Bury Me In Your Black
Just Another Sad Song
It was the end of school,i got out of class and looked for my sister,i looked for her every where, i didn't find her!
i got a text from my mom saying that she picked her up because she wasn't feeling well,so i can get back on my own..
i was thrilled to hear that,and for once luck was on my side,so i texted my mom back that i have something to do with my friends and i won't be back until 7..she texted me back saying it's okay,and warned me to not to be late!
I waited for Gerard outside..
he got out and i told him everything..
he was excited,he didn't have a ride so i took him to his house..
when we reached his house,he got the keys and opened the door then shouted "Donna!!"
apparently that was his mother,she welcomed me with a hug..
and as we got it in,i saw two boys sitting on the couch
"Frank,Mikey this is Lita" he said happily
i shook hand with the two boys,Mikey was slim and tall,he had glasses on,as for Frank he had pierces and a black hair and he was a bit short,both of them were nice
"so how the hell did this turd got a girl home?" frank exclaimed
"Frankie,watch your mouth,we have a guest" Donna shouted from the kitchen as Gerard poked his friend
"Gerard honey,go show the nice girl around,the dinner will be ready in minutes" Donna exclaimed
"okay mom!,let's go Lita" he replied
as we were walking around he showed me the living room which was big and tidy
"do you want to see his room?" Mikey exclaimed
Gerard gave mikey a harsh look
"Umm...if Gerard won't mind,i guess" i replied nervously
Gerard nodded then i followed him to his room,basement!
he lived in a basement,which was kinda cool,i would like to be isolated from most of the people
"so this is my room,i hope you don't think of me as a weirdo or something,because i live in a basement" he said nervously
"no it's cool,i wish my mom would let me take the basement,i prefer isolation"
"me too"
as i was walking around i saw beautiful paintings Gerard made,it was dark and hard to understand but i really liked his style
"you draw really good Gerard,like really Good!"
"thanks" he replied softly
after 10 minutes Donna called us to dinner and me and the three boys sat on the table..
"Gerard,why won't you eat?" Donna asked her son
"I'm not hungry" he said looking at his lap
"honey,what did you eat today?"
"Cheese burger from school"
"you must be hungry,eat something" Donna demanded!
"I'm not hungry!" he demanded
Donna gave Gerard a harsh look then he kept messing around with his food..
"he doesn't eat because he thinks he's fat,people called him fat" Frank whispered to me
"he's not fat!" i demanded
Gerard stormed out after he heard what Frank said about him and went down to his room..
"here we go again Gerard! please come back" Donna exclaimed giving Frank a cruel look
"sorry" frank sarcastically said..
as Gerard left the table,i understood when he told me "school problems" people called him fat,that's why he avoids people!
i excused myself and got down to Gerard room..
i knocked then i said "Gerard are you okay?"
"I'm sorry you had to see this,I'm just in a bad mood" he replied with a shaky voice
"won't you please come up and eat something?,just for your mom,please?" i asked softly
he did not answer.
"Gerard please!"
he did not answer too
"You can beg him forever he won't come out" Frank exclaimed
i ignored Frank
"okay.can i come in Gerard please?"
"please?" i repeted softly
he opened the door and i came in and sat on his bed..
"look I'm sorry,you were coming here to have fun and i totally fucked it up for you,I'm sorry" he said softly
"no it's fine Gerard,i totally understand what you have been through" i replied softly
"do you?,tell me do you?" he said replied
"yeah,i've been bullied alot too,people told me i should kill myself,they made fun of me and made me a joke,but you know how did they stop?,if you showed them you don't give a fuck about their bullshit"
"no,you don't understand,i've been the fat kid,who got slammed with lockers,who had to go with one of my female friends to prom because i don't have a date" he said in a shaky voice
"oh Gerard,just let it go if you held to these shit,you will die every second,yeah everyone one got bullied but who listen?" i replied softly
he stayed silent and nodded
i wanted to cheer up Gerard..i really wanted to
i looked at his pile of cd's
"you have some cool tunes Gee,you have an awesome music taste" i said offering a smile
he smiled a little then got back to his misery..
"do you like blur Gerard?" i asked softly
"yes,but i dont have any of their cd's" he muttered
"i have one in my car,i'll go get it" i said happily
i left his room running to my car
"is he's okay?" Donna nervously asked
"he's just fine Ms.way,don't worry,infact were gonna listen to some music" i said with a smile on my face
she smiled and nodded
"can we have you here always you're like a little angel" Donna said sofftly
"i can try" i mummered
"go off you dont wanna get your grumpy boyfriend waiting" Frank said sarcastically as Mikey poked him and Donna gave him a harsh look
i got blur cd,blur which was my favorite album
i got to Gerard room and played the cd..
we had a great time,i gave him the cd so he can give it another listen
he got upstairs finally and sat on the table eating and offering smiles and laughing
"Thank you" Donna whispered with me with a wink
I nodded with a smile
the strange thing at Gerard house i felt like a whole new person,i was talking with him like i knew him since ever and sharing stories and jokes,time passed by and it was already 7 i felt sad for leaving the Way family,but i knew i wanted to go tomorrow again..
As Donna hugged me and the other boys
before i got into my car Gerard talked to me on the way out
"i just want to thank you for today,it was awesome,i just met you today and you're awesome as fuck Lita!" he said happily
"thanks Gee,you were write you're all a bunch of crazy punks" i said sarcastically
he giggled then hugged me
and i got into my car and went home.
"it's 7,30 where are you?!" mom yelled at me at the door
"i was at my new friends house,we listened to music had fun,and there house is a half hour away from ours" i replied in a tired voice
"what friends do you have?"mom sarcastically said
"Umm...i just met them today and they were alot of fun"
"what are their names?huh?"
"Umm...Jacey,Frankie and...Michelle" i answered nervously
She nodded then she offered me dinner but i told her that i already ate,so I'm just gonna do my homework and go to sleep..
Honestly i couldn't focus on homework so i ended up staring at my homework and picturing Gerard,i liked everyone but gee is diffrenent i can't wait to see him again
i kept thinking about Gerard till i fell asleep.
i got a text from my mom saying that she picked her up because she wasn't feeling well,so i can get back on my own..
i was thrilled to hear that,and for once luck was on my side,so i texted my mom back that i have something to do with my friends and i won't be back until 7..she texted me back saying it's okay,and warned me to not to be late!
I waited for Gerard outside..
he got out and i told him everything..
he was excited,he didn't have a ride so i took him to his house..
when we reached his house,he got the keys and opened the door then shouted "Donna!!"
apparently that was his mother,she welcomed me with a hug..
and as we got it in,i saw two boys sitting on the couch
"Frank,Mikey this is Lita" he said happily
i shook hand with the two boys,Mikey was slim and tall,he had glasses on,as for Frank he had pierces and a black hair and he was a bit short,both of them were nice
"so how the hell did this turd got a girl home?" frank exclaimed
"Frankie,watch your mouth,we have a guest" Donna shouted from the kitchen as Gerard poked his friend
"Gerard honey,go show the nice girl around,the dinner will be ready in minutes" Donna exclaimed
"okay mom!,let's go Lita" he replied
as we were walking around he showed me the living room which was big and tidy
"do you want to see his room?" Mikey exclaimed
Gerard gave mikey a harsh look
"Umm...if Gerard won't mind,i guess" i replied nervously
Gerard nodded then i followed him to his room,basement!
he lived in a basement,which was kinda cool,i would like to be isolated from most of the people
"so this is my room,i hope you don't think of me as a weirdo or something,because i live in a basement" he said nervously
"no it's cool,i wish my mom would let me take the basement,i prefer isolation"
"me too"
as i was walking around i saw beautiful paintings Gerard made,it was dark and hard to understand but i really liked his style
"you draw really good Gerard,like really Good!"
"thanks" he replied softly
after 10 minutes Donna called us to dinner and me and the three boys sat on the table..
"Gerard,why won't you eat?" Donna asked her son
"I'm not hungry" he said looking at his lap
"honey,what did you eat today?"
"Cheese burger from school"
"you must be hungry,eat something" Donna demanded!
"I'm not hungry!" he demanded
Donna gave Gerard a harsh look then he kept messing around with his food..
"he doesn't eat because he thinks he's fat,people called him fat" Frank whispered to me
"he's not fat!" i demanded
Gerard stormed out after he heard what Frank said about him and went down to his room..
"here we go again Gerard! please come back" Donna exclaimed giving Frank a cruel look
"sorry" frank sarcastically said..
as Gerard left the table,i understood when he told me "school problems" people called him fat,that's why he avoids people!
i excused myself and got down to Gerard room..
i knocked then i said "Gerard are you okay?"
"I'm sorry you had to see this,I'm just in a bad mood" he replied with a shaky voice
"won't you please come up and eat something?,just for your mom,please?" i asked softly
he did not answer.
"Gerard please!"
he did not answer too
"You can beg him forever he won't come out" Frank exclaimed
i ignored Frank
"okay.can i come in Gerard please?"
"please?" i repeted softly
he opened the door and i came in and sat on his bed..
"look I'm sorry,you were coming here to have fun and i totally fucked it up for you,I'm sorry" he said softly
"no it's fine Gerard,i totally understand what you have been through" i replied softly
"do you?,tell me do you?" he said replied
"yeah,i've been bullied alot too,people told me i should kill myself,they made fun of me and made me a joke,but you know how did they stop?,if you showed them you don't give a fuck about their bullshit"
"no,you don't understand,i've been the fat kid,who got slammed with lockers,who had to go with one of my female friends to prom because i don't have a date" he said in a shaky voice
"oh Gerard,just let it go if you held to these shit,you will die every second,yeah everyone one got bullied but who listen?" i replied softly
he stayed silent and nodded
i wanted to cheer up Gerard..i really wanted to
i looked at his pile of cd's
"you have some cool tunes Gee,you have an awesome music taste" i said offering a smile
he smiled a little then got back to his misery..
"do you like blur Gerard?" i asked softly
"yes,but i dont have any of their cd's" he muttered
"i have one in my car,i'll go get it" i said happily
i left his room running to my car
"is he's okay?" Donna nervously asked
"he's just fine Ms.way,don't worry,infact were gonna listen to some music" i said with a smile on my face
she smiled and nodded
"can we have you here always you're like a little angel" Donna said sofftly
"i can try" i mummered
"go off you dont wanna get your grumpy boyfriend waiting" Frank said sarcastically as Mikey poked him and Donna gave him a harsh look
i got blur cd,blur which was my favorite album
i got to Gerard room and played the cd..
we had a great time,i gave him the cd so he can give it another listen
he got upstairs finally and sat on the table eating and offering smiles and laughing
"Thank you" Donna whispered with me with a wink
I nodded with a smile
the strange thing at Gerard house i felt like a whole new person,i was talking with him like i knew him since ever and sharing stories and jokes,time passed by and it was already 7 i felt sad for leaving the Way family,but i knew i wanted to go tomorrow again..
As Donna hugged me and the other boys
before i got into my car Gerard talked to me on the way out
"i just want to thank you for today,it was awesome,i just met you today and you're awesome as fuck Lita!" he said happily
"thanks Gee,you were write you're all a bunch of crazy punks" i said sarcastically
he giggled then hugged me
and i got into my car and went home.
"it's 7,30 where are you?!" mom yelled at me at the door
"i was at my new friends house,we listened to music had fun,and there house is a half hour away from ours" i replied in a tired voice
"what friends do you have?"mom sarcastically said
"Umm...i just met them today and they were alot of fun"
"what are their names?huh?"
"Umm...Jacey,Frankie and...Michelle" i answered nervously
She nodded then she offered me dinner but i told her that i already ate,so I'm just gonna do my homework and go to sleep..
Honestly i couldn't focus on homework so i ended up staring at my homework and picturing Gerard,i liked everyone but gee is diffrenent i can't wait to see him again
i kept thinking about Gerard till i fell asleep.
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7/29/13