Please don't leave me

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"Why are you following me?" The mellow voice in front of me softly spoke.
I paused a second as Frank slowly turned around seeming unphased and dreamy.
"I...Me?"
"Well who else Gerard?" He looked around proving his point, the hallway was empty all apart from us.
I shuddered.
"I don't know." I gulped. "I was just checking to see if you were going to see Miss Meadows again."
"Why would you need to know that?"
...
"Well it's do to with me isn't it." I concluded.
...Frank looked side to side then to the ground sheepishly...
"I'm not saying you're wrong." He mumbled. "But I don't want anything to do with you anymore, Gerard."
"Then why do you still think of me and talk about me?"
Silence filled the air between us, I could hear some muffled voices in some of the classrooms on the corridor, most kids were outside though enjoying their break.
"I don't know." He finally spoke, very quietly. I walked a little bit closer to him so I could hear better. We were atleast 60cm away from each other though.
"How? How could you not know Frank?"
"I don't know!"
"You don't know yourself. Maybe that's the problem, maybe that has always been th-"
"That's not the fucking problem Gerard!" He hissed. "You know that's not the fucking problem, I told you in courage what happened to me. I trusted you."
"Frank I'm so sorry. Please." I sighed. "Just, I want you to know you can trust me. What happened, that night please just forget about it I just wanted to show you that it wouldn't be that bad to let me love you. I wasn't gonna fuck you without your permission I was just kissing you."
"Shirtless?" He added.
"You can kiss fucking naked without having sex."
"Yeh but one thing would lead to another, wouldn't it?"
"I wouldn't let it."
"Well what if I wanted it?"
"I wouldn't anyway, we'd have to talk first."
"You're lying. You became animalistic that night."
He's not wrong. But if there is a next time I'm going to know to control myself better.
"I can control myself, I can. I'm not that bad."
"You said that it would just be a peck."
Fuck fuck, he keeps firing the truth at me. I am the bad one and I don't deserve him but as a human being I have to be selfish to get what I want, and I want him back in my life. I love him.
"Frank." I shuffle closer, very slightly so I could talk a more quietly. "We could never touch again, but I'd still want to be with you. After all of this I still love you and I don't think I'll ever stop loving you, I'll never love anyone but you."
Frank pauses considering what I just said. He shuffles a little closer to me.
"You're not lying? Promise me." He holds out his pinky finger. I stare at it and a small smile spreads across my lips, I make it disappear to a serious expression and link my pinky with his.
"I promise you Frankie." I smile staring into his eyes, feeling unable to break his eye contact.
Frank sighs.
"I just don't want a relationship right now."
"Well can't we just be friends? I miss you so much. It can just be over text it doesn't matter as long as I can still have contact with you. I miss you. I adore you."
Frank remembers our fingers and quickly breaks away.
"I don't want friends anymore. I don't want anyone, I have changed so much and I just want to be shut off from every thing now. I don't want to get hurt."
Frank starts to walk away slowly.
"You can't shut yourself off from everyone!"
He ignores me and leaves down the corridor, I don't bother to follow he needs to be alone now.

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