So, all day, I've been looking forward to a Halloween party my friend E is throwing tonight (the one where Cherry is GWay and I'm LynZ) and, just a few minutes ago, I suddenly do not want to go. It's like a flipped switch. I just want to stay home and watch Final Desitanation and Oujia and Carrie, i don't wanna go to a Halloween party anymore.

But my mom, she goes "You're going to this party, whether you want to or not" because she doesn't think I'n social enough.

In my head, I was like "Yo, I cleaned my goddamn room today, I'm going to church with you tomorrow, let me stay home" but I alsmost started to cry and I just said "Okay"

My mom pisses me off. All the time.

And there's not point in going to the party anymore anyway 'cause Cherry's out of town for a lacrosse game, so he won't even be there.

Okay, yeah, I'm just pissed today.

AND ANOTHER THING
i don't usually do to church because my mom is a really big religion nut, right? And her daughter (me), not only am I gay, I write and read gay porn. I'm sure the pastor will be able to smell the sin on me. Usually, I forgo church, mainly because I don't feel like getting up at 9:00 in the morning and hearing some old dude harp about how I'm ungodly or some shit, but Mom is forcing me and I'm just really upset and, again, want to stay home tonight


but, no I can't, I have to go to a fucking party when she knows I get overwhelmed socially all the time (if I'm in public and too much is going on, I'll just start to cry and I can't stop until I'm removed from the situation), and GOD I WANT TO SLEEP AND WROTE MY GAY PORN

IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK

IF I GET TO STAY HOME TONIGHT, EXPECT A SMUTTY FREARD ONE SHOT

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xoøli

p.s (tell me your plans for tonight and maybe I'll answer back
I'm really bad at answering back)