“Woah, your house is really nice Frank” The way brothers stood in our entranceway and gazed upon my home. Our house wasn’t super big or anything but mom loved to decorate so it looked like a model home on the inside.
“Oh, thanks. My mom’s really into decorating”
“I can tell” Mikey said smiling.
“Come on, I’ll show y’all around!” I showed them our living room, the kitchen, the master bedroom and bathroom; I took them upstairs and showed them the media room, our two guest bedrooms and finally, we got to my room.
“And this is my room. It’s where all the magic happens”, I laughed at myself, trying to sound like I was showing my house on an episode of MTV Cribs.
“Yeah, I’m sure you and your trusty right hand produce a lot of magic in here” Pete said, causing all of us to laugh. My room was painted a charcoal gray color and my bedding was all black. Mom tried to decorate my room really nice but eventually gave up when I started hanging up band posters.

“You’re house is amazing Frank, I didn’t know you lived like this” Said Gerard. I was starting to feel a little bit uncomfortable. My dad made really good money, so we lived really nicely. I never wanted for anything because I had everything I could ever want, but I wasn’t spoiled and I despised it when people would mention our money. It was embarrassing for me.
“Oh, thanks I guess… anyway, what do y’all want to do? Want to go watch a movie or something?”
“Yeah that sounds great. Do you have any good movies?” Gerard asked.
“Hell yeah, I’ve got a badass movie selection. Come on, I’ll show you.” I took Gerard, Mikey and Pete into our media room and showed them all the movies we had.
“Pick whatever y’all want to watch. I own the movies so I’ll like whatever you pick”
The guys started analyzing my collection and trying to decide on one.
“This movie collection is epic! You have so many classics. I’m impressed, once again by you, Frankie.” Gerard looked at me and smiled. I was blushing hard and smiling back; Gee was totally just flirting with me. Ever since Ray mentioned that Gerard said little comments and looked at me certain ways, I started paying attention to it and I noticed more and more what he was talking about. My phone started buzzing and I looked to see it was my mom.
“Hey momma, what’s up?”
“Hi Frankie! Are you boys all at the house yet?”
“Yep, we’ve been here about 15 minutes or so. We’re looking for a movie to watch right now. Where are you?”
“Oh good! I can’t wait to meet everyone and see Pete. I’m just now getting to the grocery store. I forgot a few things I needed to make dinner so I had to make a quick stop before I head home. I’ll see you in a bit. You boys behave yourselves”
“No promises there. Later ma, love you”
“Love you too, Frankie”
I hung up the phone and walked over to Gerard who was holding a DVD case out in front of him, waiting for me to come get it and start the movie.
“The Invisible Man? This is my all time favorite classic horror film. God choice, Gee”
“It’s mine too! That’s why I picked it” of course it was Gerard’s favorite too. We honestly had everything in common; it was kind of scary at times.
I walked over to the DVD player and put the movie in. Our media room was really nice and looked like a mini movie theatre. It had big leather theatre type seats that reclined and we had a projector with a screen; mom even bought a little popcorn machine to make it feel like the real deal. Mikey and Pete took the leather couch we had in front of the individual theatre-like seats; our floor was slightly raised at one part, so it had two levels. I started the movie and turned around to see Mikey and Pete already cuddling on the couch.
“God you two, get a damn room”
“Why would we get a room when we can gross you out so easily. That wouldn’t be any fun now would it.” Pete said with a stupid smirk.
“If y’all start making out, I’m going to fucking punch you both” I said with a chuckle. Pete just laughed and flipped me off, turning his attention to the screen. I stepped up onto where the other chairs were and took the seat next to Gerard. The movie started and I kept thinking about how nice it would be to hold Gee’s hand right now. About ten minutes went by and I decided to move my hand a little bit towards the armrest and left it there; I was feeling brave. About fifteen minutes later, I saw Gerard’s hand scoot a little closer towards mine and I felt the adrenaline pump through my veins. Our hands were about three inches away from each other and if Mikey or Pete were to have looked back at us, they wouldn’t have even looked twice at it. It didn’t look like we were trying to hold hands but my insides were going crazy. The butterflies wouldn’t die down and my heartbeat was accelerated. I purposely moved my hand closer to Gee just to see what would happen, so did he move his closer to mine on purpose, too? So many damn questions and no answers to any of them. I wasn’t even watching the movie any more; I was just starring at our hands being so agonizingly close and there was nothing I could do about it. I mean, there was something I could do about it, but what if I grabbed Gerard’s hand and he pulled it away? What if he got up and ran out? I couldn’t bear for that to happen. Maybe if I move my hand just a tad closer, Gerard would make the first move if he wanted to hold my hand as bad as I was wanting to hold his. I move my hand just slightly closer and I saw from the corner of my eye that Gerard looked down at it and continued to watching our hands for about three-minutes until he slightly moved his hand a little closer too. Oh my gosh, this was it. Our hands were so close they were practically already touching. One more move from either of us and our hands would be together. Right as I felt the adrenaline pump through me all over again, I heard my mom come in from downstairs.
“Frankie baby, come downstairs! I want to meet your friends!” Dammit mom, your timing couldn’t be any worse. I groaned as I got up to pause the movie.
“Y’all ready to go meet my mom?”
“Yeah sure!” said Mikey
“Yes! I can’t wait any longer. I’ve heard too many good things about this woman” Beamed Gee as he stood up. I loved the fact that he was so excited to meet my mom.

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We all walked downstairs and into the kitchen. Mom had her backed turned to us while she started cooking. I cleared my throat and she turned around.
I introduced Mikey first. “Mom, this is Mikey” She smiled real big and shook his hand
“It’s so nice to finally meet you honey, I’m Linda”
“It’s so nice to meet you too, Mrs. Iero” Mikey smiled.
“Oh dear, call me Linda, please! Our last name is hard enough to say; besides ‘Mrs. Iero’ makes me sound old, which I am! But I don’t have to feel like it” We all laughed at her.
“And this is Gerard, mom” I moved over so she could see him better. She gave me a huge smile and shook his hand.
“I have heard so much about you Gee! Frank just rants about you and how wonderful you are! I am so glad I’m finally getting to meet you and your brother!” I was blushing hard and slightly embarrassed by my mom’s choice of words… If Gee didn’t know I had a crush on him before, he sure as hell does now.
Gerard was smiling like an idiot and sent me a shy look, letting out a small laugh.
“The pleasure is all mine, Linda. I’ve heard many great things about you too, especially how amazing your cooking is, but everyone seemed to have left out where Frankie got his good looks from” Did I hear that right? Gerard just told my mother that I got my good looks from her… Gerard Way just openly said I was good looking. This night was going to fucking kill me.
“Oh stop, you’re as sweet as Frank said you were. You’re just a doll Gee!” Well my mom seemed to like him so far, which I knew she would. How can you not like Gerard?
“Pete, how are you honey? I haven’t seen you in a while! How’s your family?”
“I’m good, they’re good. We’re all doing good. It’s nice to see you momma Iero. It’s been too long!” Pete always called my mom that and she thought it was cute, so she let him do it.
“I agree, Pete. Frankie needs to stop being so stuck up and invite y’all over more often! Well I’m going to start on dinner now, boys. I’ll call you down when I’m done?”
“Sure thing mom. Do you need any help?” I felt bad leaving her down here alone.
“Not at all baby. You boys can go finish your movie.”


We walked back into the media room and sat where we were before my mom had come home. I thought about how close Gee and I’s hands were and I wondered if we would’ve ended up holding hands if my mom could’ve come home just fifteen minutes later… guess we’ll never know.
There wasn’t much time left on our movie so I didn’t get the chance to slowly move my hand closer and closer to Gerard’s in hopes that he would just grab my hand already. I decided that this was a good thing because if it came down to it, I wouldn’t have made the first move. I didn’t have the balls to grab Gerard’s hand even though I knew in the back of my mind that he wanted me to; it was obvious. The movie finished and Mikey let out a loud yawn.
“That movie made me a little sleepy!” Pete grabbed a pillow from the couch and threw it at Mikey. “Well you better get un-sleepy, kid! The night has just begun” Gerard and I laughed as we watched the two of them play fight each other. I have to be honest, these two are so damn cute together and they’re insanely happy.
“Let’s go downstairs and hangout with your mom, Frankie. I hate that she’s down there by herself and she invited us over for dinner!” Gerard said as he stood up
“Ok, she’ll probably appreciate that”
We go downstairs and see that mom is almost done with dinner, which I was thrilled about because I was so hungry and the smell of food made my stomach growl.
“That smells amazing miss Linda” Gee said while walking over to her.
“Is there anything I can help you out with?” He was so sweet.
“Here, try this sauce Gee and tell me what you think” my mom got a spoon full of the sauce she had been making and brought it up to Gerard’s mouth with her hand underneath it incase it dripped. I was kind of jealous of my mom, watching her feed the guy I liked.
“That is incredible, Linda. You’re going to have to give me the recipe”
“Of course I will, do you cook?”
“I love to cook actually. My mom started teaching me when I was young so it’s kind of our thing that we do together” I didn’t know Gee liked to cook, why hadn’t he ever said anything about it?
“Well maybe we could get together one night and cook something amazing!” said mom
“I would love to do that and learn some things from you” Gerard looked happy and so did my mom. I could tell from her facial expressions and attitude that she already loved him, which made me happy too. We all sat down and ate dinner together. We talked about the movie we had been watching, how all of us met, the Way brothers previous school which brought up them being bullied for being gay. Mom was really sensitive and sweet when she listened and talked to Mikey and Gerard about their past and how hard things have been for them. She reassured them that people were cruel and that being gay was not a big deal at all. That conversation lead to us talking about Pete and Mikey being together and mom whistled at them and told them they were a hot couple; we were laughing so hard we were practically in tears. My mom was doing such a good job at making things so comfortable. Everyone was genuinely having a good time. We finished eating and we all helped clean up, even though mom told us about a hundred times that we didn’t have to and that she would take care of it later. We went into the living room with my mom and talked for a little while longer before mom decided to go to bed.
“Well it’s getting late and I’m sure you boys are tired of hanging out with little old me”
“Oh we could never get tired of hanging out with you, Linda” Gerard said smiling up at my mom.
“Truth, you have been so funny and kind. Thank you for the incredible dinner and the great conversation tonight.” Mikey said
“You boys are too sweet! Thank you for giving me some company. Come over anytime you’d like, you’re always welcome in our home. Frankie, don’t stay up too late and be careful taking everyone home.”
“Of course mom. Love you, goodnight”
“Goodnight baby. Goodnight boys!”
Pete, Mikey and Gerard all said goodnight back practically in unison.
“Ok, I love your mom. Like I really really love your mom. She’s awesome! Gerard said
“Yeah your mom is great Frank. I wish our mom was that cool.” Mikey said looking over to Gerard and laughing.
“I told y’all she was badass. Momma Iero always makes you feel at home and gives you a good laugh.” I was glad everyone liked my mom so much. I had to agree that she was pretty awesome.
“Thanks guys, she’s kind of the best. I sorta love her a lot,” I said laughing.

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We all got up and went back upstairs, heading into my room. Pete, Mikey and Gerard all sat on my bed while I sat in the chair of my desk. Gerard stood up and walked over to my guitars.
“Wow, you have some beautiful guitars Frankie”
“Right? They’re my pride and joy” Gerard looked over to me and laughed. He picked up my acoustic and brought it over to me.
‘’Play us something” I looked up and Gerard had a huge smile on his face. I couldn’t say no to that.
I grabbed the guitar and started playing Astro Zombies by Misfits. We all sang the lyrics together and laughed at each other for being such idiots. I honestly hadn’t had this much fun in a really long time. Tonight had been going even better than I thought it would.
“Ok, now that we’ve all sang and you’ve played a song we know, how about you play us that song you’ve been writing?” Dammit I forgot Gerard had been asking me all week to play him the song I’ve been working on. I wasn’t ready to play it, not yet.
“Um, I…I cant. It’s not ready yet!”
“Oh come on Frank, show us your stuff!” Pete badgered. I knew I wasn’t getting out of this.
“How about I just play the tune. I’m not ready to share the lyrics just yet”
They didn’t like it, but they agreed to let me just play the tune. I started playing and got a little lost in my music.

I looked up after I realized I had zoned out and I saw Gerard looking at me with adoration in his eyes; he was looking at me the way I dreamed of him looking at me. He was starring at me with his mouth slightly open and his face was in awe, like he was looking at some kind of interesting old artifact. I finished the song and set my guitar beside me.
“I dig the tune for sure! I can’t wait to hear the lyrics that you wrote for it” Said Pete
“Yeah I’m excited to hear what you wrote about for a tune like that,” Mikey added.
Gerard hadn’t said anything. He was just looking back and fourth between the guitar and I. Did he like the song that much? Or was it really bad and he just didn’t know how to tell me it sucked. Mikey and Pete looked over at Gerard after they realized he hadn’t said anything and noticed his gaze on me.
“Gee, you ok?” Mikey asked while laughing. Gerard shook his head like he was snapping back into reality and sighed.
“Yeah… I… I’m fine. Frankie, that was really good, I mean really good. When can I hear the full song?” That was a good question. I didn’t know when he could hear the full song, seeing as how I wrote it about him. Last weekend when I couldn’t get Gee out of my head and I was questioning my sexuality, I grabbed my guitar and did what I always do when I cant figure something out; I wrote about it and created a song. Music was an escape for me and it always helped me figure things out. I wrote this song about Gerard and maybe one day I’d be willing to share it with him, but I just couldn’t right now. I’m still so scared to think he isn’t feeling the same way I am. I glanced over at my clock to see it was already eleven-thirty and we had school the next day.
“Guys, it’s getting late. I should probably take y’all home”
“Yeah I’m pretty tired and I still have some homework to do” Pete complained
“I’m sure mom is wondering why we’re out so late on a school night so we should get home, too” Mikey agreed.
“Come on, let’s get you kids home,” I laughed as I got up from my chair and made my way downstairs. We all got into my car and Gerard plugged my iPod in, turning on an Iggy song.

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I decided to take Pete home first since he lived the closest. I pulled up to his house and Mikey walked Pete to his door. Gerard and I watched them from the car and pretended to gag when we saw them kiss each other goodnight. We made ourselves laugh and then high fived each other before Mikey got back in the car. When I pulled up in front of the Way house, Mikey thanked me for the great night and started getting out of the car.
“Hey mikes, just leave the door unlocked, I’ll be in in just a minute” Mikey and I looked at each other with a confused expression but didn’t ask any questions. Mikey got out of the car and walked inside, turning around to wave bye to me once more before shutting the front door.

“I just wanted to say thank you for tonight, Frankie. I had such a great time and I know Mikes did, too. Having Pete there helped him open up a little more and I just really appreciate you thinking of him when you asked us over for dinner. We don’t get out all that much” Gerard looked down to his hands.
“Gee, you’ve got to stop thanking me for being a friend. I had a great time tonight and we should all do it again soon. My mom loved you so I’m sure she’ll be asking where you are if you don’t come see her soon”
“Your mom is wonderful. I might just end up going to your house to spend time with her” Gerard said and winked at me.
“Oh I’m sure she wouldn’t mind that, but you better set some time aside for me if you’re coming over” I said with a smirk.
“Oh of course, Frankie”
Gerard was smiling and looking into my eyes again like he was the other day when I drove him home from school. He was so… so beautiful. I could look at him like this all day and never get tired of it. He was captivating.
I broke the stare down and looked to my hands, not knowing what to do or say. I heard Gerard sigh and lean back into his seat.
“Hey, is everything ok?” I ask.
“Honestly, no Frankie… it’s not. Not after tonight”
Holy shit, what did I do? I thought tonight had gone so well. It had gone well, we were literally just talking about how wonderful it was. I felt myself start to panic and breathe a little heavier. My mind was going crazy trying to figure out what I had done but my thoughts were pleasantly interrupted when I felt two hands touch my cheeks and turn my head to the right. Gerard was holding my face and looking into my eyes. I had no idea what the hell was going on right now but my stomach was in knots and I felt like I could barely breathe.
“Frankie, I need you to be honest with me”
“O-ok… A-about w-w-what”
“Do… do you… are you feeling this right now or am I just crazy, Frank. Do you feel this connection and this energy right now between us? Am I reading your body language wrong? Because tell me now if I am.”
I didn’t know what to say. I couldn’t speak. I could feel the connection and the energy. I had ben feeling it since the moment I saw him in the nurses office on Friday. I nodded vigorously and tried to slow down my breathing, but it was no use.
“Frankie, I don’t want to scare you off or freak you out but I like you… I like you a whole fucking lot and I don’t mean as just a friend. You drive me crazy and no matter how hard I try I can’t stop thinking about you. I’ve been told that you’re straight and I’ve been respecting that, but the way you look at me and the things you say… I mean, you flirt with me Frankie and I flirt with you too and we’re always making each other blush and…” Gerard had a few tears running down his cheeks and I couldn’t resist it anymore now that I knew he felt the same way. I grabbed the back of Gerard’s head and crashed our lips together without a second thought. There were fireworks and sparks flying everywhere behind my eyelids and an electric pulse pumping through my veins. I felt so overwhelmed and relieved all at the same time and I had never experienced anything like this in my entire life. Gerard leaned closer to me and grabbed the back of my head with one hand and grabbed my thigh with the other. I kissed him with so much passion that I didn’t even know I had in me and he allowed himself to lightly bite my bottom lip. We pulled apart and stared into each other’s eyes while panting out. That was the most incredible kiss I’ve ever experienced. I needed to say something because I hadn’t expressed my feelings yet except for the kiss I threw myself into.
“Gee… I like you a whole fucking lot too” He giggled
“I didn’t say anything because I wasn’t sure if you felt the same way and I’ve just been so damn confused about everything. I… well I thought I was straight, that is until I met you. I thought I was just excited about making a new friend but that wasn’t it. I’ve been talking to Ray about everything and he’s been helping me through it all because I didn’t know what to do Gee. I’m scared, I’m so scared and I don’t know what to do. But you make me feel so alive and happy and nobody has ever made me feel the way you do. I’m not scared when I’m with you. You make me forget the fear of what people will think or how my parents will react. You make me forget about my anxiety and my depression. You make me feel so alive and on top of the world Gee.” Gerard was smiling huge and crying happy tears.
“Frankie, you should’ve just told me how you were feeling. You should’ve told me you were scared and you didn’t understand why you were feeling this way. I hate that you’ve been dealing with this and I haven’t been able to help you. I know what you’re going through and I know it’s scary. Talk to me Frankie.”

“I didn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to leave. I was scared if I told you that you’d stop hanging around me because you didn’t feel the same way. I know it sounds stupid, but it’s true Gee. I’ve never had girlfriends or ever even wanted one. I’ve always thought some girls were beautiful but I also thought the same thing about some guys. I never thought about it until I met you that I might be gay. I wasn’t sure about it at first because I’ve obviously never had a relationship with a guy before and how the hell could I be seventeen and not know I’m gay? After Ray got me thinking and I spent some time realizing the ways you make me feel, there’s no doubt in my mind anymore. Gee, I think you’re the most beautiful person inside and out that I’ve ever known and when I’m around you, I feel ridiculously happy. You make my stomach turn into butterflies and your smile just about gives me a heart attack. I don’t want to pretend that I don’t have feelings for you anymore, Gee.”

“You don’t have to, Frankie because I don’t want to pretend that I don’t have feelings for you either. I like you so damn much, do you realize that? So damn much” Gerard leaned in and pushed our lips together again. I had been fantasizing about this moment all day and nothing could’ve prepared me for this. Kissing Gerard was out of this world and I was on a high that I never wanted to come down from. We heatedly made out for about 5 minutes before we broke apart.

“So, are we doing this? Are we like, a thing?” I asked. Gerard was laughing at me
“What! I’ve never done this before. I don’t know how it works, Gee!”
“You’re fucking adorable, Frankie. But I think we should just take this slow and see where it goes. You’ve never had a relationship before, much less a gay one. I don’t want you to push yourself too fast. This is going to be overwhelming for you. We both know that we care about each other a lot and want something to come from this, so lets just continue getting to know one-another and explore each others minds.” He was right. I wasn’t ready to jump into anything but I knew I wanted him. I had a lot to learn about relationships and Gerard and I was thrilled that he was going to be my teacher for both.

“I agree, that sounds like the perfect plan. But, please just bear with me, ok? I’m still nervous and I’ve just admitted to myself and Ray that I’m gay. I don’t think I’m ready to tell my parents or everyone else yet. I’m scared and I know I shouldn’t be, please don’t be upset with me. Just help me, ok? Help me get through the hard parts and be there for me, Please Gee. I need you right now and you’ve been through all of this; you know how it goes. Please don’t give up on me”
“Frankie, don’t worry so much. I’m here, I’m not going anywhere, and why the hell would I ever be upset with you because you’re not ready to tell the world about yourself yet? I’m not heartless; I understand how hard this is. I’m going to be here through it all though. When you’re scared or feeling hurt, when you question yourself and what you’re doing, when you decide to tell everyone. I’m going to be here. And when you’re ready for a relationship, I will fucking be right here waiting for you. You’re not alone in this. You’ve got me, Ray and whenever you’re ready, you’ll have Pete, Mikey and Bob, too.”
Gerard was so good at comforting me and saying everything I needed to hear. To listen to him say he was going to be patient with me and be there through it all made me realize that I can do this and that I’m finally allowing myself to be me. Gerard was exactly what I needed and to know he had been feeling this way about me the whole time I was feeling the same way about him, well that was the greatest feeling in the world. The most incredible guy in New Jersey thought I, Frank Iero, was amazing. Shit like this doesn’t just happen for me!
“Gee, thank you. That’s all I can say. You have no idea how much you mean to me and how much it means that you’re here for me through all of this. You’re amazing, you know that?
“Ehh, I think you’ve told me a couple of times.” Gerard laughed and gave me a wink.
“I should probably get inside and explain myself to Mikey”
“Why would you have to explain yourself to Mikey?”
“Look up at the top right window of my house. See the crack in the blinds?”
I looked up and saw exactly what Gerard was talking about.
He chuckled a bit, “Mikey has probably been watching us this whole time”
I blushed thinking that anyone saw Gerard and I kiss.
“Oh… Is he going to be mad?”
“Mikey be mad over me kissing you? Of course not. He’s been trying to convince me all week to just go up to you and kiss you and just see what happens. I obviously didn’t because I was too scared that you’d be pissed and never talk to me again” Gerard chuckled. “So I’m sure he’s sitting there all giddy on the fact we kissed”

“Well I guess I don’t have to worry about him finding out I’m gay… I’m sure Pete will know now, too” I didn’t want to sound like a baby, but I just wasn’t ready for everyone to know yet. Today was the first time I even admitted to myself that I was gay, then I admitted it to Ray and now I’ve told Gerard how I feel about him and I’ve even kissed him! Everything was happening too fast and I felt like I had no control. Shit, here comes the panic attack.
“Frankie, are you ok?”
“No, no. Help I’m having a panic attack! Oh my gosh, help” I was shaking and my breathing was fast; I swear my heart was going to jump right out of my chest.
“Watch my breathing, focus on it and match yours to mine. Breathe with me Frankie” Gerard was rubbing my back and holding me close to him. I had never had anyone comfort me like this through a panic attack and I was amazed to see how much it was helping. I finally calmed down and sat back in my seat, feeling overly embarrassed about what just happened.
“I’m... I’m so sorry you had to see that Gee”
“Why? I have them too. Don’t be embarrassed Frankie. Today has been really stressful for you. Look, don’t worry about Mikey, ok? If he did see anything, I’ll tell him everything you said and he would never breathe a word of it to Pete or anyone else. He knows what its like, too, and he would never do that to you.”
“Are you sure?”
“Of course I’m sure. I know my little brother better than anyone else. He has a heart of gold and he wouldn’t dare tell anyone about this. He knows that coming out is very personal”
“O-ok. Thank you, Gee. You’re just so… amazing”
“I think that’s like what, the fifth time you’ve told me?” Gerard said smirking
“Oh shut up!”
“Hey, I’m not complaining. You can tell me I’m amazing all you want, I don’t mind”
“Of course you don’t” I rolled my eyes at Gerard. This guy was going to kill me.

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We talked for a few more minutes about how we wanted to go about this and what I should do from here. We both agreed to not act any different at school and we could spend more time with each other outside of school, too. I decided that I would talk to Ray tomorrow about everything that’s happened, because I know he’s going to want details anyway, and he could help me figure things out. Ray knew me better than anyone else except for maybe my mom, so he’d probably know a good way for me to tell everyone. Gerard gave me one last kiss before he got out and went inside. I drove home with the biggest smile on my face and warmth swimming throughout my whole body. I felt like I was on fire but also floating on clouds all at once. It was strange and I’d never felt it before, but I loved it. It was a liberating feeling. I was on cloud 9 and nothing was bringing me down. Gerard Way liked me… he actually fucking liked ME. How could someone so incredible as him fall for someone like me who literally just figured out their gay, has depression and anxiety problems, is a total dork and has piercing’s. I didn’t understand it, but I also didn’t question it too much. My life was incredible right now and I had never said that before. Gerard Way made me realize so much about myself in such a short period of time, I wondered what else he was going to teach me. I let my mind wander a little too far on that and I had to stop myself when I felt my dick twitch and my pants get tight. I got home and went inside to my room and got ready for bed. Once I laid down for the night, I grabbed my phone to set my alarm and noticed I had a text from Gee.

12:30AM From: Gee (:
“Mikey saw… he screamed and jumped around when I walked through the door shouting ‘Finally!’ I told him what you said and he understood completely, saying he wouldn’t even mention to you that he knew until you said something to him. So you have nothing to worry about, dear. Take your time with this and let us be here for you when you’re ready <3”

I felt comforted by this and I wasn’t worried anymore. I trusted Mikey honestly and I knew he wouldn’t tell anyone before I was ready. I kind of liked the fact that Mikey knew; it was one last person I had to share the news with later on.

12:48AM To: Gee (:
“Ok. Thank you, Gee. You have no idea how much you mean to me. Not only on the friend part of everything, but also on the ‘me liking you a whole fucking lot’ part too. I hope you know that I really care a lot about you… You make me feel like I’m on an all-natural high <3”

12:53AM From: Gee (:
“The feeling is mutual, Frankie. You spin my head round and send my heart into overdrive. I can’t wait to see where things go from here. I’m glad I grew some balls tonight and said everything I’ve been wanting to say. I wasn’t going to but damn, when we were looking into each other’s eyes, I couldn’t help it anymore. I’m so glad I did. Get some sleep, dear. I can’t wait to see you in the morning.”

12:55AM To: Gee (:
“Goodnight, Gee <3 Sleep good. I’ll see you tomorrow”

I loved that he called me dear; it made my heart skip a beat when I read it. I really did like this guy so much. I’m glad he’s the one that made me realize all of this about myself. I wouldn’t want to be going through this with anyone else in the world. Gerard was officially my safe spot and I loved the idea of that.

Notes

Ok, I'm not sure how I feel about this. It could've gone a lot of different ways but for what i want to happen later on, I felt like this was the best way to introduce everything. Any and all thoughts or opinions are always welcome! If you have any ideas or want to see anything happen, I'd love to hear your input!

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