Say This is a Joke, To Love
chapter 18- im so sorry
Dear Diary,
I did something... Something wrong, something I'd never except me to do. I cheated. I didn't want to. All I did go to the bar and I wanted to settle my problems there. But my mind went To other places- hell I don't remember after I walked in. But I woke up in Berts bed. I was shocked and left right away. I can't believe I, I'm such a failure. I'm can't tell Frank. I must never tell Frank.
-Gerard
Frank's POV
I sat in Gerard's room, and I didn't think he would want to see me- ever. So I picked up my stuff and moved it to the basement were the guest room was.
I waited.
I waited until 4:00am, then went to the basement, it was around 6:00 am and I couldn't sleep still.
I walked up the stairs to Gerard's hoping- some how he'd be in there.
To hear me say I was sorry and how I knew he was trying to help and protect me. But he couldn't and I made sure he knew that.
I opened the door to his room walking in slowly, "Gee," I mumbled. "Yea," he answered. "I'm… sorry," I began to cry. He ran up to me holding his arms.
i couldn't say it.
"no I'm sorry Frank, I shouldn't have-," before he could finished I made my lips touch his. He slipped his tongue into my mouth, then I quickly pulling away.
My face turned red.
The taste of cigarettes and beer was in his mouth. Something gross, something that- my fathers mouth would taste like.
"I'm sorry gee... I'm just sleepy," I laughed awkwardly.
He chuckled, picking me up bridal style. "It's perfectly okay," he smiled putting me on the bed. I layed down pulling the blankets on top of me.
Feeling Gerards warmth on the side of me and his arms wrapped around me made me feel safe
. Gerard's POV
I crawled to the window around 2:00am.
Trying to remember what happened that night.
But it couldn't get to my head I wasted 4 hours just trying to remember the night before. I sighed. Realizing I can't change what have done. I messed up.
The door slowly opened.
"Gee," Frank mumbled.
"Yea," i answered softly .
"I'm… sorry," He began to cry.
No, you shouldn't be crying. I should be crying. I cheated on you,but sadly I can't confess I did. You'll leave me my Frankie.
I ran up to me holding his arms, "no I'm sorry Frank, I shouldn't have-," before i could finished his lips touch mine.
I tried slipped my tongue into his mouth, then he quickly pulled away. Then i remembered, my mouth tasted like cigarettes and boozes. So I just shrugged it off.
His face turned red. It was honestly the cutest thing I'd ever see. I felt bad but it was honestly cute.
"I'm sorry gee... I'm just sleepy," he laughed. I chuckled, picking him up bridal style. "It's perfectly okay," I smiled putting me on the bed listening lightly He layed down pulling the blankets on top of himself. I wrapped my arms around his side. Even though I'm taller he held me close.
I still couldnt sleep after Frank fell asleep, so I quietly got out of bed and grabbed my phone quickly. Going back to bed. I planed on just going on tumblr or wattpad but some odd number blew up my phone.
+444392919238 3:30am
Come on baby why did you leave, I bet you had more fun with me than Frank.
Bert, this couldn't be happening
+444392919238 3:45am
Don't worry it's gonna be our little secret.
+444392919238 4:10am
Gerard answer me
+444392919238 4:20am
You know what actually happened don't you.
What he was talking about.
+444392919238 4:30am
I'm so sorry. It's become a habit now. First Frank, now you.
What is he talking about, I thought.
+444392919238 4:32am
Don't go to the police please.
Then I knew.
^ +444392919238 had been blocked^
I did something... Something wrong, something I'd never except me to do. I cheated. I didn't want to. All I did go to the bar and I wanted to settle my problems there. But my mind went To other places- hell I don't remember after I walked in. But I woke up in Berts bed. I was shocked and left right away. I can't believe I, I'm such a failure. I'm can't tell Frank. I must never tell Frank.
-Gerard
Frank's POV
I sat in Gerard's room, and I didn't think he would want to see me- ever. So I picked up my stuff and moved it to the basement were the guest room was.
I waited.
I waited until 4:00am, then went to the basement, it was around 6:00 am and I couldn't sleep still.
I walked up the stairs to Gerard's hoping- some how he'd be in there.
To hear me say I was sorry and how I knew he was trying to help and protect me. But he couldn't and I made sure he knew that.
I opened the door to his room walking in slowly, "Gee," I mumbled. "Yea," he answered. "I'm… sorry," I began to cry. He ran up to me holding his arms.
i couldn't say it.
"no I'm sorry Frank, I shouldn't have-," before he could finished I made my lips touch his. He slipped his tongue into my mouth, then I quickly pulling away.
My face turned red.
The taste of cigarettes and beer was in his mouth. Something gross, something that- my fathers mouth would taste like.
"I'm sorry gee... I'm just sleepy," I laughed awkwardly.
He chuckled, picking me up bridal style. "It's perfectly okay," he smiled putting me on the bed. I layed down pulling the blankets on top of me.
Feeling Gerards warmth on the side of me and his arms wrapped around me made me feel safe
. Gerard's POV
I crawled to the window around 2:00am.
Trying to remember what happened that night.
But it couldn't get to my head I wasted 4 hours just trying to remember the night before. I sighed. Realizing I can't change what have done. I messed up.
The door slowly opened.
"Gee," Frank mumbled.
"Yea," i answered softly .
"I'm… sorry," He began to cry.
No, you shouldn't be crying. I should be crying. I cheated on you,but sadly I can't confess I did. You'll leave me my Frankie.
I ran up to me holding his arms, "no I'm sorry Frank, I shouldn't have-," before i could finished his lips touch mine.
I tried slipped my tongue into his mouth, then he quickly pulled away. Then i remembered, my mouth tasted like cigarettes and boozes. So I just shrugged it off.
His face turned red. It was honestly the cutest thing I'd ever see. I felt bad but it was honestly cute.
"I'm sorry gee... I'm just sleepy," he laughed. I chuckled, picking him up bridal style. "It's perfectly okay," I smiled putting me on the bed listening lightly He layed down pulling the blankets on top of himself. I wrapped my arms around his side. Even though I'm taller he held me close.
I still couldnt sleep after Frank fell asleep, so I quietly got out of bed and grabbed my phone quickly. Going back to bed. I planed on just going on tumblr or wattpad but some odd number blew up my phone.
+444392919238 3:30am
Come on baby why did you leave, I bet you had more fun with me than Frank.
Bert, this couldn't be happening
+444392919238 3:45am
Don't worry it's gonna be our little secret.
+444392919238 4:10am
Gerard answer me
+444392919238 4:20am
You know what actually happened don't you.
What he was talking about.
+444392919238 4:30am
I'm so sorry. It's become a habit now. First Frank, now you.
What is he talking about, I thought.
+444392919238 4:32am
Don't go to the police please.
Then I knew.
^ +444392919238 had been blocked^
Notes
hey guys and gals and non binary pals,...IM SORRY I GOT MYSELF GROUNDED(you know because im a horrible teenager)I WROTE THE BEST I COULD ON MY SCHOOL TABLET BUT THEY READ THREW OUR EMAILS SO ITS KINDA HARD. ill update tomorrow
@MCR IS MY LIFE
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3/16/16