I still remember the day when he throw me a surprise birthday party,it was two years ago, he gave me a promise ring to stay true to me, i still wear it till today,once i was mad at him, so i took off the ring and threw it out of the Window, then i broke down and cried, and i got down and got it. I woke up in the morning, and Gerard was still asleep, i got up and called Frank to tell him that I made my decision, i met him 15 minutes later at Starbucks, we sat down and talked. "so did you make your decision?? " Frank said. I nodded" i-i want to- i want to go with you Frank!" i sighed. He took my hands "you've made the right choice, don't worry" he smiled. "i don't want Gerard to know" i sob. "i understand, but your going to just leave? " he shrugged. " I'm planning on writing him a letter before i leave" i hide my head. "it's okay, just... Everything is going to be fine, I'm here with you... Just remember you only have three days till California " he touched my cheek. That day i came back home and i was crying on the way so my eyes were puffy red, i saw Gerard was still asleep so i lay with him and kissed his lips, he woke up sober and we had sex, we did it for a really long time, that day i was frightened of the idea of leaving him, so i didn't let him go, at night he went out to get drunk, and i sat down writing my letter, started with" Dear Gerard... "

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she's going oww :(