I can't take it anymore

Frank's pov

Finally it's Christmas break, in so happy I can't control my self, this was gonna be me and Gee's first Christmas together. I kept thinking about my birthday, that night was so amazing I couldn't forget it, it was the best birthday present I've ever had. Gerard had to go home and get something with Mikey, I wonder what it was, him and Mikey practically lived at my house and Gee had a lot of his clothes at my house. Maybe Mikey forgot something, oh well I'll watch a movie as I wait. It was snowing outside, Jazz loved snow so did Kellin, he's one weird dog, all of the other ones hate snow. Bear, Sebastian, and Kellin were all sitting on the couch while Skyler sat at the door, probably waiting for Gerard and Mikey to get here. Skyler barked and the other dogs went to the door, Gerard walked in with Mikey. Mikey looked like depressed and looked like he had a really bad panic attache, Gerard looked like he was crying for hours. "Are you guys okay?" I ask considered and gave Gerard and Mikey a group hug. Gerard shook is head and started to cry again. Mikey saw him crying and hugged tighter, we stood there for a few minutes before sitting on the couch. I've never seen Gerard cry this hard before, Mikey was shaking a little and was still hugging Gerard's side. "Gee what's wrong?" I said Gerard was crying so much that I wanted to cry too. "I was going through my closet to see if I could find my charger for my old MP3 player. Then I came across a box, I didn't know what was in it so I looked. It had my old... It had my old razor blades in it. When I saw them all of these memories came back to me, I took one and cut. I couldn't feel it so cut more and more. I used to cut so much that I can't feel pain anymore. Mikey walked in and found me sitting there with the blade still stuck in my arm." Gerard was now shaking and crying even more, I started to cry too, why would he do that to himself? "I almost killed my self a year ago, that's why Mikey never leaves my side. I promised him I would never try to kill my self again. I told him I was okay and I promised him I was. But I'm not oh fucking kay, I never was!" Gerard yelled getting up and hitting his head against the wall multiple times. "Stop!" I yelled getting up and pulled him away from the wall. He just looked down at the ground, I could see his eyes through his hair, he was still crying, "I'm a monster." He said looking at his hands which were shaking. "Gerard your not a monster, you beautiful in every way. Your sexy as fuck, your ass is amazing, you hair is adorable, you smile is to die for. I would do anything to make you happy, your my one and only, your my everything. If I lost you I wouldn't know what to do, I would be lost myself without you." Gerard was now looking at me, he hugged me and I hugged him, he was shaking still but not as much. "If this isn't love than I don't want to live." Gerard whispered in my ear and then kissed me lightly on the nose.

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Thanks for reading, I hoped you liked it <3 Their Christmas break is gonna be fun ;) XD leave a comment telling what you think :) <3