(Love)letters <<<ON HOLD>>>

7:55am, Gerard was still sitting in his car, even though he promised his parents and Mikey that he would go see a doctor, he never actually thought about it until this very moment. What if they wanted him to speak? What if they hurt him?


7:57, Gerard took a deep breath, grabbed his whiteboard and put a marker in his jacket-pocket before heading to the waiting room.


When he got in there was a lady at the front desk that stopped him.


“Sir, i need you to check in with us before you enter the waiting room, can i please have your name?”


Gerard, anxiously scribbled his name onto the whiteboard and held it up for her. She looked mildly confused but lucky for him she didn’t ask any questions and just told him that he was good to go.


8:05, why are doctors always late? It seemed like Gerard had been sitting here for hours and he was getting more nervous every second.


8:15, “Gerard Way?” Gerard immediately turned his head to the direction his name was coming from. A lady, about 50 years old, was looking for someone to react. “Gerard Way?” she called out another time. Gerard stood up and gave her a small nod once they made eye contact. He shook her hand and she told her to follow him.


They entered this check-up room that was probably her office at the same time because it had all kinds of family photos on the walls. She sat at a small desk with a lamp, a computer and some notebooks and she told Gerard to sit at the other side. According to him she did this so that he couldn’t look at what she was writing about him.


“So Gerard, tell me why you’re here” She said with a soft smile. Gerard started writing on his whiteboard and handed it over to her once he was done writing. ‘i’m a mute so i hope you won’t mind it if we do it this way’ she read out loud and then looked at him. “Of course i don’t honey, if talking is a hard thing for you to do then i won’t make you.” Even though the problem wasn’t that it was ‘hard for him’ to talk, he was actually unable to get any form of sound out, he still appreciated this lady’s patience.


She handed him a notebook so he would have more room to write down his condition and he handed it back to her again. ‘fell down stairs at school, bruise on my arm and on my ribs, the on on my ribs looks really bad and hurts like…’ he didn’t actually want to write the word down but he knew that she would know what he was talking about anyways.


She let gerard sit on the hospital bed thingy and told him to take off his coat and sweater. At this moment gerard was grateful that he was wearing a t-shirt as well.


First she looked at his arm and felt it, and asked ‘does this hurt’ about 20 times. “your arm looks really bruised but it should look fine in about one, maybe two weeks.” Gerard nodded at her.


“Okay Gerard, can you now lift your shirt up for me?” Gerard didn’t think about it too much, this was the whole reason he was here after all. When the lady saw his ribs she gasped. She slightly touched it and the pain took Gerard by surprise, he didn’t remember it hurting this much. He grabbed at his ribs in pain and the lady told him that they had to take some X-Rays.


Gerard was actually happy to hear that because he might not be able to go to school at all today.


After the X-Ray was taken, Gerard was back in the living room where he had to stay for an hour and a half. He entertained himself by drawing on his whiteboard and erasing it again and by drinking cheap coffee. After the long wait the lady came back out and called his name. Gerard let out a sigh from relief and went with her.


She told Gerard to sit back down on the chair and grabbed the X-Rays from her desk to show him. “So, it looks like nothing is actually broken, so you should be grateful for that, but it’s heavily bruised so i guess you’ll have to be really careful. I also wrote you a recipe for some painkillers, so you can get those at the pharmacy by the front desk and i guess you’re good to go.”


Gerard gave her a nod and shook her hand once again before leaving. He got his painkillers and before he knew it he was back in his car. This was’t too bad after all. He looked at the time and noticed it was only 11:15am. His mom had told him to go back to school, but the doctor told him that he had to be careful and if he would go to school now he would have to participate in gym class. So he decided to hang out in his car until lunch time.


When Gerard finally got to school he sneaked in through the back entrance that’s normally always locked and waited in a bathroom stall until the bell rang. Then he rushed to the cafeteria and spotted Mikey and quickly sat down next to him. “Gee? What are you doing here? Did you go to the doctor’s?” Gerard had already written down the answers to these questions. ‘nothing’s broken, just bruised, sneaked in through backdoor’.
“you sneaked INTO school? you’re crazy!”, a smaller boy at the same table said.


Gerard had seen him before, this boy was in his gym-class, but he had never actually said anything to Gerard. Gerard just looked confused at him and Mikey, like the mindreader that he is, asked the boy to introduce himself. The boy said his name was Pete and he apologized for never even acknowledging Gerard and told him that he didn’t know how to deal with mute people, but then he said that he had realized that Gerard could just be treated like any other person (he probably got that from Mikey) Gerard just gave him a small smile, at least he might have someone to hang with during next gym class.


Lunch was over way too fast, and Gerard was actually really enjoying lunch with his brother and his crazy friends. When Gerard entered Mrs. Allen’s room he took his usual spot and waited for the period to start.


“Okay everyone, so i know not a lot of you will be excited about this but i look what i have here!” Gerard’s head shot up and Mrs. Allen’s hands were filled with envelopes. Gerard actually did get excited about this because this meant that he got to write a letter every other day!


While Mrs. Allen picked out the letters she was explaining “Okay so we let all the other students pick out your letters and reply to them in their own ways, you might get someone you’ll like and you might get someone you’ll dislike, just remember that this experiment will get graded in both schools so use appropriate language.”


Once she had handed out all the letters, Gerard noticed he was missing his but before he could say anything she called him to come up to her desk while the others were reading and writing.


“So Gerard, you have a different kind of letter than the others, the other school ran out of girls so your letter was the one picked by a boy, do you mind? Because i’m sure we will be able to figure something out if you don’t like this.” Gerard just motioned her to give him the reply to his letter and she gladly did so.


He sat back in his seat and looked at his envelope before opening it, it was definitely a boy who wrote this, no girl in the entire world’s handwriting could be this shitty to be honest. Gerard opened the envelope and pulled out a scrunched up piece of paper that was stuffed in the envelope instead of folded. Gerard just ignored that and started to read.



‘Hello Gerard,


My name is Frank, i'm 16, and i honestly do not care about your hobbies or family.


I’m not looking forward to this at all and so i’m not expecting anything, the only reason i’m doing this is for the grade.


Your emotional background story still makes me wanna throw up and by the way I’M NOT A GIRL.
Not looking forward to your next letter.


-Frank’



This honestly shocked Gerard, this Frank guy must be the least open minded person ever, but Gerard didn’t see this as another guy being an assehole to him. No, he saw this as a challenge, he had to write to this guy for the rest of the school year and he was gonna make him his best friend. It took Gerard three tries to get find the perfect words for his reply to Frank’s letter.



‘Frank,


No need to be mean, it’s not like i knew you were gonna be a guy when i was told you’d be a girl.


And honestly, who doesn’t like emotional background stories? Are you even human?


Do you honestly think that i’m still one bit excited for English class if i have someone like you to write to?


Thanks for ruining this for me,


-Gerard.’



Maybe if he acted the same way as Frank did, Frank would open up to him. Gerard put the letter in the envelope that he was given and gave it to Mrs. Allen before he walked out when the bell rang.


He walked straight to Mikey’s physics class again where Mikey was talking to Pete. When they noticed Gerard he gave them a small wave. “Gee, would it be okay with you if Pete would come over to watch a movie with us in your basement?” Mikey was giving him the puppy eyes and Gerard just rolled his eyes at his little brother before giving him a nod.


The walk home was kind of awkward, Pete was only talking to Mikey and didn’t include Gerard in the conversation at all. Gerard didn’t really think anything off it and just kind of went with it while walking home, this was still new to Pete after all.


“You guys go downstairs, i’ll make us some coffee.” Mikey announced. ‘great’ Gerard thought, this were gonna be the most painful 5 minutes of his life. But when he and Pete got downstairs he was proven wrong. “Dude, this room is awesome! Did you do this all on your own?” Pete asked while looking at the horror-themed walls that Gerard spray-painted with Mikey. Gerard quickly grabbed a sticky note from his desk and scribbled his answer on it. ‘Mikey helped’ it said. “i didn’t know that you guys were into art!” Gerard gave him a shy smile, not sure how to respond to this. “Do you guys do anything besides painting?”


At that moment Mikey came down and answered Pete before Gerard could. “Gerard is mainly into drawing and painting and i’m practicing videogame design, if you could call that art, oh and we used to play music together but we stopped whe-” Mikey realized he was getting carried away when Gerard stormed out of the basement. This was not something they were supposed to talk about and especially not when Gerard was there.


“Shouldn’t we run after him?” Pete asked, he knew way too well that he shouldn’t ask about the music thing but he was still worried about his friend’s brother. “Nah, if Gerard doesn’t wanna be found we won’t find him anyways, he has his phone on him so he’ll just text us when he’s in trouble.” So they watched a movie in Gerard’s room while they waited for him.


Gerard wasn’t far from home at all, he was just sitting on a bench at the park across the street. And it was still summer so it wouldn’t get dark until like 9 or 10. Gerard knew his brother wasn’t trying to hurt him, he was just getting overly excited, it happened a lot. But since his brother was the only one who knew what actually happened he was scared that he might spill it.
Gerard decided that he had sat there for long enough and decided to just walk around for a bit, but not too long because it was only tuesday. He decided to just walk around the pond, the park was quiet, probably because it was dinner time he guessed. He’d forgotten his phone on the desk in his room so he didn’t know the time for sure.


When he had been walking for about 20 minutes he heard some people behind him but didn’t think too much off it. It was a public park so it could be anyone. The voices became louder, meaning that someone came closer to Gerard. He vaguely recognized the voices but couldn’t place them so he looked over his shoulder. Eye-contact, wrong move. Gerard froze, Bert, Quinn and Jeph were standing right behind him. He looked around to see if he could get help but the only people that were in the park were too far away too see him and it wasn’t like he was actually able to scream.


Gerard sprinted as fast as he could, but the pain in his ribs got even worse when he ran so it didn’t take them long to catch up with him. Quinn knocked him to the ground and Gerard grabbed his ribs to protect them from the impact. He hit his head on the ground, not hard at all but he hoped they would be stupid enough to believe he was knocked out. Gerard closed his eyes and let his body go limp.


“Shit Quinn, you fucking idiot, you killed him!” Jeph was freaking out. “He’s not dead you idiots, he’s breathing” Bert said. “But we gotta hide him because i don’t want anyone to find him here like this.” Gerard felt the three guys pick him up but he didn’t dare to close his eyes. They walked a few steps while carrying Gerard and making a few comments about the way he smelled before Gerard felt himself being dropped. He immediately opened his eyes and hit the water at the same time. He heard them run away.


They fucking dropped him in the pond, really? There’s so many places where you could hide a body and they chose the pond, assholes. At least it wasn’t really deep so Gerard just climbed out. He wasn’t even covered in water, he was covered head to toe in mud. He walked straight home and ignored all the stares he got on the way.


Before entering the front door he realized that his parents would probably kill him if he came in like this and he really didn’t want to lie to them again anyways so he walked around the house to his little basement window and kept knocking on it until Mikey opened it. “Dude i’m so sorry, are you okay? You left your phone here and i was so wor- What happened to you?!” Gerard just climbed in and stood there in his room, Pete was sitting on the sofa in front of the tv and just watched the brothers. Gerard went to grab a notebook to write in it what had happened but Mikey stopped him “Let’s get you cleaned up first, then you can tell me.” Gerard just gave him a nod and went to his bathroom while Mikey picked out some clean clothes for him.


When Gerard was all clean he walked back in his room to find Pete passed out on the sofa. Mikey walked straight over to his brother to hear what had happened. Gerard wrote down ‘Bert and his little slaves happened, they didn’t hurt me but they dropped me in the pond at the park.’ Mikey just gave his brother a side hug, making sure to avoid his ribs. Mikey apologized about 50 more times before he woke Pete up to tell him that he should probably go home.


Gerard gave Pete a note before he left that said ‘i’m sorry for today, hopefully we can watch a movie together sometime soon.’ Pete told him that he was already looking forward to that and shook Gerard’s hand before leaving.


After that Gerard and Mikey microwaved some leftovers and took them downstairs to watch a movie while eating them and passed out together on the sofa.

Notes

I'm sorry that this took so long to post, i actually went to see frnkiero andthe cellabration live a few days ago and then thanksgiving happened and i'm a mess i'm sorry!!