We are the Broken

Gerard's pov


"Sweetheart wake up." Frank said shaking me gently, I shook my head bearing my face into his chest. "Come on Gee wake up sleepy head." He said kissing my head, it was way to bright in here. "No. To cozy." I giggled wrapping my arms around his neck. Frank laughed and picked me up, I wrapped my legs around his waist but didn't open my eyes, to bright. He set my down on the counter and tuned the shower on, I could hear him take his clothes off. "Do I have to give you a shower." He asked kissingmy nose, I nodded and he took my cloths off, I still didn't open my eyes, why was it so god damn bright. "You look so cute when your tired, and how you don't open your eyes because it's to bright." He kissed me softly and stepped into the shower with me in his arms. It was darker in there is decided to open my eyes, Frank was staring at my happily up and down. Why did I agree to this, I felt so self conscious and uncomfortable I shifter awkwardly and wrapped my arms around my chest. "Beautiful." Frank breathed running his hand through my soaked hair, I leaned into his tough but still felt uncomfortable. "Your so perfect Gee, stop trying to hide your beauty." Frank said taking both of my hands and placing them in his hips, and he held on to my waist smiling at me. I leaned forward and kissed him, he pressed me against the wall as the water ran over us. I let my head role back as he kissed my neck, I was definitely awake now. After our shower he pick me up and carried me to the bed and set me down and got on top of me. I looked up at him biting my lip, his breath hitched, our lips crashed together. "God I don't want to go to school, I just want to fuck you all day." He moaned kissing my neck again, I blushed really hard and giggled. He got up after giving me more hickies and handed me a pair of his skinny jeans. I looked at him questionable but put them on, they were a little to tight but I wasn't complaining. "Your ass looks amazing in those pants, oh my god and your thighs, your catnip to the guys, I'm gonna chase your tail all day." Frank laughed slapping my butt playfully and then getting his pants on, I couldn't help but stare at his ass. "If you keep looking at me like that babe I'm seriously gonna lose it in front of everyone. I might actually rip your clothes off and fuck you right there." He said looking at me darkly, I grinned and put my shirt on. "I'm being serious, God your ass and thighs look amazing." Frank said still looking at me darkly, I jumped into his arms and wrapped my legs around his waist. "I want you to do that." I said bearing my face into his neck, he moaned loudly and grinded up against me. "Ugh we have to go." Frank groaned and set me down I pouted but didn't complain. The bus ride was nice, I leaned against Frank as we listened to music together, he would kiss the top of my head seriously every three minutes. He wrapped his arm around my waist as we walked down the hallway sometimes he'd slapping my butt. Everyone was watching us but didn't make any remarks about us which was nice. School wasn't unbearable with Frank there, he make me laugh multiple times and he couldn't keep his hands off of my ass, I didn't mine at all. The bell rang, finally last hour then we could go home. Our seats were I the back corner so no one could really see us. Frank ran his hand up and down my thigh and it was tuning my on a lot. "Frankie can you stop? I don't really want a boner right now." I whispered to him, he stopped and wrapped his arm around my waist. "Sorry, I can't stop toughing you." He said grinning, I nodded and held back a laugh. My pencil roled off the table and roled to the wall, well shit, I got up and picked it up. Frank was watching my hungrily. I sat down and realize he had a boner. "Fuck Gee when you bent over I couldn't help but look at your cute little ass." Frank whispered trailing his hand up my thigh. The last bell rang, me and Frank ran to the back room and locked the door, he was on me in seconds. He ripped our clothes off and pushed into me desperately, I moaned loudly. "God I was fantasizing about you all day." He moaned, he was sending waves of pleasure through my body. "Like what?" I breathed as he thrusted into me. "Fucking you in front of everyone, showing everyone that your mine." He growled thrusting into me harder, that earned a very loud moan from me. "Oh babe I'm gonna come." Frank said moments before he came, I followed suit. We almost missed our bus but we make it just in time. When we got home we went straight to my room and locked the door. "Cuddle now." I said in my little kid voice, he took his shirt off and crawled into bed holding his arms to me. I practically jumped onto him and kissed him happily. "I thought you wanted to cuddle." Frank laughed as I kissed his cheek. "I changed my mind." I said simply as I kissed his chest, he just nodded and held on to my waist. "I love you." I said looking down at him. "I love you too, I think someone else wants to tell you something." Frank said mischievously, I looked at him confused. "Tickle monster has arrived!" Frank said tickling my sides, I squealed and tried to get away but he held me there. "No!" I squealed as he tickled me even more, my sides hurt I was laughing so hard, he stopped after a while and I cuddled into his chest. "Hey Frankie." I asked nervously. "Yeah sweetheart?" He asked rubbing my back. "Why do you like me?" I asked, his hand stopped moving on my back and he sat up pulling me up with him. "Gerard I love you, your adorable, cute, beautiful, perfect. You ass and thighs are amazing, your moans and whimpers drive me crazy. I love the way you don't open your eyes because it's to bright in the morning. When you want to cuddle you use that cute little voice of yours. I love all of you." Frank said passionately and kissed my forehead. "But I'm gross and fat, I'm so socially awkward it could practically kill someone. I don't know how to actually talk to anyone but you and Mikey. I can't even stand up for my self, I'm pathetic, I'm nothing." I said crying into my hands. "Your not gross, God your so skinny it's kinda scary, I could carry you around all day. Your amazing and I don't understand why you don't see that, when I see you sad it feels like I'm dying." He said pulling me in for a hug, he rubbed my back as I cried into his chest. After calming down I sat up and looked at him sadly. "I haven't tried to kill my self since I've met you, and I haven't cut either, I've thought about it though." I said in a small voice, he looked like he was going to cry but held it back. "I'm proud of you babe, so, so proud." He said kissing me softly. "I... I want to... go to bed." I stuttered as a fresh wave of tiers came over me, he nodded and wrapped his arms around my tightly as I cried again. I cried my self to sleep in his arms, he kissed my head and rubbed my back the whole time. If he wasn't there for me I know I would be died, or crying I'm a pool of my own blood in the floor. I woke up to a way to bright room, I felt like shit and my throat burned. Frank still had his arms wrapped around my tightly, I sighed and snuggled in, at least he was still here. "Hey sweetie." He said rubbing my back, I nuzzled my head into his chest. "I thought it would be good to take the day off because of last night." He said, I nodded and wrapped my arms round his neck. "I thought I would wake up and you wouldn't be here anymore." I whispered sadly. "I will never leave you." He said kissing my head, I opened my eyes after about ten minutes, I groaned beared my face into his chest. "Wake up grumpy pants." He said laughing, I was actually really grumpy, and tired, and I felt like shit. "Fuck you." I groaned cuddling in more, he laughed. "Yes please." He said still laughing, I giggled and pulled the covers over my head. "Maybe later Daddy." I said under the covers, his breath hitched at his nickname. "I like that name." He said and pulled the covers off of me. "Daddy please let me sleep in." I said in my little kid voice, I could hear his heart racing. "Daddy thinks your cute when you sleep." He said kissing my head again. I scooted down and pulled his pants down, his breath hitched in his thoat. I sucked lightly on the tip before bringing him all the way in my mouth, he moaned loudly and ran his hand through my hair. "Fuck babe." He moaned and bucked his hips up to meet me. "Beautiful I'm gonna come." He moaned. "Yes Daddy." I said around him, he came taking a fist full of my hair and moaned my name. "God I'm so lucky to have someone like you." He said hugging me. "I'm the lucky one." I said laughing and sat up to get my onesie on. "You seriously look so cute and tiny in that thing, I'm so glad I got that for you." Frank said holding his arms out so we could cuddle, his stomach growled and I sat up. "I'm kinda hungry." He laughed as I tugged on his arm, he got up and followed my upstairs to the kitchen. "We have eggs, toast, muffins, and cerial." I said thinking about what we had for breakfast. "Muffins sound good." He said coming up behind me and wrapped his arms around me, I nodded and turned to wrap my arms around him. I gave him two muffins and took mine, we sat on the couch and turned the tv on, he pulled me on to his lap. "I love Tom and Jerry, it's funny how they try to kill each other." Frank laughed as Jerry smashed a plate over Tom's head, I nodded. "God I feel like shit." I sighed taking a bite out of my muffin but I wanted to throw up so I spit it out. "What's wrong?" Frank asked concerned. "I feel sick and my thoat hurts." I said leaned back into him. "I'm sorry, do you have any medicine?" He asked, I shook my head. "My medication makes it to were I can't take any other medication even if it's cold medicine." I repeated what my doctor told me. "Oh, did you forget to take it?" He asked, I thought for a second, oh I did forget to take it. "I forgot." I said, he nodded and picked me up carrying me to my room, I went to my dresser and took my case full of pill bottles out. "Wow that's a lot." Frank said standing next to me as I took all of my pills out, all together I took two anxiety pills, four depression pills, and one sleep pill which I haven't taken in a while. I took all of my pills and then sat in the bed, after a while I felt a little better, but kinda stoned. "I almost over dosed on my sleeping pills last month." I said like it was nothing, yep I was definitely high. "Oh." Frank said sadly sitting next to me. "Yeah, hey Frankie I think I'm stoned." I said laughing lightly, Frank looked at me really upset but didn't say anything. "It's okay, you lay down and I'll be in the living room when you wake up." He said and walked out shuting the door behind him. What's wrong with you Gerard, your fucked up, depressed, stoned, stupid, fat, worthless. I cried into my pillow as, God I'm worthless, nothing, your monster. All of these thoughts came running at me, I took my sleeping pills and took a handful of them and swallowed. The room started to spin, my heart was racing. "Frank!" I yelled falling on to the floor. "Frank!" I yelled again, I was freaking out. The door slammed opened and he ran in. "Fuck Gerard I'm here." He said freaking out, he looked at my empty bottle of sleeping pills and then back at me scared. He held my head up as I cried, then he shoved his fingers down my thoat, throw up a lot of pills. "Frank." I said weakly still crying. "I'm here babe." He sobbed as he watched me helplessly as I backed out. I woke up to the sound someone sobbing, I groaned and put my hand over my eyes. I felt worse and it was so fucking bright in here. "Frank?" I asked opening my eyes, I remembered what happened. "I'm... Im here babe... Fuck I thought I lost you." He cried as he held me. "Nope. Still here." I said looking up at him, his eyes were red and his face was pale, I probably didn't look any better. "I never want you to leave me ever." Frank said picking me up, I wrapped my legs around his waist as he carried me to the bathroom, he didn't set me down when he tuned the shower on. He took his shirt off still holding me. I stood up and got my clothes off and held I'm with his pants. He picked me up and set me in the bath and got in behind me so I could lean against him, the back filled with hot water, it felt so relaxing. "Don't leave me Gerard, I would die without you." He said wrapping is arms around me and kissed my neck, I nodded and he sighed as he snuggled into him.

Notes

Hope you like it, the feels in this chapter man :'( I seriously almost cried writing it. Sorry if you cry, don't hurt me XD