Three is a Crowd

Amanda spent her Saturday in her apartment, letting herself wallow in her misery. She watched funny movies all day and ate her weight in ice cream, grateful that her friends Ben and Jerry were always there for her no matter what. She had successfully screwed up in a way she never thought possible. While all her friends were in normal, committed relationships, she was caught in a weird fucked up triangle that would lead to nothing but heartbreak. Walking away was painful, but if she went along with Gerard’s fucked up desires she would be trampled on like Frank said. As much as she liked to think she would be strong enough to stand up for herself, she knew Gerard would get whatever he wanted from her. She was a pushover at heart and Gerard would use it to his advantage. The reason he was so successful was because he knew how to exploit people for his own gain. He was sharp, shrewd and amazingly observant. He probably knew her better than she knew herself, which was something that filled her with fear. Nobody liked the idea of being so easily manipulated by a person who was as dominant as Gerard. She wasn’t a character from Fifty Shades who wanted a strong powerful man to make her decisions for her. She wanted to be herself, and being with Gerard, and Frank, would mean she would lose a part of herself.

As she watched Christian declare his love for Satine on the TV screen, she wondered why she couldn’t find that, someone who wanted her and only her, who wouldn’t be afraid to declare it to the world. Her thoughts started to overwhelm her and she wished that she could be swept into oblivion. Andy’s cocktail from last night would be the perfect solution to her current problem. Making a snap decision, she changed out of her pyjama’s and threw on skinny jeans and a tight fitting t-shirt, looking presentable enough to walk into a bar but not dressed up to impress. She wanted to out and get hammered, not socialise. Throwing her keys and wallet into a bag she slammed the door behind her and made her way to the bar with quick determined steps.

The bar was packed with people, all dressed to the nines and in groups. She made her way to the front bar and smiled when she saw Andy, who was making small talk with a customer. She took a seat close to him, hoping he would notice her. She waited for about five minutes before he glanced at her for a second, doing a double take of recognition. He smiled and nodded at her in acknowledgement, finishing his conversation with the man in front of him before making his way over to her.

‘Back so soon?’ He asked with a wide smile, showing his perfectly straight white teeth.

‘I had a rough night last night and could really do with getting drunk into oblivion. I was hoping you could help’ she couldn’t help but smile back at him. His smile was extremely infectious, making Amanda feel better just by being in his presence.

He laughed.

‘One mind fuck coming up’ he said, turning his back to her and making the blue cocktail that tasted like a piece of heaven. Her mouth watered at the thought of it and she looked forward to the hangover she would have tomorrow, one that would hopefully take up her day and make her forget about Gerard until Monday morning. When Andy returned with the drink she took it from him gratefully, taking a sip the moment it was in her hands.

‘Wanna talk about it?’ Andy asked, his eyes fixed on her as she took a deep sip from the glass.

‘It’s a long story.’

‘They’re my favourite kind of stories.’

‘You wouldn’t believe me.’

‘Give me a try.’

She laughed, taking another long sip making her glass half empty already.

She thought for a moment, wondering how to word the situation she found herself in.

‘I got an interesting…proposition’ she began slowly.

‘Oh’ Andy’s eyebrows raised a cheeky smile on his face that showed she had his full attention.

‘I turned it down, but I can’t get it out of my head. The whole situation is fucked up and I just want to drink myself in oblivion and forget it all for one night.’

‘Is that a good idea?’ He questioned, concern etched on his face. ‘ Hurting yourself won’t make it go away.’

‘No, but it help me let off steam. I can’t talk to my friends about it so I need a way to vent.’

‘You should at least have a drinking buddy to look out for you. It’s not exactly safe for a woman to go out and get hammered by myself. There are a lot of sketchy people around who wouldn’t think twice about taking advantage.’

Amanda rolled her eyes.

‘I don’t need someone to look out for me, I’m a big girl’ she said with a smile, feeling slightly touched by his concern.

He let out a sigh, and checked the time on his watch.

‘Tell you what, I’m finished in half an hour. I’ll keep you company for a while.’

‘I don’t need a babysitter’ she giggled, finishing her drink and enjoying its effects as she felt herself loosening up and begin to relax.

‘Good, ‘cause I suck at babysitting. I am a good drinking buddy though, from what I’ve been told.’ He gave her a charming smile, and she felt herself melt a little bit. She laughed and knew she was blushing as he smiled at her.

‘Well, if you’ve got nothing better to do then I guess your company wouldn’t be a total drag.’ She teased, feeling a bit more confident.

He laughed and cocked an eyebrow at her. He opened his mouth to say something when someone caught his attention.

‘I better go and do my job before my boss gets pissed. Wait here and I’ll join you when I’m finished.’

‘Sure.’

He gave her one last smile before walking away.

She spent the next half an hour staring at Andy when he wasn’t looking at her. He caught her once or twice, giving her a smile and making her blush. Andy seemed like the kind of guy that would be a caring, respectful boyfriend. He barely knew her but, he was looking out for her, so she could only imagine how he would treat a girl he actually cared about. She felt a twinge of sadness over the fact that he was had a girlfriend. Amanda let her thoughts drift into a fantasy world where men didn’t exist and where she would be free from the hassle they brought into her life. She firmly believed that the world would be a more peaceful place if men didn’t inhabit it. She was so lost in her fantasy that she didn’t notice Andy sitting taking the seat beside her, putting a drink and a shot in front of her.

‘Earth to Amanda’ he mocked, waving his hand in front of her as he abruptly wretched her away from her fantasy.

‘Sorry’ she laughed.

‘It’s fine, I’m just curious to know what you were thinking about, whatever it was it sure seemed like fun’ he teased.

‘I was just imagining a world where men didn’t exist. I think the world would be a much better place’ she stated.

‘Ouch, I’ve got a man hater on my hands. Maybe I should leave while I still have my balls intact’ he laughed.

She burst out laughing, finding that once she started she couldn’t stop for a full two minutes. She clutched her stomach, the muscles starting to hurt from their overuse.

‘Damn that cocktail really works’ he noted with a smile, before downing a shot of what looked like Sambuca. He down another one quickly making Amanda raise her eyebrow at him.

‘What? I gotta catch up!’ he said defensively.

‘Hey, I didn’t say anything’ she said, shaking her head.

‘So, tell me more about this proposition.’ He asked, not trying to hide his curiosity.

She bit her lip, wondering how much she should tell him. He knew Frank and Gerard after all, and she didn’t want to tell Andy information about their personal life.

‘There’s this guy in work,’ she began, ‘a guy I really like. The problem is that he’s an asshole, and taken. He then tells me that he not only has feelings for me but that he also wants to be with me.’

‘So, what’s the problem?’

‘Well, he doesn’t want to leave his partner.’

‘Oh, he wants you as a bit on the side?’

‘No, more he wants some weird, fucked up three way relationship.’

‘Wow’ was Andy’s reply, looking stumped for words.

‘That’s a pretty fucked up situation.’ He finally said after a moment of silence.

‘I know. The thing is I actually considered it. I’m in love with this guy and I want him so much, but I can’t stand the idea of having to share him. It’s too much to ask of someone.’

Andy nodded in agreement. ‘It takes a very strong person to be able to handle a relationship like that. Human beings are jealous creatures. We don’t like sharing what we think belongs to us. It’s why we choose monogamy. You have to put yourself first, because guaranteed nobody else will.’

‘I know, which is why I said no. I just, I don’t know, I just can’t help but feel like maybe I did the wrong thing by walking away. I mean, I had a chance to have him, and I threw it away. I’m afraid I’ll regret it when I’m a fifty year old childless crazy cat lady.’

Andy laughed kindly, and placed a hand on her shoulder.

‘A girl as beautiful as you won’t end up a crazy cat lady.’

Amanda scoffed. ‘Somehow I don’t believe that.’

Andy rolled his eyes.’ Now you’re just looking for sympathy. You said no and you have to live with the consequences. You can either mope about and feel sorry for yourself or move on.’

‘And how do I do that?’ she asked.

‘You ever heard the saying ‘Best way to get over a man is to get under one?’

Amanda laughed sarcastically.

‘I don’t think more sex is going to help the situation.’

‘Wait, you mean you slept with him?’

Amanda blushed. ‘Maybe. I may also have possibly have had a threesome with him and his partner.’

‘Shit, you’re one kinky bitch aren’t you, little Miss Butter-Wouldn’t-Melt-In-My-Mouth?’ He elbowed her.

She put her head in her hands.

‘And now I have to face him on Monday. I don’t know how I’ll do it.’

‘Well, don’t think about it. For now, let’s just get wasted and enjoy ourselves.’

‘Amen’ Amanda replied, as she picked up the shot in front of her drinking it in time with Andy.

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Sunday went by in a haze, her hangover working as the perfect distraction. She vaguely remembered Andy putting her in a taxi and making sure she got home safely but all other memories of the night were gone. When Monday morning came about she felt dread in the pit of her stomach. Her instincts were telling her to call in sick and avoid Gerard. However she knew it wouldn’t work, seeing as Gerard didn’t believe in sick days. She cursed when she remembered her car still needed to be fixed, rushing out the door to catch a cab. She made it into work with a few minutes to spare and she used the time to compose herself. Walking into the office, she noticed people were staring at her. It took her a moment to remember the events of Friday. Fucking her boss and his boyfriend had made her forget all about it.

‘Hey Amanda, how are you?’ Gillian asked kindly, patting her on the arm in sympathy.

‘I’m good, had a lazy weekend. You?’

‘I’m good, thanks’ Gillian gave her a sympathetic smile before walking back to her own desk.

Amanda logged in and took a deep breath, closing her eyes briefly in order to collect herself and prepare for seeing Gerard again. She felt his presence and opened her eyes to see him in front of her. The memory of seeing him naked suddenly came back to her, and she blushed as he stared at her with a determined look on his face.

‘Can I have a word in my office?’ He asked, and Amanda was aware of everybody staring at them. She simply nodded, not able to say a word as her throat dried up.

She followed him in silence, closing the door behind her gently and wishing that by some miracle the fire alarm would go off so she could avoid this moment.

‘I’ve been thinking about what you said all weekend’ he started without preamble, getting straight to the point. ‘I understand where you’re coming from, I really do but-‘

‘Gerard please don’t-‘

‘Let me finish!’ he barked ‘I’ve come up with a solution that will satisfy everyone.’

She looked at him perplexed and waited for him to continue.

‘You’re worried about being pushed aside, as is Frank. So, I think you should move in with us.’

Amanda stared at him in disbelief, wondering of this was a joke. She quickly realised it wasn’t.

‘That’s a solution that suits you Gerard. Do you think I’d want to live in the home you built with someone else? No, no way. I want to forget that this ever happened. I don’t need to be third wheel in someone else’s relationship. Find someone else who’s willing to be a doormat, because I’m out.’

‘You’re rejecting the idea before you’ve even given it a chance’ Gerard hissed with annoyance.

‘You’re right, I am. I’m not an idiot Gerard, and I’m not about to be manipulated into being a pawn in whatever sick game you’re playing. If you want me, I have to have you to myself, not share you like some toy. If you can’t give me that then please just leave me alone. I deserve to have someone who wants me and only me.’

Gerard’s face softened, and she swore he almost looked regretful.

‘I wish I could give you what you wanted Amanda.’ He said with sincerity.

‘I wish you could too.’ Amanda’s eyes filled with tears but she refused to let them fall. She had to be strong, and crying in front of Gerard would only give him the advantage.

‘Is that all?’ She asked, needed to get away from the man who was slowly breaking her heart.

He nodded, looking hurt and pained. Amanda told herself not to fall for it; this was all a game to him. He was only trying to play on her emotions, make her feel guilty for having the audacity to not give him what he wanted. She left quickly and sat at her desk, taking in a calm breath before getting her head down and doing some work.

By lunchtime she was ready to tear her hair out. The work had piled up from her half day on Friday, and she only beginning to start on the work she should have completed by the morning. She saw Gerard leave his office, glancing at her as though considering whether he should talk to her or not. He must have decided on the latter as he walked past her without a word. She worked through most of her lunch time, leaving her desk for a brief fifteen minutes to grab a quick bit to eat before she passed out from hunger. When she arrived back at her desk Gerard had already come back from his lunch, so she managed to avoid him for the rest of the afternoon.

When six o’clock arrived, she was the only person left in the office. The place felt eerie and creepy without all the background noise of people using the phones, copiers and gossiping. She sighed in frustration as she finally finished her work, pissed off and ready to go home and seek comfort with Ben and Jerry again. They always understood. She was beginning to log out of the system when Gerard’s office door open. He looked surprised to see her at her desk as he jumped slightly out of shock.

‘Why are you still here?’ He demanded.

‘I had work to catch up on from Friday. Unless you rather I left it unfinished.’

‘ Of course not.’ He replied softly, regretting being so harsh. ‘Come into my office for a minute’ he said, his hand on the handle of the door. He held the door open and waited for her, letting her enter first. He closed the door behind him, and turned around sharply to face her.

Before she knew it, Gerard stormed over to her and grabbed her waist before pulling her into a kiss. Amanda’s eyes widened in shock as she tried to push him away weakly, her heart not really in it. He walked her backwards to his desk before he grabbed the hem of her skirt and lifted it up while continuing their kiss. He bunched her skirt around her hips, pulling her panties down before grabbing the back of her thighs and sitting her on his desk. Amanda opened her mouth to protest as he broke their kiss, but he pulled her legs apart and placed his mouth between her legs before she could make a sound. She pulled at his hair weakly to push him away, but he grabbed her wrists and held them tightly as he continued his delicious assault on her clitoris with his tongue. She stopped protesting and gave in, moaning out loud as he increased the pressure and pace. He brought her to a quick mind blowing orgasm, before he pulled away and stood up, pulling her to her feet and bending her over his desk.

She knew she should feel guilty as he quickly entered her and started a rough rhythm, but in that moment she couldn’t make herself care about anything but the pleasure Gerard was giving her.

Notes

Hi All,

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