It's Just The Hardest Part of Living

My day went pretty smooth and quick. I was glad to have Gerard with me. He seemed to be good protection. This is the first time in a long time...well for a lot of things. I felt safe, accepted, out of danger. I felt happy. But when the day came to an end some of those feelings came to an end. I didn't want to go back in that house with those people. I wanted to stay where I belonged.

"So what did you think?" Gerard asked me, breaking me out of my thoughts.

"I love it. I wish I didn't have to go back home," I sighed. How many kids can say they wanted to stay at school? That they actually loved being at school?

"Your house can't be all that bad, I'm sure," he said. I laughed darkly at that one.

"If only you knew," was all I had to say. I could feel him looking at me. Out of the corner of my eye I seen him open his mouth to say something, and then it shut.

"Did you want a ride home?" he finally said after we got into the parking lot.

"Sure, why not," I accepted. No point in walking home. Plus I liked being with Gerard. Nothing could hurt me when I was with him.

"Where do you live?"

"On Thames, green house right in the middle of two oak trees."

He asked me a bit about my life during the car ride. What bands I liked, what kind of food I ate. He asked me about my real dad, but there wasn't much I could really say. What could I say about the man I never had a single memory of? One I only have one picture of? One I never knew what happened to? Just a car accident. That's all I have. I think Gerard could tell I was a little down about that, so he switched the subject.

"Have you ever had a mate?" he asked.

"Mate? You mean like a boyfriend?"

"Yeah, basically."

"Oh," I hesitated. I almost didn't answer, Gerard seemed like the type who's had many "mates". "No. I try to keep a low profile. Plus my parents would kill me if I ever brought a guy home."

"They can't exactly kill you," he chuckled at that.

"They like to call themselves 'slayers'. They have a mask they bought from a Halloween shop, but it on a foam globe and try to pass it off as a vampire head from one they killed. They fooled me when I was a kid. I obviously figured it out. But I was just making a figure of speech." I smiled at him.

Before I knew it we were on my street. I could see the oak trees outside of my house. I didn't want to leave Gerard. Not yet. I could feel my heart speeding up at the thought, my hands going clammy. We stopped outside.

"Do you want me to walk you up?" he asked.

"No, I can't afford for them to question me. Plus I might not let you go home," I sighed. I could feel his eyes on me again. I might have said to much.

"How about my number? That way if anything is wrong you can just text me?" he offered.

"I don't have a cell phone," I said. He looked at me like I was crazy at first, then immediately fixed his face as he realized the obvious. He reached into his pocket.

"Here," he said handing me a rather large black cell phone."Take mine. I have one at my house I'll just activate that one."

I sat in disbelief. He was just going to give me an expensive cell phone and think nothing about it? I couldn't accept this, so I tried to hand it back. He shook his head and told me no.

"Gerard, I can't take this. I don't deserve something this kind," I said trying to hand it back to him.

"Why don't you?" He questioned. "You're a creature of beauty and kindness, why shouldn't you have nice things?"

"Well I haven't exactly felt that my whole life, so why should I have nice things?"

"Because you should. And as long as I'm around, I'm going to make sure you have the nicest," he reached out to place his hand on my cheek. My face flushed.

I knew I had to get out of the car soon. I didn't want my mom looking out of the window and seeing Gerard. She would know something was up. Gerard knew this too, so he took his hand away. I wished he hadn't.

"I will text you as soon as I get home and activate that phone. I promise," he said finally. I nodded my head, a feeling of loss in the pit of my stomach. Why did I not want to let him go? I barely know him.

"I can't wait," I said. He smiled. I turned to get out of the car, grabbing my bag.

"One more thing," he spoke. I looked at him. "Don't wear that giant hoodie. Your body deserves to be shown, no matter who you live with."

I laughed a bit. "I'll keep that in mind."

I got out of the car and shut the door. I turned back to him to see him wink at me. I smiled, butterflies forming in my stomach. He pulled off and I turned back to my house. I dragged my feet to the door, knowing there would be questions upon my entrance. And they didn't disappoint

"How was it?" my mom asked the second I shut the door behind me.

"Fine," was all I knew I could really say to her.

"Did it do anything?" my father asked rudely, not taking his eyes off of whatever stupid game was on t.v.

"Oh yeah, I'm cured after one day. It's a fucking miracle, someone call Oprah," I rolled my eyes. I couldn't help my mouth when it came to him.

"Frank," my mother warned. He took his eyes off the t.v. to glare at me. I returned the look.

"You might want to watch your tone boy," he tried to threat.

"Or what, you might get off your ass and actually do something?" I turned to go to my room.

"Frank, get upstairs," my mom ordered. I heard him get up and yet again my mom got in between us. I walked up to my bedroom.

After I shut my door I heard him yell at her to get her pansy ass, disgrace of a son under control. I couldn't help but laugh. I wish they would try sometime. I shot my bag on the desk that sat across from my bed and sat down. I took the notebooks I used today and stuck them in a drawer. If they went through my bag I didn't want them to find anything. I heard a knock on my door.

"Frank," my mom asked as she opened the door slightly.

"Come in," you're going to anyway.

"So how was it really?" she asked as she shut my door behind her.

"I told you fine."

"Did you make any friends?"

"What are you really fishing for here, mom?" I wasn't in the mood for games.

"I want to help you out of this mood you're always in, so I'm honestly trying to make a good conversation," she said.

"Did you ever think about maybe why I'm in the mood I'm in?" I replied. She knew what I meant.

"Frank, ease up on him. He doesn't have it easy right now."

"He doesn't need to speak to me any way he thinks he can," I said bluntly.

"He's your father," she said.

"No he isn't. He's a guy you married because my father died and you couldn't handle it. And he knows it. I'm not going to treat him with respect until he treats both of us with the same respect."

She visibly sighed. She knew I was right. I was not going to apologize for a man who has helped make my life hell. Just then I felt the phone buzz in my pocket. I was glad she didn't hear it.

"Look, I'm really tired mom," I started.

"Say no more," she turned to walk out. "Frank, please know I do love you."

I nodded. She walked out and shut the door. I waited a second and rushed to lock the handle. I pulled the phone out of my pocket with lightening speed. A number I of course did not know showed on the screen. I opened the message.

G-I have the phone activated. I'm here for whatever you need sugar.

I smiled. I saved the contact and text him

F-Thank you. I'm glad to have you.

G-How did everything go when you got in?

F-Fine. My father called me a disgrace.

G-Well he's wrong.

I felt the butterflies again. It was nice someone telling me things like this. I never had that, even with small elementary school friends, none of them really though I was good at anything.

He text me for hours. We talked about how that day went, about some of his friends he had to introduce me to, his brother. He had so much he wanted to show me and I was so excited. I felt like I was starting this new life, that I was finally meant to be happy.

And I think for the first time in forever, I fell asleep early, and dreamed wonderful dreams.

Notes

Yay, I have two subs! That's pretty awesome. And a comment, which is nice cause it makes me think you guys might actually like this story.

Sorry it took a couple days to update, I've been busier than usual. I should definitely have another chapter up tomorrow, and I really hope you guys like this one.

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