Whatever It Takes
My Guardian Angel
"You must be so disappointed that you couldn't have fun with your sweet lover" he claimed totally straight faced.
"Frank I didn't want to have sex with-"
"Maybe you could put up with my humble self then" he pushed his chair back and came straight for me.
I tried to back away from him, but he already grabbed me at my hoodie, pulling me in his direction.
"Frank!" I yelped "You don't want to do this, just calm down", I tried to struggle out of my hoodie and let it be pulled over my head by him. That was a mistake, for as the hoodie got stuck at my arms and I practically tied myself up, so Frank could hold them in place easily.
"Come on Gee, just pretend I'm him, this will sure get your engines started." And with this he grabbed my hair with the other hand, which wasn't occupied with holding my arms in place, and dragged me to the living room.
"Frank you can't do this to me! I don't deserve being treated like this! Stop it!" I cried out in fear, as he shoved me to the living room carpet.
"Oh dear, this is exactly what you deserve, and as your master I decide what fits you..." I saw him pulling off his shirt, while his whole weight rested on my lower back, I grimaced as he sat on top of the welts.
"Get off me!!", I started to trash around beneath him, trying to kick him or squirm away, but it was hopeless.
"Shut up, bitch!" He shoved his t-shirt in my mouth, to silence me.
"Neeeeuuuhh! I screamed into the shirt, tears streaming down my cheeks again, soaking the fabric.
"I hope this will teach you to keep some distance between this bastard and you, my love..." he sneered and got off me, then flipped me around harshly so I was laying on my back. He fumbled with the buckle of my belt while his other hand was pinning me to the floor forcefully. I was still trying my best to get away, but once again I was in an inferior position and cursed myself for not putting more effort in growing some muscle...but who'd have thought I'd needed them to defend myself from such attacks?!
He yanked my pants and boxers down, leaving my pale body exposed and shivering beneath him. I figured it would be now or never, and in one last desperate attempt to free myself I lifted my right foot and kicked him straight in the face.
It wasn't that hard but it smacked him down on his back and left me a few seconds to free my hands and pull the shirt out of my mouth.
"So we like to play a bit obviously", Frank growled as he sat up again, wiping his bloody nose.
"You are just so fucking stupid Gerard- now it will be even worse for you..", he came to his feet and looked so mad. "What could be worse than being raped, you sicko!" I yelled at him, my face tear stained and miserable, trying to get up again.
*Dingdong*
Suddenly the doorbell was rung and both of us jumped at the sudden disturbance. Frank threw an angry look at me, I was still cowering on the floor partially naked, "Who is this!?", he kind of whisper-screamed in my direction. "I don't know, I didn't invite anybody..." I whispered back, a puzzled expression on my still shocked face. I swallowed hard and prayed to god it wouldn't be William who wanted to check if I was still alive or something.
There was another ringing and Frank hissed at me to put my pants back on and shut the fuck up, while he quickly pulled a very crumpled handkerchief out of his jeans to wipe most of the blood away and opened the door.
From all the people I know, this was the last one I would've expected. Especially that late in the evening and unannounced. There must be a guardian angel watching above me, because right now there was no other than Mikey Way himself on my doorstep.
"Frank, bro!! Come here!" he exclaimed happily and threw himself at a rather surprised Frank, who didn't really know what was happening to him. "Mikey?" Frank eyed up the fragile looking male, dressed in all black with suiting black-rimmed glasses." What are you doin' here man?" he smiled nervously at the younger Way brother while darting a quick look at me. Luckily I managed to put my pants back on by now and struggled to my feet. Mikey followed Frank's gaze and smiled even more as he discovered me, awkwardly standing in the back of the living room.
"Hey Mikes! I forced a smile on my face and stepped over to hug him. I was so glad to see him, he had really saved me from worse, but at this moment I felt so emotionally drained and there wasn't much happiness left inside me, so this forced smile was all I could do for now.
"Did I... kind of break in on something between you two? You're both so quiet, I thought you'd be a bit happier to see me." Mikey looked a little bashful and disappointed.
"No dude, we're really happy to see you, we just... didn't expect you to show up today I guess?" Frank answered for me, which I was glad about, so I wouldn't have to lie to my baby brother.
"Let's get you something to drink Mikes" I grabbed him at his sleeve and dragged him into the kitchen. "Ok I'll be right there with you guys, I just need something from upstairs.." Frank ended less than convincing. "There's no rush, just take your time...'babe'..." I managed to choke out while closing the door to the kitchen behind us.
"Gee, is there something wr-" but I didn't let him finish his sentence, I threw myself into his arms as soon as I heard the door close. "Oh god Mikey, you just...you don't know how good it is to see you here...you saved me..." I squeezed my eyes shut and buried my face in his shoulder. I felt my body tremble and gripped even harder on Mikey's small form.
"Hey hey...what's going on Gee? You really worry me!" he spoke in a concerned voice while rubbing soothing circles on my back.
"Did you and Frank have a fight or what?"
"You could say that", I sniffed, "It's been a really tough time lately to be honest. I missed you so much, but I didn't want to bother you, with your new girlfriend and everything going on..." I ended and released him from my embrace.
"Gee, just because I'm in a relationship doesn't mean there's no time for you! Don't ever think such things! If you need me just call, you know we're always there for each other. So just tell me what's happend?"
I turned around to get two glasses out of the kitchen cabinet and poured some coke for both of us. We sat down at the bench, which instantly hit me with some unpleasant memories from just minutes ago, when Frank had trapped me there.
"So..?" Mikey asked encouragingly, while patting my arm.
I took a deep breath and looked him in the eyes.
I'm Frank's slave...he just tried to rape me, he had beat the shit out of me, he tied me up, he makes me wear this fucking dog collar, I cheated on him, he's probably a bit mental with his jealousy, sometimes I'm really really scared of him.
All this came to my mind while our eyes met, but I couldn't tell him. If I told him there was no going back at all, because Mikey would protect me, he would not want me to be stuck in an abusive relationship. All that meant I would never see Frank again. And I didn't want that to happen. I wanted this to be my own decision, for better or worse.
I decided to tell him a white lie, to tell him about me cheating with William but not about the consequences for me, so Mikey would get that there's something wrong, but don't ask further questions.
"I cheated on Frank, a few days ago, and as you can imagine things are not going so well between us now."
"Frank I didn't want to have sex with-"
"Maybe you could put up with my humble self then" he pushed his chair back and came straight for me.
I tried to back away from him, but he already grabbed me at my hoodie, pulling me in his direction.
"Frank!" I yelped "You don't want to do this, just calm down", I tried to struggle out of my hoodie and let it be pulled over my head by him. That was a mistake, for as the hoodie got stuck at my arms and I practically tied myself up, so Frank could hold them in place easily.
"Come on Gee, just pretend I'm him, this will sure get your engines started." And with this he grabbed my hair with the other hand, which wasn't occupied with holding my arms in place, and dragged me to the living room.
"Frank you can't do this to me! I don't deserve being treated like this! Stop it!" I cried out in fear, as he shoved me to the living room carpet.
"Oh dear, this is exactly what you deserve, and as your master I decide what fits you..." I saw him pulling off his shirt, while his whole weight rested on my lower back, I grimaced as he sat on top of the welts.
"Get off me!!", I started to trash around beneath him, trying to kick him or squirm away, but it was hopeless.
"Shut up, bitch!" He shoved his t-shirt in my mouth, to silence me.
"Neeeeuuuhh! I screamed into the shirt, tears streaming down my cheeks again, soaking the fabric.
"I hope this will teach you to keep some distance between this bastard and you, my love..." he sneered and got off me, then flipped me around harshly so I was laying on my back. He fumbled with the buckle of my belt while his other hand was pinning me to the floor forcefully. I was still trying my best to get away, but once again I was in an inferior position and cursed myself for not putting more effort in growing some muscle...but who'd have thought I'd needed them to defend myself from such attacks?!
He yanked my pants and boxers down, leaving my pale body exposed and shivering beneath him. I figured it would be now or never, and in one last desperate attempt to free myself I lifted my right foot and kicked him straight in the face.
It wasn't that hard but it smacked him down on his back and left me a few seconds to free my hands and pull the shirt out of my mouth.
"So we like to play a bit obviously", Frank growled as he sat up again, wiping his bloody nose.
"You are just so fucking stupid Gerard- now it will be even worse for you..", he came to his feet and looked so mad. "What could be worse than being raped, you sicko!" I yelled at him, my face tear stained and miserable, trying to get up again.
*Dingdong*
Suddenly the doorbell was rung and both of us jumped at the sudden disturbance. Frank threw an angry look at me, I was still cowering on the floor partially naked, "Who is this!?", he kind of whisper-screamed in my direction. "I don't know, I didn't invite anybody..." I whispered back, a puzzled expression on my still shocked face. I swallowed hard and prayed to god it wouldn't be William who wanted to check if I was still alive or something.
There was another ringing and Frank hissed at me to put my pants back on and shut the fuck up, while he quickly pulled a very crumpled handkerchief out of his jeans to wipe most of the blood away and opened the door.
From all the people I know, this was the last one I would've expected. Especially that late in the evening and unannounced. There must be a guardian angel watching above me, because right now there was no other than Mikey Way himself on my doorstep.
"Frank, bro!! Come here!" he exclaimed happily and threw himself at a rather surprised Frank, who didn't really know what was happening to him. "Mikey?" Frank eyed up the fragile looking male, dressed in all black with suiting black-rimmed glasses." What are you doin' here man?" he smiled nervously at the younger Way brother while darting a quick look at me. Luckily I managed to put my pants back on by now and struggled to my feet. Mikey followed Frank's gaze and smiled even more as he discovered me, awkwardly standing in the back of the living room.
"Hey Mikes! I forced a smile on my face and stepped over to hug him. I was so glad to see him, he had really saved me from worse, but at this moment I felt so emotionally drained and there wasn't much happiness left inside me, so this forced smile was all I could do for now.
"Did I... kind of break in on something between you two? You're both so quiet, I thought you'd be a bit happier to see me." Mikey looked a little bashful and disappointed.
"No dude, we're really happy to see you, we just... didn't expect you to show up today I guess?" Frank answered for me, which I was glad about, so I wouldn't have to lie to my baby brother.
"Let's get you something to drink Mikes" I grabbed him at his sleeve and dragged him into the kitchen. "Ok I'll be right there with you guys, I just need something from upstairs.." Frank ended less than convincing. "There's no rush, just take your time...'babe'..." I managed to choke out while closing the door to the kitchen behind us.
"Gee, is there something wr-" but I didn't let him finish his sentence, I threw myself into his arms as soon as I heard the door close. "Oh god Mikey, you just...you don't know how good it is to see you here...you saved me..." I squeezed my eyes shut and buried my face in his shoulder. I felt my body tremble and gripped even harder on Mikey's small form.
"Hey hey...what's going on Gee? You really worry me!" he spoke in a concerned voice while rubbing soothing circles on my back.
"Did you and Frank have a fight or what?"
"You could say that", I sniffed, "It's been a really tough time lately to be honest. I missed you so much, but I didn't want to bother you, with your new girlfriend and everything going on..." I ended and released him from my embrace.
"Gee, just because I'm in a relationship doesn't mean there's no time for you! Don't ever think such things! If you need me just call, you know we're always there for each other. So just tell me what's happend?"
I turned around to get two glasses out of the kitchen cabinet and poured some coke for both of us. We sat down at the bench, which instantly hit me with some unpleasant memories from just minutes ago, when Frank had trapped me there.
"So..?" Mikey asked encouragingly, while patting my arm.
I took a deep breath and looked him in the eyes.
I'm Frank's slave...he just tried to rape me, he had beat the shit out of me, he tied me up, he makes me wear this fucking dog collar, I cheated on him, he's probably a bit mental with his jealousy, sometimes I'm really really scared of him.
All this came to my mind while our eyes met, but I couldn't tell him. If I told him there was no going back at all, because Mikey would protect me, he would not want me to be stuck in an abusive relationship. All that meant I would never see Frank again. And I didn't want that to happen. I wanted this to be my own decision, for better or worse.
I decided to tell him a white lie, to tell him about me cheating with William but not about the consequences for me, so Mikey would get that there's something wrong, but don't ask further questions.
"I cheated on Frank, a few days ago, and as you can imagine things are not going so well between us now."
Notes
OK guys, right now I'm really struggling with the writing. My English sucks BALLS today and I'm sure there are a lot of mistakes in it. I will leave this short chapter for now, but update a bit sooner than Thursday!
Thank you for reading and commenting, it's really good to have some feedback :) <3
@Gee'sCLUELESSgirl!
Hey, thanks a lot for reading :D Yepp that's true, anything needs to end at a certain point. Haha I know, it's a pretty fucked up relationship to be honest, well I hope you'll like the end though :* I'll give my best! <3
@Originality-At-Its-Finest
Hi there! Thanks for reading and leaving your opinion on this! Yeah it could get to a critical point with this secret between Mikey and Frank, that's for sure. I hope you'll like my ending though. :)
I'm fine actually, bit of stress at the moment, but that's okey. Hope you're good as well! <3
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