Take a good hard look

I sat in my room, staring at my thighs and wrists, why the hell was I so different to everyone else? I guess no one knew. I got the blade again. ''Hello, old friend...'' I whispered, staring at it. I made sure my door was locked, before I slid the piece of sharp metal across my thigh, I screeched as the pain grew, my eyes were flooded with tears. After adding a few new cuts, I turned to the dozens of pills that sat on my bedside table, I picked up the sleeping pills, but before I could shove them down my throat, my mom rushed into my room.
''Frankie! I tried calling you, I tried texing y-'' she paused when she saw my thighs.
''Please, Frank, don't tell me you're self harming again... After $600 of therapy..'' She snapped, she walked out of my room, leaving me to bleed. Well fuck her, I don't need anyone, well, maybe I do, I don't know anymore... I got my skinny jeans and pulled them up, I stood out of my room, hoodie on and sleeves down.
''Mom, I'm going out...'' I left before she could respond.
I drove towards the grave yard, where my father was buried, I walked to his grave, and knelt down.
''Hey... dad, it's me... I just needed someone to talk to... I felt like I failed mom... Today... She walked in on me, cutting myself... she payed $600 on my therapy, I took it all for granted'' I ended up crying, hugging my fathers grave, as if it was him.
''I miss you dad'' I sigh and leave, after leaving a rose, his favourite flower.

I got home, and my mom wasn't home, I walked inside, and soon saw a note. I picked it up and read it. 'Frank, I know you love me, I love you too... but... I guess we need to survive on our own... I love you... Frankie
-Mommy XOXO'
I broke down into tears, hugging the note.

When time passed, everything that reminded me of her, I threw it out, including her flowers, her pictures and the teddy bears she bought for me.
'Frank.. you can do this' I thought, I knew I was getting my hopes up.

Notes

Hehe, one more before I go to bed.
(I am in Australia, so... I have different timezones to most of you)
<3 Okay, bye!