"Gerard" I huff.

He turns his head to look me in the eye. "Yea?"

"Where Is the sweet understanding guy I know?"

"Don't play with me Iero. Don't play that card. Don't. This is truth juice, and you're bullshitting.. Mikey said that you're using me, I can't believe him, I still think you care, deep down. But, I can't force myself to wait for you.. and.. and .. and your insecurities."
He pushes his hair back out of his face, the black returns, framing his perfect pale skin. Perfect. Why must I always describe him so.. intentily, I mean I'm trying to get over him.. He's not helping. What could?

"You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth, And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same The more you change the less you feel Believe, believe in me, believe" I murmur.

"Frank.. don't use lyrics against me." he pouts.

"I don't like drunk Gerard" I bite my tongue, did I eally just..

"Neither do I.."

Hell, what am I doing? Falling in love with him all over again. Veronica's words melting away at his touch. Wait, Gerard's touching me. Why? What did I do?
When did he even get up from the curb? He embraces me in a hug, he smells like all the things I love, booze and cigs. He then starts to sway me like I did him weeks ago.

"No, I am sorry."

"I know."

Frank stops swaying with Gee and turns to look him in the eyes. "I'm so sorry."

"Frank.. I know" he furrows his eyebrows. He didn't understand.

"I did something really bad" Frank nervously bites at his lip ring and glues his eyes to the ground.

"Yeah, you took my virginity, lead me on.. fucked me hard again, by the way my ass feels like hell. Thanks for asking my dear."
Frank never realized how much he hurt the beautiful boy. Nobody is bulletproof.

---

"No.. I did something worse.."

"Did you pop another butt cherry?" Gerard burps, taking another chug off his beer.

"No.. yes.. maybe, not a butt cherry.." Frank frowns, the humor in the word gone.

"Oh."

"Listen.. she got me in a venerable state, a couple days after.. we made love.."

"You left me right after."

Frank sniffles, "And you forgave me?"

"Of course, because I'm so stupid to think you might actually like me."

"I..well.. uh.. she said it would help me forget you." A tear makes it's way out of Frank's eye. Falling onto the pavement.

"Why do you want to forget me?"

.."Because I'm sick of loving you."

"You really do love me.." Gerard smiles, he knew it.

"Veronica.. she's gonna keep helping me forget you. "

"You wont be able to forget me, she'll only feed the fire."

"You beautiful idiot.. I'm sorry."

---

"Why forget love? You can try.. but it drains..to desire.. You wont ever stop loving, obviously we've started something. Even if you force the feeling away you can still understand it's shadow, inside. -he places his hand on Frank's heart- Here. My dear, And you know you're never sure But you're sure you could be right If you held yourself up to the light.. You can't put the fire out.. tonight, tonight."

"Sounds like something a sober Gerard would say.." I wipe away some more tears, that made so much sense, but at the time it made none what so ever. Gerard mocks a smile, and seconds later he blows chunks on side walk. I pat his back.

"There we go.."


Gee puts a hand on my shoulder, "Please" he whispers. I give him a sad smile and I lean in for one last kiss, I don't care if he reeks, it's Gerard. Just one more..

---

I might begin to desire him, but I have Veronica.. I can't ever go back to that sidewalk, The place where I told him my disgusting truth, and he told me how I hurt him.
Love is like death, they say both are mysteries. There is no certain time for love and none for death. It is all inevitable.

---

"Rage in the cage And piss upon the stage There's only one sure way To bring the giant down Defunct the strings Of cemetery things With one flat foot On the devil's wing"

As I walk down the hall, everyone's staring at me, but it isn't the same.. it isn't disgust, it's envy. Or something like that, I can't read any fucking minds. I'm not the special shit of this school..

"Raping the geek And hustling the freak Like a hunchback juice On a sentimental noose
Operation filth They love to love the wealth Of an SS whore Making scary sounds" I pull my earbuds out when I see Bob approach me.

"Iero!"

"What?" I sniff.

"Good job, you scored grade A taint."

"Who.. Sawyer?"

"Duh!" he gave a billowing laugh and playfully shoved me like I was joking.

"Man, I can't believe a fag like you scored."

"I'm not a fag." All the memories of Gerard and I flooded my brain, him holding me.. me cuddling up to him on the swing set. A rush of rage came through me. Gerard.

"Bullshit, you gotta thing for me."

I snort "Yeah?"

He sticks his head up proud "Yeah."

At that moment everything exploded, like something snapped.. I am not a faggot, I'm not a sinner. I am not sick. I'm in love.

I scream and punch him in the gut, as he falls to the ground, he grabs for something to stabilize him, sadly they were my ear buds.
"Cyclone Jack Hallucinating hck
Thinks Donna Reed Eats dollar bills Gold foot machine Creates another fiend
So Beautiful,They make you kill" My music blasts for everyone to hear.

Bob grabs at his side and tries to stand up, but I punch in the face, harder than expected. Something cracks over the music, shit. Whatever, as Bob falls back onto the floor I kick him again, and again. "Blood on her skin Dripping with Sin Do it again Living dead girl"
Bob finally pulls me down on to floor with him, he pulls out a small pocket knife. "Sorry Iero."

We continue to wrestle out in blood for the next ten minutes ,I got the blade from him.
I feel someone pull me off of Bob. I turn to see who it is, I don't know.. it's a girl. "Hell.." she breathes, I look around us, at all the stunned faces, at the blood.. all the blood. Did we do that?

Bob lays there, coughing up something fierce. I turn to get a better look at the girl. "Help me please.." I whimper. She nods and pulls me away from the situation. But she stops as the front doors slam shut. Everyone turns to face the new excitement. "Holy fuck" the person walks down the hall to get a better look at the.. problem.
I struggle against the girls grasp, she tries to calm me down but I can't stop crying. That is because the intruder is the whole reason I beat the shit out of Bob. "What the hell.." Gerard takes off his sun glasses and looks at me. Sober now, he probably forgot everything we talked about. He forgot our last kiss. I cry harder at the thought.

"Frank.." Gerard steps over Bob.

I squirm, and make an inaudible sound.

"Hi." Gerard looks past me to the girl.

"What happened?"

"Little Frankie went all nutzo after Bobby made a stupid comment about Frankie bein' gay."

"Oh.."

"Gee.." I mumble, blood trailing from my mouth.

"What?"

"Do you remember the side walk?" I cry.

He nods his head, "Yes, of course.."

---

And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight

Notes

I used this music in the chapter
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BvsMPOfblfg Living Dead Girl// Rob Zombie
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NOG3eus4ZSo&index=2&list=RDEMMYwGC55iOnvsjVjmgauVHA Tonight, Tonight// The Smashing Pumpkins
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hQ-7JwRvbug Fuck Frankie// Marilyn Manson (for your own enjoyment)

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