it's been almost three years with Gerard,a lot happened in those three years,Gerard is 20 now and I'm 18,He got into art school,I had a couple of weeks till I graduate, he got into drugs and alcohol, we fought a lot, when he was high and drunk, i felt like I hated him, when he was sober, he was the sweetest man ever, i used to yell at him for drinking too much, he smoked too and he was an addict, a lot of times we had sex, mostly after we had fights, suddenly Frank was my best friend, he's band started to get famous, everyone around me was telling me to leave him, that he's probably gonna die with a drug over dose, even my mom felt pitty for me, he was a mess, most of the time he isolated himself in his room, i couldn't just leave him, every time I had fights with him he would call me back when he's sober and apologies to me, i always forgived him, i always cared for him, he hated everyone around, I, well I was a distraction from he's miserable life. That time I managed to get a little apartment for myself, Gerard had an apartment too, often he had no money from buying alcohol, and he's landlord kicked him out till he gets some money, he used to stay with me, i would spill all his alcohol bottles in the sink while he was asleep, and when he woke up he used to yell at me, and sleeps on the couch, and at night he would come to my bed and have sex with me, because he was half sober, half high, and part of his brain was actually working. I felt so sad, everyday he would call me sobbing or giggling, sometimes even Mikey comes but when Mikey left to Florida when he married Alicia, i was the only one who's there for him, he had a lot of fights with his mom too, that's why she was tired of him, she even told me leaving him was the best thing to do. Our love was gone or not around sometimes, since he started to be an an alcoholic, many people gave up on him, he was devastated since his grandmother died. One day i reached to point to choose either stay with him in case he got better, or i would just walk away.

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So,sorry if It looks messed up I know /.\ anyway I need your opinions either finishing the story or go on? please! please! i'd love to hear it from you :)