Gerard actually taught me how to draw, and i was in love with drawing because it turned out to be fantastic, he kept checking on my drawing, he once said i draw better than him, but he was joking, i still remember everything he said to me, everything sweet, that's why i loved him. It was Thursday afternoon i was sitting with Frank in Starbucks, unfortunately Gerard used to get in a lot of fights so they weren't friends anymore, it was a week after my graduation, my mom wanted me to get in law school for a reason, i didn't wanted to, i often worked as a waitress at Sand bar, just to pay my rent while i was in college, i also worked as a tutor and a babysitter , anyway, i was glaring at the sky, thinking of Gerard. "it's been a week, don't you think it's time for you to actually live your life" Frank sighed. "i don't know about it Frank, it's just i can't leave Gerard, not in this way" i took a deep breath. "so your going to get stuck with him?, he's not your husband, your not married, you don't even love each other anymore! " Frank demanded. I remembered the marriage promise he made, three years ago. " i can't.. I-" he cut me off, "yeah, yeah, you can't leave him because your the only one by he's side, but what about you think about yourself" he held my hands. I turned away and took a deep breath. "look, me and my band are going to California next week, you should come with me, start your life over!, you'll get a house just for your own, and you won't worry about him anymore" he smiled. "Frank, leaving Gerard isn't easy, i just can't do it, i just can't " as I'm starting to sob. " okay it's okay, don't cry everything is going to be fine, just think about it, okay? " he said touching my cheek. I nodded, trying not to cry. Suddenly my phone buzzed, it was Gerard. " Hey baby, i- I'm so drunk right now, i b-barely ca-an see" he chuckled. "okay I'm coming " i sighed as Frank rolled his eyes. " come on, I'll drive you there" he shrugged. That day i got back to my house and Gerard had spilled all of he's alcohol on my carpet, and i came back just yelling at him, while he was giggling, i ended up throwing that carpet away. "i can't leave you alone for an hour, and i come home with the smell of alcohol in the air and fucking alcohol on my goddamn carpet! " i yelled. " it sucks doesn't it? " he laughed. " that's it no more shit for you mister! " i grab the bottles and spill them in the sink. " your such a fucking asshole, i paid money for that" he yelled. "yeah, a fucking money that should have gone to your landlord so he won't kick you the fuck out of your apartment" i demanded. "just stop acting like you are my mother, i dont know you anymore" he yelled. "you know what!?, yes I'm not your mother, but i fucking care!, because honestly i don't know where that Gerard i knew years ago, it's been a week since i graduated and I'm still working my ass off, just for you, because you don't think that one day i might leave you" i yelled crying. "go ahead, leave me like everyone did!, I'm gonna get the shit out of here" he shrugged. "go, sk you can come back at night and say your sorry, because that time you'll actually will be fucking sober" i yelled as he closed the door behind him. I sat down on the couch looking around, fucking bottles everywhere, everything is a mess, i yelled Ugh!!! And got up to clean the house, again.

Notes

so tell me what you think its not over yet.