Rays POV
Hello, it's me. I write everyday, but it's usually some random crap. But I was thinking today, all my friends are severely depressed. They all have there own problems. I feel horrible about that. There lives are crappy. I wish I could help them- but I can't. I can't do anything to help. I feel awful about that. I'm at the hospital in Frank's room. I wish I could do something good for them- I could set up Frank and Gee... But how I promised both I would never say anything. I knew they liked each other sense the well it feels like forever........
"I'm gonna do get some coffee do you want anything?," Gerard said getting up from his chair across the hospital room. "some chips, here lemme grab you a dollar-" I started grabbing dollar then Gee cut me off while walking out, "I will add it to your chip debt,". I laughed.
I went to continue writing so I adjusted my foot but I accidentally hit Frank's backpack. His journal went sliding across the room... I picked it up, but then I thought -what if I leak one of the pages written about Gee then Gee will no he likes him- my hand started to shake.
but he'll get pick on because well it's a journal, but when Gee finds out there will be nothing to be embarrassed about, it will be perfect.
I stuck his journal in my bad, I felt myself starting to sweat. But I knew I was doing a good thing. "I'm back," he said walking and handing me the chips. "I-I should go, I have stuff to do," I got up and grabbed my bag. "okay I will text you later," gee said sitting and drinking his coffee. I walked out and open my chips and began eating them.

what if I'm doing the wrong is wrong?.

Gerard's POV
He looked peaceful. I stared at him for the longest time. I pushed his body gently and sat next to him. I don't know what's wrong with him, they won't tell me because I'm not "family". I grabbed his hand and kissed his cheek. He won't remember this but I will. It was 6:45 and I did have to leave until 9:00pm so I turned on the tv and sat with Frank's peaceful body.

***2 hours later***
"Gee," I opened my eyes and look over at Frank who was awake. I must have passed out but that didn't matter then- he was awake. "Frank your awake!," I shouted. He didn't really notice we were holding hands so I quickly moved mine. "I have to tell the nurse," I pushed my hair out of my face. "Okay, haha you seem happy," he smile.
I walked out to find the nurse, but I found Frank's parents with the nurse. fuck. The nurse seemed scared. I walked up and closer. They looked my way so I went to the closest room there. and watch threw the door.
I felt something tugging at my shirt so I turned around, "hi," a small blonde girl was pulling on my shirt. "hey kiddo," I whispered "is it cool if I stay in here for five minutes,". "mhm," she said smiling and went back to her bed. "but you gotta tell me what you are doing first," she said coloring in her coloring book. "adult things," I said. "like what?,"l she continued to coloring. "in spying on someone. Some mean people," I said looking threw the door. "my parents are mean people. They kinda put me in here," I looked back at her and walked to her bed. "I'm sorry," I said. "it's fine," she looked up holding out her hand,"I'm Alice,". I grabbed her hand and shook it, " I'm Gerard," I said. "you have long hair for a boy," she moved her coloring book and grabbing another one. "haha yea," i pulled it behind my ear.
We talked for awhile. "Gerard?," I turned around to see Mrs. Iero. "hi," I stood up. "Frank's asking for you," she walked back to his room. I went to go too then, "will you come back?," she said. " I will come every Monday," I said. She brighten up, "really?!?," "of coarse," I said. "okay byebye," she went back to drawing, "bye," I walked out. "you have to go I just wanted to say bye," Frank was looking down. " I will come tomorrow," I said hugging him. "bye,"
I walked out hearing his mother scolding him. His father walked out a few seconds after me. Man I hate them so much. I got out of the hospital, Frank's dad still behind me. Before I knew it I was pinned up against the wall by his father, "you listen here, you don't come here again. Don't even think about coming in here. The nurse told me you kissed him on his cheek, holding hand, leave my son alone you bastard," he threw me on the ground and he walked back in, I hate him so much.

Ray's POV
I didn't have to go too far in the journal to find a drawing of Frank and Gerard kissing. Frank was was sitting on the ground and Gee was on top of him. On the bottom he wrote -"I wish Gee was mine, love Frank"-. I ripped out the page and made 35 copies. I planned to put them around the school, the day after Frank came back. I stuffed them all in my bad in a folder and put the journal in my bag. I put the bag in the left back corner of my room by the window, and went to my bed and started reading.
"hey," Gee said standing in the door of it room,"I have a key remember?," he smiled. "yeah I remember, what's up," I said putting my book to the side. "have you seen Mikey? he's not home. I'm scared of where he's at," Gee came in and sat at the other edge of the bed. "I mean- did you know that he knocked up Emily," he put his face in his hands.
"yeah I did," I looked down and brought my legs in a crisscross style. "of coarse you did," his eyes were red. The one that was bruised looked like it hurt," I never thought he could do that, ya know? He had always been nice and sweet then mom got sick, Bob died- and he changed. He started having sex, at 13. Still a child. What the fuck," he got up. "I'm sorry Gerard. I wish I could help,"I sighed. We were in silence. "I'm sorry to bother you that's all I needed," he stood up and walked out.

Notes

oml I'm home sick ;~; much sadness