I looked at him closely studying his expression as I walked up to him. Mikey was still Sat on the couch watching tv completely unaware of his brothers presence.

"Go talk to him." I whispered softly into his ear causing him to jump.
"I-I cant" He stammered out not bothering to whisper
I sighed grabbing his hand softly pulling him close. Why was he so scared they used to be so fucking close and then one day they just decided to never talk to each other again.

Did I cause it?

Was Mikey upset about the engagement? No he couldn't be he's happy for us right?

Yeah he had to be!
right?
I heard Gerard let out a shakey sigh I quickly looked up at him my face twisting with concern. He didn't even look down he kept his eyes on Mikey. He looked fucking terrified. I've never seen Gerard this scared before especially because of Mikey.

"He misses you y'know?"
"i know." He took a sharp breath "I'm his big brother I've always been there for him all his life. And now I'm not."
"Then go and be there for him again."
He sighed heavily his gaze falling to the ground. I sighed softly squeezing his hand gently then rubbing my thumb across the top of his hand attempting to calm him.
I glanced up at Mikey slightly he hadn't moved an inch he was completely oblivious to us and what had been happening for the last five minutes.
Should I go up to him and tell him about Gerard? No this Gerard's thing I'll let him talk to him when he's ready.

I heard Gerard take in another sharp breath holding it in slightly. I quickly looked up at him and followed his gaze finding it laid upon Mikey. But this time Mikey was staring back at us.
But he wasnt even attempting to look at Gerard he was just staring at me. It wasn't like he was avoiding Gerard either it's like he genuinely didn't know he was there. I opened my mouth to talk but quickly shut it not able to speak.
Mikey looked at me confused slightly. I ignored his gaze looking up at Gerard slightly his face was still twisted in fear. I saw Mikey look up.at Gerard from the corner of my eye and then quickly looked back at him.waiting for his reaction.

"Why do you keep doing this?!! Holy shit man you're just hurting everyone!!" Mikey shouted harshly his voice laced with venom and pain I winced at his words closing my eyes tightly. I assumed the words were for Gerard.
What could have Gerard done to hurt Mikey.
He seemed so fucking hurt what could of fucking happened.
Im asking Gerard about it tonight. I have to fucking know what happened.

I finally opened my eyes expecting to see Mikey glaring at Gerard or something but when I looked up.at him his eyes were set straight on mine. He looked hurt and extremely pissed like he had finally snapped. I looked ackup at him with confusion "w-what did I do?" I stuttered out sounding way more weak than I wanted to.
Mikey's eyes soften mumbling something under his breath all I could make out from it was "fuck, still don't know" I shifted uncomfortably tears prickly at my eyes. Mikey had never screamed at me before. No oneI really did anymore I feel like they all knew how upset it made me.
Fuck why am I so weak. I'm like a fucking five year old it's pathetic.
I kept my eyes on the ground letting go of Gerard wrapping my arms around myself in attempt to comfort myself. Gerard just stood there the terrified expression still burned onto his face. I let out a small whimper hoping Mikey didn't hear it.
Next thing I knew I felt Mikey's arms around me I didn't even hesitate to hug back tightly letting everything out. I sobbed hard into his chest not just from the yelling but from the pain from the incident just hours before no matter how much I attempted to tell myself I was okay and that I wasn't affected by it it fucking hurt and I wasn't okay no matter how much I tell myself. I'm not o-fucking-kay.
I felt Mikey pull away and wrap his hands around my arms looking deeply into my eyes I stared back into his eyes searching them I'm not sure what for but I just wanted o find something. His eyes widened slightly "What happened?"
I gasped slightly attempting to hide the pain in my eyes"W-what are you talking about?" I asked quickly chewing on my bottom lip harshly.

"Something happened. You're hurting." Mikey's eyes stared into mine like he was searching for answers. I sighed softly going to look up at Gerard but he was gone I guess he went upstairs.
Maybe all of this was to much for him to take.
Fuck I hope he's okay.
Mikey spoke up again causing my attention to go straight back to him "Frank." He breathed out "What the Hell happened?" I sighed softly I guess there was no way of getting out of explaining it. "Fine I'll tell you." I finally whispered out.

Mikey smiled weakly and nodded still holding onto me as he walked over to the couch sitting down pulling me down next to him. He turned so we were face to face. I sighed softly chewing at my lip again.
"Okay so after you left earlier me and Gerard." I stopped slightly watching his reaction to the mention of Gerard. He winced slightly as soon as his name slipped out of my lips but then shrugged it off and nodded at me as a signal for me to continue. I nodded lightly as I continued "We ate breakfast and things happened and my shirt ended up being ripped in half." I heard Mikey groan slightly in disgust "and so we decided to go to the mall. We went straight to Spencer's like always and um" I gulped back harshly tears beginning to form once again. I quickly wiped them away and continued "and um Gerard went to the back for a second and the uh cashier he pinned me up against the wall and he um. He touched me" I choked out ""I didn't want it I fucking hated it but I still got hard it's fucking disgusting. I'm disgusting his fucking prints are fucking burned into my bones and I can't get them out!" I shouted "He didn't touch me long but it was enough to make me fucking puke just at the memories I don't know what to do Mikey! Gerard Isnt mad and he doesn't blame me or anything but it still hurts i-i don't wanna feel like this" I began sobbing once again. I heard Mikey gasp and pull me into a tight hug.
"Im so sorry Frankie!" He rubbed back rocking us back in forth repeating I'm sorry over and over. It seemed like he was guilty he wasn't there to protect me. I heard him whisper very ery gently I probably wasn't even supposed to hear it "i promised him I would protect you" I wanted to know who he was talking about but I figured now wouldnt be the best time to ask. I sniffles softly clutching onto his shirt breathing in his scent as he continued to rock.us back and forth.
I felt my eyelids begin to droop and the next thing I knew I was fast asleep in mikeys arms.

Notes

Hey guys! Sorry I haven't updated in I think almost a week I just really had no idea where to go with this chapter I was even thinking about revealing the big secret but I decided to make you guys wait a little longer but I probably made it obvious in this chapter buuut oh well. And hey! I finally wrote a slightly long chapter! I hope you guys liked it :*