Chapter 4 Gerard POV

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NO NO NO is all I think this cannot be happening. I can feel all the blood drain from my face and I know I can't stay here another second if I don't want to throw up. I run out the room as fast as I can, not even thinking about Frank I keep on running until I reach my janitors closet, I call it mine because the janitor resigned 2 months ago and no one uses it except for me. I sit down in the corner and just start to cry and cry, I can't believe it. I won't believe it. He left how can he be back? Suddenly I hear someone clear their throat and I snap my head round terrified I will see him. However I am met with the kind caring eyes of Frank. He crosses the room and sits next to me. I can feel him tense and I feel bad because I totally forgot less than 30 minutes ago he was beaten up. I gently rest my head on his shoulder as I feel him look down at me and I feel comfortable like I belong with him. "I thought he left" I whispered, not trusting my voice. "Who left?" He says, his voice filled with confusion. "Bob" I say in a small voice. "He used to bully me and Mikey" I say knowing he is probably dying to know what is going on. "You get bullied?!" He says and I can't help but smile at how shocked his voice sounds. "Yes, I mean I am the depressed, gay, emo kid that never talks to anyone but Mikey and Ray." "Oh" is all he Says as he try's to take in what I just told him. Suddenly a horrible thought occurred to me. "You don't have a problem with me being gay do you?" I say in a almost angry sounding voice "Well considering I am gay it would be a bit hypocritical if I was against it" He smirks at me. "You are gay?" I say staring at him with a questioning look. "Yep I am very very gay" I laugh lightly and it makes me feel warm and very light. We sit in comfortable silence for awhile until he seems to remember something. "Wait you said Bob left so why is he back?" "I don't know, he left at the end of last year because he moved house but I guess they moved back again" "How bad did he bully you?" He said I was scared to tell Frank, would he judge me for not sticking up for myself? Would he think I was weak? "Very bad, me and Mikey were terrified of going to school because when we did he would beat us up so much that we would come home black and blue and once he put Mikey into hospital for 3 days." "Oh god" I say just realising what is actually happening. I start crying again and I clutch his t-shirt like a life line with my head still buried in his neck. He holds me and strokes my back, not knowing what else to do. "It will be okay Gee, I promise" I wish I could believe him but I can't not after what has happened in the past. We sit in silence for a few minutes my head still buried in his neck, until he reaches into his pocket and pulls out a crappy flip phone. "Want to listen to some music we have 10 minutes before next period" God his voice was so smooth and calming. "Gee?" He says looking at me worriedly "shit yeah sorry I was daydreaming, music sounds like a great idea" Good going Gerard you totally spaced out, he probably thinks you are even weirder than he first thought. I am pulled out of my thoughts again as he hands me one earphone and smashing pumpkins fills my ears. Wow he has a great music taste, I start swaying in time to the music and he does to only slightly less enthusiastic because of his injuries. When suddenly I find my self asking him "Do you want to come round mine after school?"

Notes

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