I Hate Your Mask
Bad Habits
Wednesday, 5:23 a.m.
I just woke up a few minutes ago, and now I'm running home to get ready for school. I've never worn the same clothes to school two times in a row before, and I'm not about to start now. I got home at 5:52, the door was locked so I went around back and got in through the kitchen window. I ran upstairs to my room, and quickly got in the bathroom to shower. It was a quick, warm shower.
"How long do you think it'll be before Jerry flips out on you?" asks the voice. I ignore it, I guess that's just what I plan on doing with it now. "You can't just ignore me Gerard, these are your thoughts. You are creating me right now."
"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" I'm standing alone in my room, with only a towel covering me, then Mikey pops in.
"What's wrong with you?" He asked clearly annoyed with me.
"Nothing." I replied quickly. "Can you get out. I'm changing." he scoffed and walked out letting the door swing shut behind him.
"You should really stop worrying about him," said the voice, "he's never going to understand you."
I focus on changing, picking a lovely cream colored tank with black jeans. Not one of my best outfits, but considering the night I had it'll do. Yes I've had worse, but the voice is new.
I'm in the beginning stages of going completely insane, how do I cope with that? I put on some eyeliner, not too heavy, I don't want to to look emo. I'm ready by 6:30, so I gather my things and get in my car, because I rather be at school than anywhere near this house.
This car is one of the things that pisses off Mikey, I got it when I was fifteen and he's about to turn 16 and still only has a bike. He thinks that Jerry likes me more. Which is technically true, but it's not very ideal, I guess.
As I turn on my car, Mikey walks out of the house, I lower the window sticking my head out slightly. "Mikey!" He gives me a death glare, "Do you want a ride?" I ask weakly.
"No." He says adjusting his backpack and stepping of the porch.
I close my window, and look straight ahead for a minute or two. Then I back up and drive to school, passing Mikey along the way. I really wish we had a better relationship, I guess it was just one of those things we can't come back from.
The school is mostly empty. Except for some kids who got stuck with zero period and Ray of course. He gets here so we can hang out.
"Hey Ray," I greeted.
"Hey Gerard," he responded, and we walked to the back of the school. " you look like a mess what happened?" I look like a mess? Has he looked in the mirror.
"I had to run home because I slept at a hotel."
"Didn't wanna be near Jerry?" He asked leaning against the wall of the main building.
"Nope."Ray pulled out a pack of cigarettes, they were tempting right now "I thought you were gonna quit?"
"I was." He said looking down and putting it in his mouth. He lit it, and inhaled his hand shaking as he did. There's only ever been one person who has made Ray this nervous.
"Did Derek come back?"
I just woke up a few minutes ago, and now I'm running home to get ready for school. I've never worn the same clothes to school two times in a row before, and I'm not about to start now. I got home at 5:52, the door was locked so I went around back and got in through the kitchen window. I ran upstairs to my room, and quickly got in the bathroom to shower. It was a quick, warm shower.
"How long do you think it'll be before Jerry flips out on you?" asks the voice. I ignore it, I guess that's just what I plan on doing with it now. "You can't just ignore me Gerard, these are your thoughts. You are creating me right now."
"Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!" I'm standing alone in my room, with only a towel covering me, then Mikey pops in.
"What's wrong with you?" He asked clearly annoyed with me.
"Nothing." I replied quickly. "Can you get out. I'm changing." he scoffed and walked out letting the door swing shut behind him.
"You should really stop worrying about him," said the voice, "he's never going to understand you."
I focus on changing, picking a lovely cream colored tank with black jeans. Not one of my best outfits, but considering the night I had it'll do. Yes I've had worse, but the voice is new.
I'm in the beginning stages of going completely insane, how do I cope with that? I put on some eyeliner, not too heavy, I don't want to to look emo. I'm ready by 6:30, so I gather my things and get in my car, because I rather be at school than anywhere near this house.
This car is one of the things that pisses off Mikey, I got it when I was fifteen and he's about to turn 16 and still only has a bike. He thinks that Jerry likes me more. Which is technically true, but it's not very ideal, I guess.
As I turn on my car, Mikey walks out of the house, I lower the window sticking my head out slightly. "Mikey!" He gives me a death glare, "Do you want a ride?" I ask weakly.
"No." He says adjusting his backpack and stepping of the porch.
I close my window, and look straight ahead for a minute or two. Then I back up and drive to school, passing Mikey along the way. I really wish we had a better relationship, I guess it was just one of those things we can't come back from.
The school is mostly empty. Except for some kids who got stuck with zero period and Ray of course. He gets here so we can hang out.
"Hey Ray," I greeted.
"Hey Gerard," he responded, and we walked to the back of the school. " you look like a mess what happened?" I look like a mess? Has he looked in the mirror.
"I had to run home because I slept at a hotel."
"Didn't wanna be near Jerry?" He asked leaning against the wall of the main building.
"Nope."Ray pulled out a pack of cigarettes, they were tempting right now "I thought you were gonna quit?"
"I was." He said looking down and putting it in his mouth. He lit it, and inhaled his hand shaking as he did. There's only ever been one person who has made Ray this nervous.
"Did Derek come back?"
Notes
Ooh! Who's Derek? Alright here's a transitioning chapter, I promise the next will be better, or at least have more going on. I hope you guys still liked this chapter though. So please let me know what you thought, I'm really sorry this took so long, and thanks for sticking around. As always, take care my lovelies(^-^)
Has this been completed?
10/11/18