We are the Broken

Gerard's pov

I woke up to Frank humming softly and playing with my hair, his chest vibrating under me peacefully. "I think in going to dye my hair." I said softy, Frank nodded his head still humming and playing with my hair. "What color?" He asked, I shrugged. "Blond or black." I said sitting up and smiled down at him. "You would look hot with either one." He grinned pulling me down and kissing me. "Yellow or orange would look cool too." He said running his hand through my hair, I nodded and thought about it. "Black cut a little short with bangs." I said making my mind up. "I definitely couldn't keep my hands off of you. Maybe I'll cut my hair and dye the sides white and start wearing red eyeliner. We would look so bad ass." He said getting excited, I nodded getting up. "Do you wanna go out to breakfast and then get out hair done?" Frank asked walking over to his closet and getting two pairs of black skinny jeans and two hoodies. I put the cloths on, the pants were a little to tight in some places but it wasn't uncomfortable. Frank whispered at me as I pulled the hoodie on laughing. We went into town and got Starbucks and we went to a diner on the corner. Frank and I sat on the same side of the booth, the waiter raised an eyebrow at us but didn't say anything. I got waffles and Frank got French toast, we slit them, payed and then made our way to the hair dresser. "Oh my Gerard is that you?!" Sarah said running over and giving me a hug, I smiled warmly at her, she was my favorite hair dresser and she's done my hair more times than I can count. "Oh hun who is this handsome younge man." Sarah said turning to Frank. "This is Frank my boyfriend." I said, Sarah smiled widely and pulled Frank into a bear hug, for how tiny she was she could sqeeze the love out of you. "Oh my gosh Gerard you got a keeper, so what can you do for you?" She asked letting go of Frank who looked thankful she let go. "We're getting our hair cut and dyed." Frank chimed in, Sarah nodded and led us a to two chairs. "Jack get in here, Gerard's here!" Sarah called, a few minutes later Jack came running out. "Gerard it's been ages!" Jack said giving me a hug. "Yeah, I've been meaning to get my hair done, I'm like a hair and jacket slut." I laughed, everyone bursted into laughter. "Oh my god that's the best thing I've ever heard!" Frank laughed sitting in the chair next to me. "So what will it be?" Sarah asked, Jack was already working on Frank's hair. "A trim with long bangs and black." I said, she nodded and got the hair dye out, about a half an hour later my hair was cut and she was putting the hair dye in. "What do you think?" Frank asked, his sides were cut really short and were a whitish and his bangs were really long (revenge era) "Amazing!" I said excitedly, mine was almost done. Sarah rinsed my hair and dryed it, it looked pretty kick ass. "Thanks you guys." I said hugging Sarah and Jack, Frank gave them hugs too. "Come back when you need anything boys." Sarah called as we walked out, man I loved those guys. "Do you honestly like my hair cut? I thought I went a little overboard with the white sides." Frank laughed looking at me nervously, I kissed him. "I'll take that as in you like it." He smiled widely and took my hand as we walked down the street, we got another Starbucks coffee and walked around some stores. "Oh my fucking God, look at this puppy!" Frank said taking my hand and running to a pet store with puppies in the window. "Their so cute!" Frank said, he looked like a little kid freaking out over the puppies. We walked into the store and looked at the puppies, there was two of them in one big clear box, they were all white golden retrievers. "Can I help you?" An older woman said waking over to us, Frank didn't look away from the puppies. "Would you like to hold one?" The woman asked, Frank nodded his head happily, the woman leaned over and gave him one. "Hey buddy." Frank said holding the puppy up to his face, it whined and licked his nose. "They are all for sale, the owner didn't want them so left them here." The woman said sadly picking up another puppy and handed it to me, it had one green eye and one blue eye. "Gee, can we get them." Frank said hugging the puppy he was holding, it nibbled his finger playfully. "I don't see why not." I said laughing as the puppy I was holding licked my face, Frank kissed me happily. "I'm happy that they found good homes, they've been here for about a week now, my name is Holly." The woman said looking lovingly at the puppies that me and Frank were holding. "I'm Frank and this is Gerard." Frank said watching the puppy bite his fingers, mine was licking my cheek and wouldn't stop. Frank walked over to the dog section and we picked out dog beds, collars, leashes, bowls, and a lot of dog toys. "Our first pets together." Frank laughed as we walked down the street carrying our puppies. "Yeah, this little guy has awesome eyes. What should we name them." I asked as Frank looked at the puppies. "Josh and Tyler?" He said, I nodded, all of his dogs names are pretty cool. "Tyler and Josh it is, puppies are like children so technically these are our children, we're parents!" I said, Frank laughed and nodded in agreement. "We're gonna be cool ass parents, so your the mom right?" Frank asked kissing me, I laughed and shrugged. "I guess, I love being bottom anyway." I said, we got in the car, I had to hold Tyler and Josh as Frank drove. The dogs greeted us at the door, Sabation almost nocked me over to get the puppies. "Sit!" Frank said forcefully, all the dogs sat looking up at him happily. "They are part of the family now so be nice." Frank said setting the puppies on the ground, Tyler and Josh ran over to the other dogs happily and greeted them. "Okay, you guys can move now." Frank said snapping his fingers, all the dogs got up and played with the puppies. "I'm so happy we got them, their so adorable." I said kissing Frank's cheek, he nodded. "Your such a tease." He laughed pulling me down for a kiss, his hand running through my hair, he walked backwards to his room still kissing me. We fell into bed still kissing I landed on top, his hips move to meet me. "Blowjob?" I asked mischievously kissing his neck. "Yes please." He moaned softly as I gave him multiple hickies that couldn't be covered. I slid down so I was between his legs and took his pants off. I leaned forward and took him in my mouth, he moaned loudly bucking his hips up. "Fuck babe." He said panting heavily, he was really turned on. "Frank?" His mom called from down stairs, Frank groaned and slowly got up, he looked down at me and then at the door. "Yeah mom hold on." He called sliding his pants on trying to hide his boner. "We're not done yet babe." He said kissing me, he took my hand and walked to the kitchen. "Oh my you both got your hair done, I like it. So uh you got two dogs." His mom said pointing at Tyler and Josh who were eating out of Skylers bowl. "Yeah, they're mine and Gerard's." Frank said picking them both up and hugged them, they attached his face with kisses. "They are the cutes dogs I have ever seen." His mom said smiling down on them lovingly. "I have to go, you boys have fun and make sure those dogs don't get into the trash." His mom said and left, Frank sighed in relief and kissed me again. "Finally." He breathed tugging me to back to his bedroom. I sank to my knees again and took his pants off taking him back in my mouth. "Fuck babe." He moaned tugging my hair, I sucked gently and his hips snapped up. "Oh my god I'm gonna come babe." He moaned again, moment later he came, I struggled to swallow all of it. He looked down at me and smiled widely, cum was dripping down my chin. "How did I get so lucky?" He whispered more to himself than to me, I grinned at him and whipped my chin with my sleeve. He held picked me up and set me in his lap nuzzling me neck, I giggled and wrapped my arms around his neck. We heard whining at the door, I sighed and got up opening the door, Tyler and Josh ran in. "Hey fluffy bears." Frank said getting in the ground as the puppies flopped in his lap. "Wait which one is which?" He asked looking at the dogs one at a time. "Tyler has the blue and green eye, Josh has the brown eyes." I said sitting next to Frank, Tyler jumped into my lap attaching my hand in nibbles. Frank kissed Josh's head multiple times. "That was like ten kisses on the head." He said in a high pitched voice snuggling Josh. I looked over at the clock, it was only five. "Dinner?" I asked getting up still holding Tyler, Frank nodded getting up still with Josh. "Well we can't leave them here, I know this café that's dog friendly." Frank said getting his hoodie on awkwardly with Josh in one arm, I laughed and walked down stairs getting the the leaches. We made our way back into town, the café that Frank was taking about was really cool, we got seated outside. "Oh my gosh there're adorable!" The waiter said, he was wearing pants that were way to tight and a button down shirt. "Oh my gosh, what are their names?" He asked me, standing a little to close. "Josh and Tyler." I said, the waiter was paying way to much attention to me now. "I've never seen ya here before, ya live around here?" He asked leaning against the table, Frank watched him not saying anything. "First time here, I've lived here all my life." I said scooting over a little to put more distance between us. "I think I've see ya around, I'm Chris by the way." He said winking at me, I acted like he didn't do that. "So what can I get ya?" He asked flipping his note pad out. "I don't know, Frank what are you getting?" I asked looking at Frank. "Greek salad with a veggie burger, you'll love it." He said smiling at me. "Coming right up boys." Chris said walking away making a very big effort to sway his hips as he walked away. "Well that was awkward." Frank said laughing, I nodded in agreement. "Well I wouldn't blame him for flirting with you, your hot as fuck." Frank said leaning over and kissing me, I blushed and kissed him back. "Here ya go, I never got your name." Chris said putting our plates in front of us and looked at me smiling. "Gerard." I said, he nodded and looked at Frank. "Hi." Frank said smiling at Chris widely, oh god I know that look, the look that said 'I'm gonna mess with you' look. "Hey, what's your name?" Chris asked smiling widely at Frank, I was very interested to see where this would go. "I'm Frank, you've already met my boyfriend Gerard and our dogs." Frank smiled at my lovingly and then looked at Chris. "Yeah, tell me if you need anything else." Chris said hurrying away. "And that's how you get rid of annoying, desperate ass guys." Frank said taking bite out of his burger, I smiled. "Thanks." I said kissing his cheek, we ate our food, got tons of people telling us how cute the dogs were, and overall had a great time. "Heyyyy you guys! I know you!" I girl who was definitely drunk called to us as we walked to the car. "Yeah! I know you guys, your Jerard and your Fran." The girl said pointing at me then Frank. "Nope that's not our names Hun, your a little drunk." Frank laughed leading the girl to a bench and made her sit. "No I'm not, I'm really tired though. May get your fat ass over here! I want to leave." The girl yelled, another girl who wasn't drunk got her friend, thanked us and then left practically dragging her drunk friend. "Some people, she could have got kidnapped or something." Frank said getting into the car, we drove home, Frank was holding my hand the whole time. We walked in to the house I put the puppies down and went to go take my hoodie off when Frank smashed his lips into mine. He pushed me against the wall as we kissed, I melted into his tough. "I want you so badly babe." He said against my mouth, I nodded and he pulled me on to the couch still kissing me. I could feel his boner against my leg as we kissed, my pants were getting way to tight. I was in the heat of the moment and ripped his shirt off, I literally teared it in half. "That's so hot." Frank grinned at me and pulled my shirt off then our pants. "Your wouldn't be able to walk after this." He said kissing my neck. "Then your gonna have to carry me around all day." I laughed slapping his ass playfully. "I don't have a problem with that." He grinned thrusting into me roughly, I let out a gasp is pleasure and pain. The pain ended after a while and was replaced by pure pleasure, I digged my nails into his back every thrust. "Fuck babe, you noises are so hot." He said thrusting faster, I moaned loudly as another wave of pleasure went through me. We both came at the same time, we collapsed panting heavily in each other's arms. "That was amazing." I whispered tracing patterns on his chest, he nodded and kissed my head. After laying there for an hour I sat up, pain shot through me. "Oh go my ass." I said moving to get comfortable but failed. "Told you." Frank laughed picking me up and carried me to his room setting me on the bed gently. "America Horror Story?" Frank asked going over to his tv and putting in a disc. "Yes please, and my onesie." I said, Frank got my onesie for me and helped my put it on then out his on. He sat on the bed and pulled me into his lap so I was sitting up leaning against him. He would kiss my head every minute or my cheek. After we watched the third episode I yawned and snuggled into his chest trying to keep my eyes open. Half way through the episode I did that thing were you fall asleep but you feel like your falling so I jumped. Frank laughed softly and kissed my head. "I hate when that happens." I mumbled trying to stay awake again but failed, I fell asleep during the fourth episode.
I woke up it was still dark, I could hear Frank softly snoring. After a while opened my eyes and liked at the clock it was four in the morning. All of the dogs were in their beds sleeping the puppies were laying next to us on the bed, Frank must have put them up here. Tyler laying on too of Josh as they slept peacefully. I sat up slowly, the pain wasn't that bad anymore, scooted off the bed and walked the the bathroom. I looked in the mirror and groaned, I liked like shit, I had dark circles unde my eyes, I was extremely pale, and I looked really fat. "Your a failure, nothing, weak, insecure little fag." I muttered to my self, I felt like I was going to throw up, I ran over to the toilet and sure enough my dinner came up. After throwing up and cleaning my mouth out with water I looked up at my self again, I looked even worse. 'Your nothing, Frank only feels bad for you that's the only reason why he's with you.' I thought looking at my self, every fault I had, every thing I hated about my self slammed into me. I looked down at my wrists, my scars were still visible from the last time I cut. I wanted to add more, let the blood run freely, never letting it end. I found a box of razors and held the blade up to my arm. I cut deep letting the blade trace over my scars. The pain was numbing as I cut more, the red consumed me as it dripped in to the sink. 'Like thread to knife my skin is cut, watching the red stream of sorrow drip into the pit of nothingness.' I though watching the blood drip down my arm, the cuts weren't deep so they stopped bleeding after a while. I cleaned the blood up and pulled my sleeves down, Frank was still asleep, he looked so beautiful. 'The beautiful is shown when you close your eyes and see things for what they really are. In a clouded mine there is only darkness, no light, no beauty, nothing.' I thought running a hand lightly through his hair, he sighed and roled over. I laid down next to him and watched his chest rise and fall slowly. I felt sad and lonely in that moment, I started to cry softly into my arms. "Gee?" Frank asked sitting up right way when he heard my crying. "What's wrong?" He asked rubbing my back, I shrunk away from his touch and he pulled away. "Gee what's wrong?" He asked again turning the light on. "I want to...to die." I whispered rubbing my eyes, Frank looked at my extremely sad. "I don't want to hold you back, you should just leave me, I'm a terrible person." I said looking down so my bangs covered most of my face. "Your not a terrible person Gerard, I'm never going to leave you because I love you. Why are you actor this way Gee?" He said tilting my head up so I had to look at him, my heart literally hurt from how sad he looked. "I want to die, I want you to be happy not stuck with a freak who wants to kill themselves. Would rather be dead than see you unhappy." I said wiping my face again, my sleeve came up and Frank grabbed my hand. I didn't stop him when he rolled my sleeve up and looked at my cuts, then he looked at my other arm full of fresh cuts. "When did you do this?" He asked quitly, he wasn't angry or sad, he looked at me like when he would say I love you and I work say it back. "A half an hour ago." I said, he nodded and gently kissed my cuts, his lips barely touching then. "Gerard Aurther Way, I love you more that anything, I never believed in true love before I met you. The sun can go fuck itself as far as I'm concerned because the earth revolves around you. I love you Gerard and I will never stop loving you no matter what." Frank said looking at me seriously, I nodded, I didn't know what to say so I just hugged him tightly and he hugged me back with the same force. "I'm never letting go of you Gerard, never." He whispered running a hand through my hair. "I'm bleeding." I said sitting up, one of my cuts reopened, Frank got up, ran to the bathroom and brought back a washcloth, bandages, and cleaning alcohol. He put some of the the alcohol and dabbed it on the cut, it didn't hurt but it felt itchy, then he wrapped my arm in the bandages. "Thanks." I said weakly, my throat hurt from crying earlier and throwing up. "Gerard?" Frank asked, I looked up at him giving a weak smile. "I love you." He said not waiting for a response as he hugged me again as laid down with my on his chest. "I love you too." I said softly, I could feel his body relax under mine, and he kissed my head. "Fuck school." Frank said looking at the clock, it was six now, he wrapped his arms around me. "Cause I'm just a teenage dirt bag babe." Frank said, I laughed, that song was one of my favorites. "Listen to Iron Maiden babe with me?" I said, he laughed and kissed my head. "His name is Gerard, I had a dream about him. He rings my bell, I have gym class in half an hour." He sang, I laughed and leaned up kissing him, he smiled at me lovingly. I yawned and cuddled in bringing the blanket up to me chin. "Night babe." He said softy rubbing my head, it felt really good, he hummed softly, I fell asleep in no time.

Notes

Hey guys, sorry for not taking to you guys in a while. I hope you like my fanfics so far, sorry for the depressing part at the end, but hey there was cute ass puppies. Thank you all go the support <3