"Sie? Sierra? Are you okay? Answer me Sierra!" Frank was almost shouting at me. I hadn't realized I was shaking so badly.

"What? Yeah. Sorry Frank. I was just.. remembering some of what happened..." My voice trailed of. I didn't want to remember anymore. Frank looked at me concerned and then gave me a very tight hug.

"I really wish I could do something. I hate seeing you like this Sierra." Frank was being serious. He only used my full name when he's being serious or if I pissed him off. I looked up and into Frank's pretty hazel eyes. He held so much emotion behind them. I wanted to kiss him, but I couldn't. He was my best friend and I would hate to ruin this friendship. I know this sounds cheesy or wrong, but I need him to stay in my life. And if staying friends is the answer, then so be it. It kills me to do this, but I need to keep him.

"I wish the same thing Frankie." I closed my eyes and pushed myself into Frank. Wishing that I could just stay here forever where nothing went wrong. Where I always felt safe and happy. After a couple of minutes, our stomachs rumbled. We both laughed. "I guess we should get something to eat." I said. Frank helped me up from my "bed" and we went into the kitchen.

"What do you want for breakfast Miss Sands? We have a delectable french toast, scrumptious pancakes, and shitty cereal." Frank spoke with a french accent while listing off my breakfast options. I couldn't help laughing my ass off as he said this with such a straight face. I was on the floor crying because I had found this so funny. "You really think it was that funny Sie? Wow, you find anything funny. Now what the fuck do you want?" Frank laughed at me.

"I'll take french toast. I want to make you work this morning." I gave him a grin and he stuck his tongue out at me.

"Fine. But you're cleaning up when I'm done."

"You're funny. I'm not cleaning anything up. You are the one who offered to make me all of that stuff." I stuck my tongue out at Frank because I was right and he knew it. He gave in with a sigh.

"Fuck. Fine, I'll clean up." He didn't look very happy. I was glad to have won this battle, but I hated seeing him look unhappy with something I've done. I watched him grab everything for out breakfast. When he started cracking eggs, I went up to him and hugged him.

"I'm sorry Fwankie. I like it when you make me food. It's better than your shitty cereal." I made sure to say Fwankie because he would forgive me.

"It's okay Sie. I just hate cleaning, but you're right. I offered."

"Do you know what we should do today after breakfast?" I asked.

"What?"

"We should hang out with the guys. I could watch you guys jam out in the garage!" I loved watching Frank, Gerard, Mikey, Ray, and Bob jam out in the garage at Ray's place. They made amazing music. But I loved hearing the chords that Frank would play the most.

"Hell yeah! You should go call them while I make breakfast." Frank looked excited.

"Okay!" I ran into Frank's room to get my phone and call the guys. I fished around my crummy excuse of a backpack and finally found my phone. I called Ray first because we would be at his place. He picked up on the third ring.

"Hey Sie. What's up?"

"Not much. Are you up for a jam session today?"

"Always! I haven't seen you and Frank in a couple of days. I'm sure the others would be up to it also." Ray knew Frank and I always hung out together and that I'd go wherever he'd go. Except for the men's bathroom. That happened once and would never happen again.

"Cool! Can you call Bob for me? I'll call Gee and have him tell Mikey."

"Sure thang pudding tang." Ray and I laughed.

"Ha ha. Okay. I think we'll be over around ten. Sound good to you?"

"Yeah. I'll tell Bob to be here by ten."

"Okay. See you later Ray!"

"See you later Sie." Ray hung up and I started calling Gerard. His phone went right to voice mail. Fuck, he probably shut it off or it died. I called Mikey's phone and he picked up on the second ring.

"Good morning Sie." Mikey sounded happy.

"Morning Mikey. Is Gee's phone dead or something? I tried calling but it went to voice mail."

"I think he turned it off. He's sleeping right now. What'd you need him for?"

"I was going to tell him we're going to have a jam session today and to tell you as well. Wake his ass up and give him the phone. Tell him I want to talk to him."

"Sure. What time's the jam session?" Mikey asked. I could hear him opening Gerard's door.

"Ten at Ray's. He's calling Bob and letting him know."

"Okay." Mikey whispered. "Gerard, wake up. Sierra needs to talk to you, it's really important." Mikey's voice was muffled. He must have put his phone against his hand or something. I could hear Gerard groaning in the background.

"Hello?" He sounded really tired. I kind of felt bad. Oh well, I'll say sorry when I see him later. I'll get him a coffee.

"Wake the fuck up and get ready. We're having a jam session at ten at Ray's place." I tried to sound demanding.

"But I'm tired. Wait, ten??? What the fuck is the time?! SIERRA IT'S EIGHT IN THE FUCKING MORNING! I SHOULD NOT BE UP!" I could hear Mikey laughing in the background.

"I'll bring you coffee! Please Gee? I haven't seen you guys in a couple of days and I miss you all. Besides, everyone else is already up. But it's probably my fault..." The last part slipped out of my mouth.

"Did you have a bad dream again?" Gerard made his tone a lot softer. He was like a big brother to me and always cared about me if something was wrong.

"Yeah. I woke Frank up this morning with my screaming." I sighed.

"I'm sorry. Mikey and I will be at Ray's on time. We miss you a lot too Sie. And you better bring me my coffee." I could hear the smile in his voice.

"I'll have your coffee, I promise. I'll see you guys later. Tell Mikey I say bye."

"Okay. Bye Sie." I hung up and went back into the kitchen. Frank was putting breakfast on the table and it looked amazing.

"That looks amazing Frank! I can't wait to eat it. Oh, we have to be at Ray's at ten. I also have to pick up a coffee on the way."

"Okay. But why the coffee? We have coffee here."

"It's for Gee. He was sleeping and I promised him coffee if he came. He was really tired."

"Ah. Well, come and eat if we're gonna get to Ray's on time." Frank pulled out a chair for me and I sat down. We ate in silence and got ready after cleaning up. I felt the need to help Frank clean up. I chose pink tights, some short shorts, a black shirt, my 80's glove, and purple converse. I always loved this outfit because it was fun to wear and comfortable. It was my own look and I didn't give a damn if people thought it was strange. Frank was wearing jeans with holes in the knees, a black polo, and black converse.

"Can I drive?" I asked.

"I guess. Here." Frank tossed me the car keys. We got in the car and I drove off to Starbucks. I bought two caramel frappuccinos. One for me and one for Gerard. I loved caramel frappuccinos. They were amazing. After getting our drinks, I drove to Ray's. It was 9:55am when we got there. Bob was already at Ray's setting up his drums. Ray was setting up his guitar. Gerard and Mikey pulled up right behind us. I grabbed the frappuccinos and Gerard was running over to me.

"Gimme, gimme, gimme!!!" Gerard was acting like a little kid and making grabby hands.

"Wait! Give me a hug first and you get your frappuccino!" I laughed as Gerard made a slight pouty face. He gave me a big hug and I gave him his drink.

"Thank you so much! I fucking love you Sie!" Gerard gave me another hug and took a sip of his drink.

"You're welcome Gee. I really wanted to see you and felt bad for waking you up. I thought coffee would make up for it." I gave Gerard a small smile and he smiled back. I saw Mikey get out of the car and and went up to him. "Mikey! Thank you so much for waking Gerard's lazy ass up." Mikey chuckled and gave me a hug. I made sure Gerard heard and he flicked us off. I laughed at his small gesture.

"As long as I got to see you and Frank again and jam out." He smiled at me before grabbing his guitar from the car. We headed into the garage and the others were almost finished setting up. I took a seat on the hood of Frank's car and waited.

"Since you brought us here to play, what do you want to hear?" Ray asked. I gave it some thought and had a few songs come to mind.

"I have three songs I want you to play. I want to hear To The End, The Jetset Life Is Gonna Kill You, and Thank You For The Venom. I like those songs."

"Sounds good. Ready guys?" Gerard asked. The guys all nodded and began playing. After they played the songs I wanted, they took a break. I clapped for them because they had done such a great job.

"You should sing the song you wrote Sierra." Frank said. They guys all looked at Frank and then me. I was scared.

"What song? I haven't written anything." I tried to play dumb. It didn't work.

"Don't lie to me. I've seen you writing and I heard you sing it. Please?" Frank used his puppy eyes on me and I couldn't say no.

I took a deep breath. "Fine Frank. I'll sing." I was about to start singing but Frank stopped me.

"No, sing into the mic." I gave him a little death glare and went to the mic. I took another deep breath to calm my nerves and started singing.

"I wanna fall, fall asleep

Forget the world

Forget the pain

Forget the people in this place.

I wanna slip, away from here

Leave the world

And leave the pain

Leave the people in this place

Why can't I dream a better dream?

My nightmares always haunting me

My past is coming back for me

I'll take this gun to my head

I'll be lying still in my bed

Their hurtful words, they scar my heart

And their cruel actions, they scar my skin

I can feel myself, falling hard

And I can feel myself, slipping fast

It's time for me, to leave you now

As I begin to fall, fall asleep

Forgetting the world

Forgetting the pain

Forgetting the people in this place

As I begin to slip, away from here

Leaving the world

And leaving the pain

Leaving the people in this place

But I guarantee, we'll meet again

Now I've fallen asleep

And forgotten the world

Forgotten the pain

Forgotten the people in that place

I've slipped away

And left the world

Left the pain

Left the people in that place

Except for your, precious face

You almost fixed my broken heart

And you almost help me win."

When I was done the guys were looking at me in awe. It even looked like they had tears in their eyes. They started clapping and cheering for me. I could feel my cheeks turn bright red because I hated being the center of attention.

"That was beautiful, if I must say." Gerard spoke. They guys nodded in agreement.

"You have such an amazing voice. Why didn't you say anything to us?" Ray asked.

"I don't like to sing in front of people. Singing is my only escape and I don't want people to ruin it by judging my singing." I looked down at the ground.

"No one will think your singing is bad. If they do, they're a dumbass." Mikey told me. I smiled and felt myself go even more red.

"Thanks you guys. That means a lot."

"Group hug!" Bob shouted. They guys came at me and surrounded me in love. They were my family and I loved them to death. Which I'm sure would come soon because I was being crushed by all of them.

"Guys..can't.. breath.. need.. air." They let me go and I could finally breath again.

"Do you have any other songs?" Gerard asked.

"No. But I do try to practice your songs when I'm alone. My mom will hide in my room and listen to me singing, so I'm not really alone some times."

"Really? You should sing some of them then!" Frank said excited.

"Not today. But, I have a question for you guys. Can you put something together for my song? I have nothing for it and it needs music. I can't just let it be vocals." I looked at the guys hoping they could do something.

"Yeah, I'm sure we could do something." Mikey said happily
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"Awesome, let's get to it!"

Notes

I'm so sorry this took so long!!! I've just been really busy and kind of had a writers block. I hope this is long enough and makes up for not updating in a while. I wrote the song that's in this. I called it Fall Asleep. If you want to hear it I'll put a link on here somewhere. Please comment, vote, and subscribe! I'd like to see some comments on here!! I hope you liked this chapter.
Forever yours,
-Silent Scream