I know I haven't been that gentle for a first time..."

"Oh..." Mikey dropped his head to avoid looking at Frank, who watched him warily, his long fringe covering his heated face.

"I am okey, I guess..." Mikey mumbled, it hurt and he felt sore, but he still wouldn't want to miss the experience either.

It was as if he could still feel Frank inside of him, the force and dominance that came with every push, so deep and rough he thought it was too much too take, but the pain was gone quickly enough, showering him in pleasure until the next thrust hit him.
This mixture of vibrating pleasure and being pushed to one's limits really got him hooked.

Mikey knew though that he would have to forget those thoughts and feelings, the sooner the better.

"Listen Frank...I'm not like... just into guys or something." Mikey swallowed, then licked his lips shortly and looked up again "You know that I'm in a relationship, Janine was the reason for me to move out of Jersey, and I really love her, but sometimes..." Mikey scratched his neck bashfully.

"Sometimes what?" Frank pressed curiously.

Mikey sighed "Sometimes I don't want to be the 'man' in the relationship. You know, always be strong and caring and be the active part and what not..." Mikey covered his eyes shamefully with his hand.

"I don't know, I've always been curious, especially when Gerard came out to our parents..“

Frank hummed understandingly.

"But you may have noticed that Gerard hasn't any contact with them anymore. They just couldn't accept to have a gay son, so they cut all losses and never talked again." Mikey's hand dropped from his face and his long fingers started to play with the frayed end of the blanket he sat on.

"That put me in the spotlight and they were so relieved to have at least one 'normal' child.." Mikey's face scrunched up in a bitter expression.

"I felt the urge to experiment, but I didn't want to disappoint my parents, and I also still lived with them back then, so I never tried anything.“

"Until now." Frank concluded slightly raising his eyebrows, folding his hands in his lap.

"Yeah... I don't know, I think I can only partly blame the alcohol, I kinda... " Mikey twisted the end of the blanket faster and faster between his fingers and a slight hue of red stole itself on his cheeks.

"I... Kinda think you're hot and you're the only gay person I know except for my brother..."

"Wow... Err, thanks Mikes." Frank looked into Mikey's flushed face, scratching his cheek feeling a bit uncomfortable.

"It's not that I want anything from you“ Mikey assured him wide-eyed, wrapping his slender arms around himself as if to seek comfort in this rather awkward situation „I just needed to know… kinda make this experience and I kind of used you for this, I'm sorry dude.“

"Hey don't be- honestly, same with me...It's not like I didn't enjoy myself earlier.“ Frank turned around and fetched one of the mugs, reaching it out to Mikey who took it gladly.

"I know that you imagined that I was Gerard earlier, so I think we're even." Mikey took a sip of his sightly cooled off tea, still it was hot enough to burn his tongue. Grimacing he swallowed the hot beverage to not mess up Frank’s bed…

"Yeah, I really miss your brother. Gerard, he…he’s my whole world, and I should really treat him better but now I failed him again and I feel like total shit for what we’ve done.“ Frank lowered his gaze and stared into the smooth surface of his tea, which mirrored his pale and gloomy looking face.

„I know…“ Mikey muttered. „I know this was selfish and utter shit, and the timing couldn’t have been worse, but-“

Frank interrupted him with furrowed brows. „There’s never a good timing for cheating, because normally you shouldn't do that at all. I know how betrayed I felt when I found out about your brother’s activities… I felt worthless and devastated, but I know I wouldn’t have felt the same, if he just had confessed his mistake. And honestly, I’m gonna tell him when we find him!“

„What? Are you kidding me?! You can’t tell him!“ Mikey couldn’t believe his ears, there was no chance that Gerard could ever find out about this evening with Frank!

„He is my brother for god’s sake! Don’t you think he’ll be stressed out enough for a whole life time when we get him back? We don’t need to worry him with something like that!“
The pure imagination of Gerard’s disappointed and hurt look, when he would hear the news, was too much for Mikey already.

„I’m not gonna make the same mistake as him! If I already have to cheat I can at least admit my fault, be the better man.“ Frank gripped the cup’s handle harder than necessary, droplets of tea spilled from it and onto his sweatpants slightly burning the skin beneath.

„Do you even hear what you say? Is this all about winning or getting your revenge for what he did? If so, I’m pretty disgusted by you.“ Mikey eyed up Frank angrily.

„No it’s not“ Frank shot back defensively, „but I won’t lie about this, that’s all I’m gonna say.“ Frank put his cup away and crossed his arms before his chest, starring intently at Mikey, who felt himself shudder at the stern look.

After a second he caught himself „Gerard will never forgive me, that’s something that would always stand between us, please Frank, don’t be like that. What can I say or do to change your mind?“ Mikey was pleading now, this was just too damn important to be cast away easily. By now he regretted his mistake bitterly.

„What can you do for me!?“ Frank narrowed his eyes at Mikey’s words, „What do you think that I am Mikey? A fucking blackmailer? Is it that what you think?“

„No, I…I didn’t mean it like that… but I can’t have that coming out you know- maybe if Gerard knows, he’ll tell Janine and that would definitely end my relationship.“ Mikey started to bite his nails, his eyes were swimming, he just figured that this one mistake had the potential to change his life forever…

„Seems like stakes are high for you…“ Frank’s eyes were still evil, and he must have noticed himself, because he shook his head shortly, shaking his nasty side off again.

„Yeah… That’s true. Please, just don’t take advantage of that, I mean, we’re friends, right Frank?“ Mikey seemed pretty devastated by now. Frank wouldn’t act upon it though, even if the monster inside him had made plans already. Tempting plans he had to admit.

Frank loosened his arms and reached out for his tea again, he sighed „Well, okey I’m gonna be silent as a grave but I have some conditions.“ Frank took a sip and watched the other male in front of him warily.

„Err..okey? Spit it out then.“ Mikey watched him with sad, glassy eyes, he seemed to fear the worst.

„You’ll sleep in bed with me every night until we find Gerard. Just sleeping, nothing else of course.“

„… No.“

„Well then no deal, Mikes.“

„Uh- come on! What should that be good for?!“

„I just like company.“

„Oh yeah? Any company or only those kind that looks alike to my dear brother?! What else Frank, would you like me wearing the same clothes and smelling the same as well, just like tonight?!“

„Well if you suggest that I wouldn’t decline…“ Frank smirked longingly.

„You’re sick! Do you even want to find Gerard or just replace him?!“ Mikey had jumped to his feet, clenching his fist, he couldn’t believe how this thing between them had changed so fast. Frank had the upper hand now, and he didn’t like that at all.

„Let’s calm down a bit, shall we? Sit down again“ Frank ordered and motioned with his head for Mikey to sit down again. As Mikey didn’t make a move to follow his order and just kept staring furiously, Frank stood up as well.

„I don’t want to replace Gee, I want to find him, and if you have noticed or not, I’m really suffering from all this as well, I’m in constant fear for his life and I need some distraction for god’s sake! All I ask you for is to sleep a couple nights in my bed. It’s not like you haven’t jumped me only an hour ago, urging me to fuck you good, so don’t play all resentful, because that would be just a little out of place don’t you think so!?“

Frank hadn’t touched Mikey or moved in his direction, despite that the tall figure seemed to shrink down before Frank’s eyes, and his cheeks were as red as if Frank had slapped him several times.

Mikey broke the eye contact guiltily and nodded to show that he agreed with Frank’s conditions and wouldn’t object anymore about that matter.

„Good. Then get yourself ready, I want to sleep now.“ Frank grumbled, even though he could barely hide his satisfied smile as he chugged down the rest of his tea, stripped his sweatshirt and pants off, so he was left with his boxer shorts and plopped down onto his bed. He scrambled underneath the covers and scooted to the side to make room for another body.

Mikey was watching the dominant male bashfully from the spot he seemed to be rooted too. Slowly he stripped off the borrowed sweatshirt from Gerard and his brother’s sweatpants until he was as well, only dressed in his underwear.

„Switch the lights off please.“ Frank spoke and rolled over.

Mikey went and switched off the lights, making his way carefully back to the bed, after all he couldn’t see a thing in the now pitch black bedroom.
A bit scared he sat down, placed his glasses on the bed stand then laid down fully on the cool sheets and felt for the blanket. His slightly shivering hand found Frank’s naked back and he jerked away from it as if he had received an electric shock.

Mikey heard Frank’s dark chuckle in the silence and he kind of hated the other man for laughing at him and forcing him to do this.
Angrily Mikey turned around as well, leaving enough space between the two of them so another awkward touching wouldn’t happen again.
It was a shame how much your life could change in only 24 hours, he thought and closed his tired eyes.

Notes

hey everyone!

I'm so sorry I didn't update sooner! Mainly I was just stressed out with other things going on in my life, but partly it had to do with doubt in my english skills... I read a really good fanfiction lately, from someone who's from Berlin as well. I don't know if this person is a native speaker or studies english or what, but it was just so well written and I know that I have probably a lot of mistakes in my chapters and I don't know..I felt stupid somehow :D
And second, it was a bit hard to bring something good in the story so fast, because I don't want it to seem unrealistic as well. But I have already figured something out!

This is the first part of a long chapter I had to split and which I will post the next part tomorrow. After all not much good has happened here I think it's important though that Mikey and Frank have talked about everything!

I hope you are doing fine and everyone's having a great weekend! <3