Vanya's P.O.V 1 month later I haven't visited Gerard in the hospital yet. I'm not sure I could take the pain. Frank has been at the hospital with Gerard everyday now for a month. His condition is stable. He's not getting better but atleast he's not getting worse. School days feel longer. It feels like it was just yesterday that we were holding hands and laughing in the hallways. People send me apologetic looks, but I don't really give a damn. It's their fault he's in a coma in the first place. Kailey keeps trying to talk to me, but I'm in too deep of a depression to pay attention to anyone, especially her. Charlottes mom has been more than nice to me. I've stayed with them for a long time and both Char and her mom try not to me took Gerard. I'm grateful for that. I've cried lulu self to sleep every night this week. I don't know why Gerard would leave me like this...I love him more than I even love my own life. Maybe I should've told him and he would still be with me. I've gone completely emo. I cut my hair short and dyed it red. I only wear black. I always put on clumps of black eyeliner and I've even started cutting. Drew hasn't been any nicer, in fact he has been meaner now than ever. People whisper about me in the hallways. Some even act like they don't even know me, though I don't blame them...I'm not sure I even know myself anymore...