Weighted

I called Frankie on the phone, unaware of how it would go or what he would say, "Frank... I'm gonna do it..." he knew exactly what I was going to do, end it all, he told me he was coming to me right away, he always saves my ass, embarrassing, huh?
"G-Gerard!? where are you?" I heard him storm through my front door, I could hear him from the restroom I was in. "Gerard?" I heard him nearby, his footsteps getting closer and closer, I couldn't help but stare at the bottle of pills, i'm such a fucking coward, "Gerard..." he mumbled, "Gerard, please" he walked over to me and grabbed all the prescription drug bottles near me and took them out of the room. "Gerard please stop this, I know you can, please, PLEASE KEEP FIGHTING!" he yelled and hugged me tight, drowning in his tears, "Please, it pains me to see you do this to yourself, there's still hope!" I stared into the mirror wide eyed, speechless as usual, so cliche. I slowly moved my hands up his back, "F-Frank..." I stuttered and moved him closer to my body feeling his warm breathes on my chest, as I tried to hold back my tears. I kissed Frank's forehead, "Gerard, please..." he said under his breath, I set my hand on the back of his head, "I know, I know" I let go of him and grabbed him by the arms, looking him in the eyes, and giving him a weak smile. I let go of him and slowly walked out into the living room and walked upstairs into my bed room.
I can't go on hurting my friends like this, I can't keep calling Frank in like this, why do I keep calling him? If I want to end it I just should, it's not like I can keep doing this. I must look like such a coward right now, I can't believe it.
I laid against my wall and broke out into tears, all I ever do is hurt the ones close to me, why cant I stop? This shouldn't be this way, yet I make it like that...
I could hear Frank downstairs about to walk out the front door, so I walked out of my bedroom and stood at the top looking down on him, he was walking to the door and opened it, but before he did, he looked back at me, and then down at the floor, but before he left he just stood there, I could see him tremble, I could tell he didn't want to leave me afraid I might do something stupid. "Frank? could you spend the night with me?" I said softly under my breath, but loud enough for him to hear me, all he did was walk out without answer and closed the door behind him, so I decided to run after him, only to find him lighting a cigarette on the front porch, sitting on a wet front step.
"Will you?" I asked once more, hoping for a response, grabbing a cigarette lighting it myself, he looked me in the eyes, "Sure" he looked up at the sky, the sun setting and his beautiful hazel eyes glowing with every last bit of sun before it hid behind the houses in the neighborhood.
We threw our cigarette butts on the gravel path way and walked back into the house.
I slipped into my pajamas, of course as usual, they had to match otherwise I refused to sleep until I found a matching pair, or I could just sleep naked. I offered Frank a pair of my skeleton pajamas, but he decided just to sleep without a shirt on. We went downstairs to watch T.V. up until midnight, "Hey Frankie..." I called out, "Yeah Gee?" there was an awkward silence between my words "Never mind it can wait."
Time passed by, we had finally decided to go to bed, "Hey, you got a spare room?" Frank asked looking through my hallway, "Oh, I was hoping you could sleep with me tonight?" I suggested, he stared at me wide eyed and kind of turned red, he nodded his head and followed me to my room.
Time ticked by and we were shifting around trying to get comfortable in my bed, when out of the blue I wrapped my arms around him and he did the same to me, and we fell asleep in each others arms.

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